Audition ! Here I come!

Ytd whole day slack at Yiting house to sing songs and practise for Audition on sun . Well, finally decided on wad to sing and wad to dress . Kinder nervous but okay lah, if fail jiu fail lor cause my singing had de-proved alot alot )':

Then, CK called me and asked if I was free to work on Mon to Wed. And I agreed. Aft which, realise tat Dearie will book out on tue and wed lor ): So sad, when I finish work he already going back to camp lor on thurs and fri ): Gonna miss baby so much lor, humpp.

Went down 7-11 mit dearie at around 8pm cause he so late den book out lor . Ke lians . Running the whole day to train for his Napfa 2.4km . Actually he already pass long ago lor but the stupid camp want them to get 9.44seconds for it . Dear, you are just a sec away from ur goal, you can do it der ! :D JIAYOU ! Muack

Then, we went hawker da bao food for his bro n sis . Actually I very hungry der, but end up no appetite cause of eating too much snacks at Yiting's house =X Haha . So I skipped dinner . Fall asleep at dear dear's house cause we both so tired . Around midnight 1plus am wake up den he send me home (:

Then, in the morning I wake up early early to go find dearie and pei him . dearie now cooking for me to eat =p Haha . He says he going to update his blog, wonder wad he will write lor . Hees

Dear. I love you ! Muack

~I know I should have faith in you . I'M SORRY DEAR~

I went bugis today to mit up with my oldest primary best pal, Vivien. We were supposed to mit at around 2.15pm but I reached too early even before 2pm as I left my house too early . So I 'explored' Bugis on my own. Coincidentally, I bumped into Jason and Wilson as well as Li Ye. They were there to celebrate their friend's birthday.

Then finally, Vivien reached and we went to Long John Sliver for our lunch. The cashier was a guy with long hair around shoulder length and Vivien actually thought he was a gal!? LOLS! I was like dunno how to react lor -.- Aft tat, went for our window shopping around junction and street. Introduce her to Adeline since they were in the same school (: hopefully next time they bump into each other in school also can make friends right? Haha .

After which around 3plus, Darling text me saying tat he was released early from camp so he was going home for dinner. Decided to mit him up since me and Vivien were parting as we had nowhere to walk. So took train to AMK to fetch dearie. (:

We took 135 home together with one of his camp mate, Qingtian -.-''' (meihua noe who =p) Den as usual we slack around at his hse till 9plus pei dear go take bus den I went home.

I'm sorry for misunderstanding you earlier on.

I should have more faith in you even though I got no confidence in myself.

DEaR, I'm rEalLy sOrRy! )':

ThAnkS foR nOt bEiNg aNgRy aT alL. LoVes .

MUaCkZ !

Finally ~ a fun day out !

I'm back!~ Hello. Nobody is missing me I guess. But nvm. (: I love myself :P dearie loves me too :D Had a fun time with the gals ytd. Went out with baoyu, yiting and liangpieng to orchard . Yup, we kept disturbing lp, outcasting her.

example: we walk past a shop den ask her, u like the clothes inside?

Lp: yup, not bad.

Us: izzit? we dun find it nice at all lor, see! see! u diff world from us! HAHA

We kept repeating this in different types of scenerios den disturb her. So funny lahs, well, lp, dun be sad. We're all friends and just joking wit you onli (:

Run into Mr gary, the guy who used to be my sideline at my office, but im not longer working there ler. So abit weird when I see him bahs, but I'm glad he's still friendly. Really admire them alot, can work so hard for their goals and really earn so much money, wonder when is it my turn! And I miss dearie for the whole day ): Then, trained back to alijunied at around 6plus to 7pm. walked around there while waiting for the blogshop owner to come as baoyu bought shawls from a blog. LOLS. Then, I went up to find peishan and chit chat with her til 8 plus den homed :)

Finally, dearie called and we chatted till 11plus den he went to slp. Dunno why I couldn't get to sleep until I was reallie tired.

I'm missing you every now and then.

Must learn to control myself..

Dear, loves from me to you. Muack

Must take care of urself!

I'm FATTTTT~!

Today went all the way to Choa Chu Kang find dearie. As he have his nites out so I went to pei him walk walk and have dinner. LOLS. I realise how far his camp was, DeArIe so kelian. Next time dun alwaes travel here and there ler lahs . Somemre DeAr DeAr alwaes bus sick lor, never take care of urself! Heart pain you noe. Ok lahs, I shall elaborate on something else now. So we went for our dinner at food court, the food not bad lahs, quite nice. DeAriE so bad, he actually tell me:原来我在养猪. (Just realise I feeding a pig.) Humpp! Alwaes say me pig lor . Well, something more worse happened made me even angrier.

We went to walk around den I saw some clothes quite nice den onli see see lor, he tell me. 'This clothes like not ur size.' Humpp. Dear dear hurt me with this sentence lor . But I noe he just kidding with me der. I also noe you trying to imply I'm fat right . Lols . Aft which, I kept disturbing dearie when I see clothes den I will start saying: Wa, nice right? but too bad, I'm fat cannot wear it. :P Keep irritating dear dear.. He so cute lahs . Lalala~ Then, we went to CD shop and he bought 'Stairway to Heaven' for me to watch cos he noe I'm bored at home. Dear dear wan sui! Haha . So sweet lor . =P I will treasure it derhs . Anw, the shop having lots of discount so the DVD onli half price than usual. Actually I also wan buy the 'Kiss II' der but too exp ler so I watch online better .

After tat, DeAr pei me train till Toa payoh den I take 155 home (: Love you lots darling, dun nid to give me tat kind of surprise ler alright? Cause I wan you to save more money even though I might like it. It's okay! You can give me some other time derh . =D You're the best to me ler, gonna miss ya so much ok. Hees .

Okay lah, I now going to sleep lerhs .
Updated 2 posts at one shot. So tired ler . Nites!

I'm still awake. Even though I feel tired and giddy. Somehow I just dun feel like going to sleep yet. The new blogskin is up. Nice? Anyway, I reallie hope darling will like it. Hahas. Will be going out with Baoyu & Yiting to Heeren tmr. Nid to go sleep early ler, otherwise tmr cant wake up den tired again! lols.

Good nitez!

Darling's such a sweetie. Alwaes make me smile even when I'm sad! (:
Love you!

Yep, I'm finally home. Friday stayed over at dearie's house, sat noon went home bath and changed. Stayed over at dearie house again till today morning den came home. LOLS. Created a blog for him, though not reallie done up yet, but those who noe him, do link him up (:

Back home, I dun sense any happiness at all. Even though I noe my family cares for me and dotes on me. But they dun noe wad I reallie want. Everytime say I rebellious, say trust me; but this is not the truth lor. If they trust, why do they keep calling to ask this & tat? keep wanting to go over and take a look. Which teenager would like their parents to follow wherever they go like they still a baby; who would be so proud of it. I mean, if ur parents noe ur friend den still ok. But mine? -.- I also dun bother to talk anymore. At home, I'll be just so quiet. In my own room, in my own world.

Dearr, how much I miss you. You alwaes give me trust, care for me, make me feel reallie loved. Every tear I shed, you'll wipe them up for me. You'll do anything just to make me smile. If only I can spend everyday with you. I'm not complaining, just missing you. Take care dear (; See you nxt week. I love you.

Those were the pictures taken ytd when we were to chinese garden. Actually there are more, but I'm lazy to upload all up to blogger. Mostly are pictures of those beautiful lanterns. Damn nice lor.. Love them so much, it's a pity tat we didn't take much pictures as it was too dark lerhs.

Ytd, stayed over at dearie's house again. Aft going to chinese garden, they went to his house to play majong again. LOLS. but most of the time also I playing cause dear dear too tired lerhs. Den slept at his house from morning 6plus till noon 3plus. LOLS. Tired sia . Slack the whole day, wow, I haven go home for 2days lerhs. Go home sure tai ji alot liao =p But who cares.

I need a job badly. Anyone can intro me pls?

HELLLLLLLOOOOOO! I went CK for interview with Huiying at Paragon. Wow, like damn long time since I last went to Orchard. Should be able to get the job, just waiting for them to set the rooster and inform me. Actually I drag working at town areas, cause I'm such a 'road idiot' (路痴) tat I cant even recognise simple roads. LOLs. Ytd, also shop quite alot. We 2 like idiots, walked to Fareast then to Tangs den to Fareast again -.- Anw, I still enjoyed myself with her cause she got so irritated by my 'LOLS' . Haha, I inherited it from my dear, scold him if you wan =p I bought a barbie doll from Tangs for the little baby my mum babysits cause we wun be looking aft her anymore aft today as she's going back malaysia le )': I gonna miss her. she damn cute der lor. Gonna take lots of pictures with her before I go out later :D I also bought a new pair of shoes from covet and a dress from Mystic. So much things to shop there. Walked till so tired lor. Our interview was supposed to be 11am, but we reached at 10.23am. So when we finished the interview, it was like not even 11, onli 10:48am? -.-''' So we went for our breakfast at Subway. Expensive yet healthy, and we dun alwaes eat at subway, so it's alright yeah? Haha.

Then, went back aljunied at around 2 or 3plus. Went to cut my fringe while Huiying trims her hair. I tink the hair stylist is so patient can? Cause Huiying is such an annoying customer, keep asking her so much questions before she lets the person cut her hair. I was like laughing away lor. =.= so lame. And the hair stylist was cute lahs. Den finally went for our drink at Macdonald. Aft which I went home to bath and change den mit dearie go his house.

Den at nite, Peishan ask ah qiang over for majong session again. Getting bored of majong, dunno why. Next time I should treasure the time with dearie instead.

Baby, I love you. Many loves for you, many many misses for you. I realise how much I need you, how much I really love you that I cant afford to lose you. Sometimes, it's not tat I want to nag at you, but I really dun wan anything to happen to you. Mayb because I've witness too many of such things happening around me. And I really dun wish to have any regrets like those victim's love's ones do. I just want to prevent it. So i rather you waste money den risk ur life.

ROTTING

I can't believe I woke up at 8.30am in the morning and rotted till now. Even though I slept at 2amplus last nite.. I set my alarm at 8plus in order to wake up just to accompany my dear to chat on phone. Though I was tired but still want to accompany him instead of sleeping. I know I got tons of time to sleep if I want (: I'm not gonna be a pig like wad he says. Well, he is so idiot lor. I wake up to pei him, yet he fall asleep while chatting with me. Make me like an idiot keep hello-ing away without any response den I still worried. -.-''' Dearie still can call back aft 30mins to say: Sorry dear, I fall asleep just now. -.- I was like , wanna kill him liao. Well, I know he's tired aft his Ippt so I dun really blame him. But Dear, next time if you're tired, just take a rest alright? I know you wan to accompany me. I appreciate that okay? Hees. DEARR, ILOVEYOU! Because you're always so sweet to me. That's why, whatever I do for you, it makes me feel tat it's worthwhile. Anyway, darling got things to do. So here I'm blogging.

I'm real bored. Anyone can tell me wad to do except for majonging? -.-'''

Got a lil irritated when I couldn't upload the rest of the pictures. Well, I ain't in a good mood either so I won't bother. I'm feeling so vexed. Nobody understands how I feel. I don't know I should be happy or sad. Smiling or crying. There's just so little I can do. I tink I should be contented with wad I have. Yet, I'm just a little disappointed by the result. Together with my menses, everything just gives me headache.

Anyway, I finally met up with my overseas Del brother. He's been busy studying and working overseas at australia. Nice country I suppose.

Together with baoyu at bugis den also finally met up with MeiHua and Yiting as well. Damn long never meet up with my gals le. Like finally. den Adeline also working, so it's like a lil gathering. HAHas. I'm reallie happy to see them though. So everyone of us shared a little of our own stories. Then, went for our dinner at the Milk shake house? Not bad the food. After which just shop around and bought an overall. Den back to hawker den to weilong's house majong again. -.- Tink I won't play again le. Sigh ):

Dearr, this 2 days haven been chatting well with you. Everyday also I got out and play. Den when you are free, I also not free to pei you. I'm reallie sorry abt it. Anyway, tmr I will not go out liao. Stay home the whole day, so anytime you free I can pei you talk on phone ler. Dear, I also noe why you feel 50 50 about the result. Sigh .

And I know why you want to tell me abt ur mother cause u dun wan her to dislike me bah. I will change der, all because I love you. Muacks.

Im currently blogging at darling's house. Ytd went to class gathering den quite fun . Hahas . We play majong for the whole day sia. Afternoon play with ah qiang they all till evening go cherie's house majong again. Now we are having nightmares of majong. hahas. Dearie so cute. When he sleeping still ask me: ni yao da shen me pai? (wad card are u throwing?) LOLS! Make me laugh only. I also cant sleep well lor, close my eyes onlie can see shadows of majong. -.-'''

Tink we should stop majonging for some time. LOLS. doubt so we can do tat. too addicted already. So tired sia. Everyday majong like so no life lor. Sigh. Feel like quitting my job again -.-

if quit ler, sure rot even more. unless I can find another job.

DEARRRRRRRRRRRRR, ILOVEYOU (:

Sometimes I just get so tired of my life. No matter wad I do, it seems to be wrong, no matter wad, i seem to just offend ppl. wad the hell should i do? Sometimes, i dont even noe wad i really wan in life. At times, I reallie felt like ending my life too. Why why do i have this thought?

Will be going to my class gathering at cherie's house later on.

DEARR, it was our first month ytd. it was our new beginning, I really really treasure it, really wan to be good to you, be nice and everything to make you the happiest man on earth. I know I used to be very unreasonable and possesive of you. I also gets jealous very easily. But you had tolerated them all. I broke my promise tat I wont leave you and you forgave me. I really must thank you for giving me this chance. During the one month break, I really thought alot and also came to realise tat you're the most important person whom I really need. I was the one who couldn't live without you. I will never forget those times we had together, every single moment still deeply etched in my heart. I still remember the first time we met at ah qiang's chalet, we went escape together and you let me hold ur hand while we enter the haunted house. And at night when I had no space to sleep, you shared half of ur bed with me. When I couldn't fall to sleep with my turtle pillow, you let me hug you. Dear, do you still rmb all these? I really felt so secure whenever you're around and by my side. You alwaes make me smile. I'm really glad tat I got you back. And this time, we are even closer because of ur 180 degrees big change. You start to be even nicer than before, stop dota-ing, accompanying me all the time when I look for you. At first, I am really shocked to see the change but now i'm really happy cause it brought us even closer. Now we got so much things to talk about, and I also realise you've become more friendly towards ppl. Dear, I'm sure we got more months to go. I love you much much more than you tink . Lastly, Good luck for ur ippt running on mon! MUACK!

Wordless.

I hate empty promises. dun promise me if you can't do it. You'll never noe how much I hurt. I've already done all tat I could just to make you happy. As long as you're happy, any sacrifice I make is worth it. This is wad I got in return. I got nothing to say ler. My heart is numb.

Exams are finally over. Yet, I got no mood to do anything. Just feel like rotting at home everyday. Dun feel like going to work neither do I feel like going out. I'm totally moodless! Who noes what Im thinking about?

I was just too stupid.

Tmr's exam.
Tue end.

Yet, I have not prepared or studied. But i seriously cant flunk it again this time. It's very important to me. ): I'm trying very hard to make the last struggle. Yet, It's also the last nite I'll get to see dearie cause he'll be transferred to another camp at chua chu kang till next month, den he wun be back so often lers. I can't imagine not see-ing him for one whole month. I'll die. Cause onli my dear will give me a hug when Im down, makes me happy again when Im sad. Without you, wad am I going to do? Dear, it's our month this friday . I love you

Fuck, damn it.


I cant believe this is happening again.

Nobody trusts me, but you must. Otherwise, my heart is broken. Sigh.

Do i deserve no more chance?

Gonna miss you like hell.

Happiness.

I'm finally back to blogging. Seriously very tired and weak recently due to work and school. Almost everyday I'm rushing from home to school den to work den home again ): It's like no freedom or no time for my dearie too. Onli can mit him aft work which is so little time left. Im glad dearie understands and is supporting me even though Im facing lots of negative comments and rejection . I'm happy enough I got his support, cos his support is all tat I ever need (: LOVES ! It's gonna be our month again, suppose to be 3months but nvm, we shall take it as our 1st month :D As long as we are closer than ever and loving, time is nothing :D dear dear, I wont let you go again seriously. Even if got ppl wan to snatch, I die die also must snatch you back cause I reallie love you like nobody's business :P

Im finally having a week off from work to concentrate on my exams which is on mon and tue. OMG! I haven even started on my revision for BFD. Look how Im going to die this time. I definitely WILL start revising tmr! it's a must. Dun doubt me. I really really am striving hard to become a useful person, the best gf, a fillial daughter and a nice sister! I wanna study hard so I wun be back to blogging for quite some time!

I wanna hit my MM position this month too, can I? Yes, IF i reallie want it. HAHAS. Rachel, let's COTTL together ! :DDDD Best build bond Queen sister ~ LOLS.

Well, Im off to bed. Nites. I love you hubby! muacks!

Dilemma

I'm in school aft the long weekends/holidays . Been working hard to fix appointments and to close deals . Soon I'll be recruiting new personnel, anyone whose's interested can arrange with me to come down and take a look . :D I'll be very happy then .

Sigh! I really dont know wad to do. I dont know wad went wrong, I dont know how to solve it. why why why !? ): Im damn sad. Who knows how I feel? Im stress up having to study for exams coming next week, nida go work aft school, having not enough sleep. yup, I'm complaining but I just wan a listener, is tat wrong? I just wanted some care and concern ): baby, do u noe my heart is crying? I reallie love you so much tat I cant live without you, so afraid to lose you. Does nobody believes tat Im utterly serious this time? ):

Jealousy

I'm back here to update my blog again. Went to watch the phobia midnight show on sat with the usuals at tampines mall. Super scary show, I kept covering my face cause I didnt dare to look. I didnt meant to be stingy, but some things shouldn't be shared.

went to dearie's house stay till morning den home . Nobody was home earlier than I did. Hahas . So I bathed and went off to find dearie again before going to work. I'm tired. These few days haven been to get much sleep. Damn sleepy.

Went da yi house for appointment. Though she didnt buy from us but Im still very happy. I will work hard der, and follow up. Tmr, there'll be tons of appointment to go to. Den exams are in a week's time. ): I haven studied yet =X

I must must must revise this week in order to get AAA :P

what is mature?