Ended school earlier as usual on at about 10plus . So, cabbed with Sliver and Jasmine to Tampines inter there to take bus home. LOLs. Randomly, me & 茉莉花 decided to get some food from old chang kee. Den headed to take bus home, while I go to baby's house.

things ain't looking on the bright side I guess. My heart aches, I dunno how to explain it. But i do wan u to be happy. What can I do? cause I love u.

Slacked at baby's house in the end and both of us fell asleep . LOLS. woke up onli at 7.28pm. POWER right . Sleep so long . Thanks baby for buying lunch for me. :) LOVES.

I nid to change & I wan to change.

It's been long since I last uploaded me & baby's picture :D

Sadly, I just had an arguement with him over my studies. I know everyone wants me to do well. They all care for me and wants me to study hard so tat I can get a good job in future.

But, do you tink I dun wan to do well? Seriously, I dun quite understand much about Accounting and it reallie kills me when I get to learn new things like DEPRECIATION and wadever shit. It's tiring to face the board and learn without understanding anything even aft you tried to ask ur classmate. My tears just drip as I thought about it. I didn't mean to, but I'm reallie upset. I still got a presentation slide to do. It's even worse, left undone.

What can I do now? )': I just wanted abit more of care):

I'm back home damn early at 1pm. As we finished school as early as 12 noon today. As usual, lessons was slack. Took 31 to inter den 65 home.

Well, somtimes even if u had not done anything, you still get hurt. Ironically, I don't know wad I've done which makes ppl hates me so much. Be it in secondary school times or ite, it never change. How sad can this be.

Many tasks to do today:

- Try to carry on with part of my presentation slides.

-Make as many cards as I can by today.

-Give dearie a surprise tmr! (:

I might be back tonight! CYA

I'm here to update again. Well, this pic was taken ytd as I was trying to stop the lift? LOLS. Crazy me . Was just trying to be funny luhs . ><

Ppl may not like me but I dun mind. Quite used to it ler, secondary schh times also liddat . Everyone seems to like picking on me yea? well, baby says dun care them and as long as I got him is enough. He's so sweet . I guess it's quite true cause I dun reallie care a damn for lousy ppl whose words are louder than action.

Aft running 2rounds and spending an hour on basketball during SW ytd, I'm damn shag luhs . Whole body aching today especially my legs which seems to have gone numb. Haha .

I'm going to sleep soon.

BYEE !

Hey . People, I found this link once again to a very sad story which I read long time ago. Decided to share it again . Do click on the link to be directed to the page :D ENJOY ! :)


Currently in class now, a fight between teacher & student broke out. So scary luuhs, student broke the keyboard of the com . Teacher angry liao, den we all can't do anything but to be obedient now . Sobs ! ): RELAX man!

DEARIE, I'm missing you now! Can see you later le! :DDD

BYEEEE!

Hi. I'm back to blog again. :D

Many many things to mention & update about. If you've been reading my blog, you would have known how much I dragged going to school and also hate school. However, I've got a different view now all because of my lovely classmates! :)

I realise I, myself was just like a bread while they were just like flour. Totally 2 different things or different kinds. However, when i started to engage with them and mix around with a particular group of them. I realise we got so much to talk about! Just like when you've mix flour and water, they can be made into so many different kinds of food! :D So you see, they changed my view of going to school and also gives me a sense of motivation to study again. I totally love them so much so I would like to take the chance here now to thank them once again!

Although I might seem to be the EXTRA one joining them later on, but it still depends on them whether they are willing to accept me or not. Also, when you treat someone truly as your friend or not, they will be able to sense it with their feelings. So I believe I dont have to say anything much & they know how I feel. SO, even if I'm the EXTRA one, I dun mind as long as I'm as true as those EXISTING ones. Agree?

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Special dedications to PLANT, METAL & BODY FEATURES.

I proudly declare tat 茉莉花，银，& 胡须 as my new cliques now. My beloved group of friends in school who always encouraged me to study. Who never fails to coach me whenever I've got doubts and don't knows. & they were always as patient to teach me no matter how slow I could be, which I reallie appreciate it alot. Especially 茉莉花, even when I always disturb her & provoke her, she is still as patient to me as ever. THANKS ALOT !! 真的非常感谢你们对我的耐心，也谢谢你们愿意接受我。

For those whom I did not mention, dun tink tat I've forgotten about YOU! I'm just too shy to mention ur name :P Thanks for being willing to accept me as your friend too :D

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DEDICATIONS TO MY PRECIOUS BABY <333

之前，我们可能遇见了一些困难。不过，那些风风雨雨我们都能一起度过了。我相信这一次又一次的难关我们都可以一起面对，度过。对我们的感情来说，都真加了多一份肯定。今天，你真的让我觉得很开心，很幸福。有了你那一句话，我之前的犹豫和担心全都消失了。宝贝，真的也要谢谢你那么爱我，疼我。还有容忍我的无理取闹，我的幼稚。如果没有你，我真不知道会变怎样。如果没有你，我活在这世上就失去了所有意义，开心，难过，伤心，妒忌，恨；这些所有的感触我都将失去而变成了一个没有情感的人。到那个时候，什么都不重要了。世界将变得更寒冷，而我也在活着的每一天里痛苦却又哭不出来。一直到我们再次重逢，这就是我们彼此的爱。

Baby, I love you & I really appreciate all that you've done for me. All those sweet things which you said,all those love which you gave. I've kept them all, deep down in my heart. It's a place which would never be full, where there's always you,where it's always enough to store our memories. With your assurance, I can never be happy enough to be the happiest gal on earth! :DDD Therefore, I must never let you down and fulfill my promise to study hard and to strive for our future. DEAR, I'll never let you be unhappy again. Cause i'm so gonna cherish you and love you. I know it's tough for you in camp even though you said you're quite free. But trainings are still tiring so I must be a nicer gf to sayang you when you book out (:

Muackzz . *hug hug*

DEARIE,
Thanks for taking care of me on Fri & Sat when I was sick & unwell.
Thanks for letting me noe wad is love all about again.
Thanks for loving me with your heart.
Thanks for telling me tat you lived for me in the past.
Thanks for all those touching moments we had together.
Thanks for every single bit of little things which you've done for me.
Thanks for standing infront of me,braving through every obstacle with me for the past 4months.
Thanks for all those sweet words which you've said to me.
Thanks for caring about me when you knew I was scared to be alone.
Thanks for encouraging me to study hard when I've given up hope.
Thanks for giving me tat little hug when you knew I was down.
Thanks for being there when I needed you.
Thanks for always being so nice to me.
Thanks for saying : I miss you & I love you.
Thanks for protecting me from those thunder storms and lightning frights tat night.
Thanks for letting me hold your arm throughout the haunted house trip.
Thanks for giving me tat kiss to cheer me up.
Thanks for not going to dota and lan just for my sake.
Thanks for giving up your freedom to be with me.
Tnanks for accepting me no matter how unreasonable I had been.
Thanks for sharing yourself with me.
Thanks for hugging me to sleep every weekend when we could.
Thanks for staying awake no mattter how tired you were.
Thanks for playing tat silly game with me in your psp.
Thanks for being by my side.


& I thank GOD you were here.

I LOVE YOU <3>
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since then, you are the only one for me.
NEVER BE REPLACED.

孤单寂寞，这是我第一次觉得你那么陌生，对我那么冷淡。不过，这都是我的惩罚，都是我应得的。是我自己太自私，太自以为是。从来没有去考虑你的感受，或是你真正想要的。我真的很对不起你，因为这样，让你觉得我把你绑得太紧。现在，我要学着如何松开我的手，不要老是紧紧的牵着你。不然我将永远的失去你。

原来从以前到现在，我一点都没有变过。还是一样，爱一个人，就爱过头。我真的真的要改掉这个坏习惯。因为我不想也不要再失去你，我已经受不了多一次的打击。可是为什么我的心那么痛，眼泪不停的流。。 我根本不值得任何人的爱，不管是谁，我都让他们失望了。。

我真的觉得自己没用。。 对姐姐，我失信于给她的承诺。对我亲爱的人，我给不了他快乐，反而让他觉得爱没自由。。 对于朋友，我也不是个好朋友。。 对我自己，我彻底失望。。

我铁过一次，站了起来。但是这一次，我已经铁进谷底，再也没办法站起来了。。
所以，我真的不能再铁倒了。。

我觉得自己好狼狈。。 为什么我要那么害怕？紧张别人都不在意的事情。

LOL. these pictures were taken in school today :D i love to spam their blogs & friendsters & taking their photos :P come chase me!

Na na ne poo poo ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEIHUA ONCE AGAIN !

well, the pictures shall do the talking.

we went to eat seoul garden at tampines(:

LOLS. look at the pictures & you guys can see those boys were practically vegetarians. hahas . they were eating vegetables and buns all the time -.- I also ate a lil only so was quite a waste of money . lols . but Hope the birthday gal did enjoy herself :D

Cartoon art done by me and Jasmine (:

ShuJun in disco . Hahas .

Jasmine & ShuJun

Jasmine & Me.

Yvonne & ME :DD


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEIHUA ! MY BEST SISTER (:

hereby, I wish you will have an enjoyable and unforgettable celebrations with us later on :D
May all ur wishes come true (:

took some random pictures in class. was drawing the cartoons of us again. this time a lil better than the last time. hahas . Had lesson til 12pm only today . Learn balance sheet and was still okay lahs . den took bus with jasmine and yvonne to tampines inter . LOL

Yvonne said there was this indian guy who had a plaster on his forehead. Who was sittin just right infront of us . Yet, jasmine and I couldn't spot him until some time later as we were scanning at the back of the car . HAHAHS.

Took 65 home (:

Meeting yiting they all to celebrate Meihua's birthday at 5pm. Will be back for updates tmr or tonight (:

Compare us in the cartoon and in real! HAHA!

Well. pictures above are my artwork during today's IAC (intermediate accounting) class . HAHAS! I noe my drawing sucks. Just wanted to amuse them ( shu jun, Jasmine,yvonne) as it was reallie bored during lesson.. hahas .

Those pictures at the bottom are taken during our PE lesson before we started YOGA :D

Random. Suddenly just feel like uploading the pictures and blogging it out (:

3rd post for the day, I'm crazy. HAHA.

Watch our news (:

Watch our story together :D

Me & Darling's currency note (:

I do miss you alot. Do you know?

2 more days :D

I'll await.

I'm back here to post. Ytd had Yoga lesson during PE. I wanna practise it at home cause I tink it's reallie fun luhs ;D School may be boring but I'm glad I still got some nice classmates around me who entertains me all the while just like how I amuse them :)

Currently in class now =X today's lesson for IAC at 3pm to 5pm . Actually dun nid to attend der but due to too litte classmates in the morning, teacher asked us to stay ): Stupid dear dear, he told me last nite he would pray tat I would get to stay back to study till 5pm and now his wish come true. LOL! I feel like smacking him but so many days never see him lerhs . I reallie miss him alot alot ): 2 more days to see-ing him :DD iloveyou baby! <333>


Btw, I gonna change my tagboard. I'm sick & tired of those nonsensical tags by those advertisment. -.- so lame luhs .


Going to have my lesson lerh. :P
Takecare everyone! :D

I really hope all these things will be over soon. Dear, I'm afraid to lose u because of these. Will I? Sigh. If so, I also dun wish to live le. Without u, my life is even more meaningless.

There is a project to be done. An oral presentation and also a group project for Pm. -.-

It's so tiring to do all these. & I went over to sis house during the weekends and we went ikea on sunday. I lost my phone as i dropped it on the sofa there. Luckily I realise it quickly and sis quickly called and the ikea promoter picked my phone so it was found. Damn lucky lah, otherwise I going to cry like hell cause I cant contact dearie for the nxt few days and he's not gona noe wad happened. ):

Thanks GOD I found it back. (:

Wont be back for updates till thurs.

Speechless.
Wad should I do? )':

最近过得不好，真的，一点也不好。这个病快把我逼疯了。希望我真的可以快点康复。

Dear I love you, thanks for ur caring love towards me these days. Get well soon too!

I miss being a normal person ): sometimes,it reallie made me so fed up tat tears just start dripping down. I noe I'll be ok. But who understands the process of going through such torture? It's also a matter of pride and dignity. I might seem ok on the outside, but who noes how terrible it is inside me. I felt so embarrassed of myself, so shameful. ):

School such a bore.

What's life to me?

Baby's supposed to book out today, supposed to be by my side now, supposed to be hugging him now, supposed to be having dinner together, supposed to be at his house now..

But, yet, I'm here at home. It's been almost a week since I last see him. Although I should get use to it already but there are also times when I feel so helpless and need him so badly): when i miss him, I can onlie flood his phone with msgs, msgs and still msgs. I can onlie sit at home and wait, wait for weekends, wait for his replies, wait for his calls, and wait for his return. All I can do is wait wait wait and still wait.

I'm not whining but I miss him.
No one noes how it feels.

Anw, baby. Finally can see u tmr :D


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Shujun: okay, noted :) Thank you and cya on mon!
Diana: Thanks! :D
MY: it's okay (: no worries. will relink u .

等一下跟佩姗约了一起去购物，不知道会不会看到喜欢的新衣服。宝贝，我好想你。每天你都那么忙，直到晚上才又空打电话给我，而介又要那么晚才可以睡。

伟强，这个礼拜就是我们的两个月纪念日。好希望可以给你一个惊喜，真的很久没看到你开心的笑容了。我爱你

Been rotting at home for 2days already, crazy in love with drama. Watching them day and night. School's starting nxt week, the start of my nightmare. ): How i wish dearie is here with me now. I miss him badly. Barely 3 days and I'm starting to miss him. Another 2 o r 3 years to go. Weekends come , weekdays go.

I wanna pack my room before holiday ends.
I wanna clean up my room before holiday ends.
&& I wanna go trim my fringe.

There's so much to be done.

REPLIES TO TAG.
Rachel: Yup. I know. Will text you soon. I'm fne (:

Been watching drama lately, but my player died on me ytd. nid to re- download again ): it's my onlie entertainment whenever dearie book in from now on. And I reallie wan to finish watching tat 命中注定我爱你 before school re-opens in a week's time lor ):

When school reopen, I can no longer fool around. This time round muz reallie work hard for my studies already. I can't afford to disappoint sis again. Sigh. Stress is coming back. I hate it. Whenever I'm back in school, I feel doubly more lonely than Im at home . All these loneliness feeling sucks.

Why do I feel tat you are not cherishing me as much as before anymore.. are you tired of me already? baby, you're all tat Im left now. I cant lose you. ): I just feel so useless and scare now.

~悲哀~

突然也觉得自己好渺小，也好像便利贴女孩。那种可以用了就丢，也可以随转随到。最然我可能比她幸运多了，可是那毕竟是戏。真实的现代生活哪会有那么美妙的结局。难道因为你们养育我，供我读书，给我零用钱，我就的乖乖的听话？在每个人眼里，我是个很幸福又自由的女孩。可是有谁真正知道我的恐惧，我的无奈？根本没有人知道我需要什么，更不知道我的感受。外表美丽的苹果，里面也有可能是烂的。我也有自己不快乐的一面啊！我害怕失去，为每一次的失望而难过。有时，真的很想放声大哭，我可以吗？我要一个肩膀踏实的人来稳定我脆弱的心灵。

不是我不疼她，难道我就不再值得你们疼爱了吗？

~思念~

思念越来越沉重，爱你到不懂自己。承诺可让人欢乐也让人心碎。我真的很爱很爱你，你知道吗？没有你的每一天，我都只活在恐惧中。只有看见了你让我可以安心，踏实。我好害怕失去你。我们可以永远一直这样开开心心的在一起吗？我爱你

This is the picture you like most, am I right?

Baby, I need you badly now. ):

Luck-less!

Woke up late at around 12plus noon. Read newspaper for the first time as there was reallie interesting news but very pitiful. 15 years old gal and 22 years old guy jumped down to death because the gal was afraid to go to gal's home. I think tat's very sad. And the letter she wrote for her mum was reallie touching and sad luhs. ): Read lerhs also feel sad for her lor .

Anw, went back to VE with yiting to collect my water. She was reallie irritated by my ex-colleague for denying of forcing her to go down for interview. -.- After which, we went to Eunos mrt there drink tom yam soup, damn sour and spicy lor. 2 person drink till wan die. Then, bus home and try to download Sims 2 to play but failed. ): Now I finish downloading lerhs but also cannot play lor, so sad lahs. After tat, went to peishan's house see them majong cause I reallie no luck today lor, so bad. Keep losing money until I dun feel like playing also.

Home sweet home (:
Going for hair briefing tmr :D
Excited!


DeAr, I miss you so! Faster book out! Hopefully you can get ur gold soon alrights? All the way! I love you and will support u derhs :D muacks!

Tiring days ~

Hello DIARY. I n0e you are the only one who has been with me all this while. Well, I've been working for the past 3days. Super tired lors, stand there whole day cannot sit at all ): Worked as Calvin Klein promoter at TANGS selling man's briefs and trunks. HAHA, it's not a joke so it's not funny -.-'''

It's still a job. Met alot of weird customers like asking us ( me & huiying ) how come we work there .?! Cause they find it weird tat 2 young gals are selling briefs for man. Lols. Anyway, I've decided to ignore them cause I enjoy my work. You may find it funny why I enjoy, it's because there are many cute and funny, friendly and nice colleagues from different departments. (: They reallie did help kill some boredom at work .

Ytd, dearie had a day off from camp and booked out in the afternoon, so he came to TANGS to fetch me home. Sorry dear, cause I reallie thought I finished work at 8pm but end up is till 9pm. DEarie so shy lor, ask him to come find me but he keep walking away. Hahas . After which, went back to his house watched dearie majong with them till midnight 3am plus. Went home at around 4plus in the morning to bath and change, den go dearie house to sleep till morning 10plus am den wake up, bath at dearie house, OMG ! his house no heater and it was like damn cold in the morning lahs, I was practically trembling away, den prepared for work. Darling pei me to the bus stop and wait for bus to come. Thanks ah toot laogong :P

DeAr DeAr, you reallie piggy liao lor. Sleep whole day till night then wake up, more than me lor :P I love you lots too . Must take care hor when you go back, and stop scatching ur hand until so many scars already . My heart also will have scars lor ): Muacks! Miss you lots !


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WEI: Yup, linked :D
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Pieng: :D