What Crystal Poh En En Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I went to hospital to visit my ah ma today.

she's been in the hospital for about a week alrdy .

Felt very sad when i see her, cause she really looked so bruised.

Her whole face was purple due to the fall she had earlier .

She broke her leg as well.

It's like so omg lah .

Damn the stupid hospital, due to their neglect , den ah ma fell off the bed der lor .

Went for ard 2hrs till 7pm den left.

cross the bridge took 31 to tampines mit carol & baoyu .

carol's friend chia was there too.

So we went to have our dinner.

Felt very sian, dunno why den like very emo .

walked around aft which.

took pictures in century square toilet . hahas .

went home at around 9plus .

为什么心中还是有一种奇怪的感觉？

希望你能忘了我，不再伤心。

Look at the time now yet I'm still awake.
I seriously can't sleep.
Been losing my sleep for almost a week already .
Sleeping only at 5am in the morning & waking up as early as 10am or 11?

Super troubled.
I don't want to hurt anyone .
Yet, I had to.
Mixed feelings eh?! hais .

I'm not myself anymore.
Crystal hates En En &&
En En hates Crystal .
tat's wad i'm going through now .

peishan,I hope our r/s can still be close just like how we are ;D
I guess it's really impossible between me & him alrdy bahs .
As you can see how we are like .
Sigh . I seriously am going through mixed feelings ! argh !
Gal, Please be sensible too, & don't ever fall into his trap okay?
Iloveyou toos ❤

爱情总是让人开心也让人悲哀。

就让我成为你的回忆吧！

忘了我，你会活得更快乐。

让我们一起踏上未来没有彼此的路途吧！

just woke up at 5plus ..
went pubbing last nite at jevonne's workplace..
was really in a foul mood..

didn't feel like going home..
so went for a drink..
I didnt drink alot so I wasn't drunk..

jevonne very cute sia..
she hides behind the pillar when she sings..
& her voice is niceeeeeeeeeee ;)

den ard 4am her boss fetched us to mos..
they went to dance for 5mins.. lols..
we slacked outside there..

somehow i just feel so lousy):

you are a nice guy..
sure can find a better gal..
I'm not worth it.
I'm just a piece of junk.
I'm not worthy of you..

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

TAGGED BY: PEISHAN

#1 If you could migrate to other countries, which country would it be?
-I still feel like staying in Singapore.

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
-Hoping everything can be solved without hurting anybody .

#3 What type of guys are you attracted to?
-Funny, Cute & Gentleman .

#4 What is your favourite dessert?
-Ice Kacang ;]]

#5 Would you rather have 2 close friends or guys around you?
- Close friends .

#6 Current favourite song?
-最爱你的人是我

#7 Ever encountered the supernatural? If yes, explain.
-Nope.

#8 How far would you go for a friend?
-As far within my reach .

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
-YES YES ! omg, i shan't mention it.

#10 Are you in love or being loved now?
-I'm being loved by my DARLING ;D

#11 Do you dislike anyone at the moment?
-not really.

#12 Do you like yourself? If no, state what you'd like to change?
-NO. I hope to become a nice & faithful gal.

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
-Funny, cares for me ;]

#14 Do you gossip about your friends?
-YES I DO . HEH HEH =X

#15 What's the best thing that has happened to yourself so far?
-Knowing him & gaining more memories .

#16 Are you worried about anything?
-YES, my lovelife , Friends, Results ):

#17 What are your hobbies?
-Cycling & singing ;)

#18 What type of friends do you like?
- True, Loyal, Humourous,Kind

#19 What do you plan to do now?
-Settle down soon.

#20 What type of movie do you enjoy most?
-Horror ,Romance & Comedy.

The 5 people to do this are...
-Mei Hua
-Carol
-Yiting
-Shermin
-Dale

Qns; The person who tagged you is?
-PEISHAN

Qns; What is your relationship with him/her?
- Dearie's blood sister ;]

Qns; Your 5 impression of him/her?
-Silly,Funny,Kiampa,Caring,Thoughtful.

Qns; The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
-She consoled me alot during the times when I was very confused.

Qns; The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
-No matter wad ur decision is, it will not affect the r/s btw us, iloveyou.

Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, you will ...
-It's impossible.

Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ...?
- Feel sad & hurtful.

Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
-She dont love me anymore ):

Qns; The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
-Give her a surprise ! =p

Qns; Your overall impression on him/her?
-Nice GAL!

Qns; How do you think people around you will feel about you?
- Feel tat I'm stupid & dumb.

Qns; The character you love of yourself are ...
-courage to try..

Qns; On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are ...
-Timid. abit contradicting i noe.

Qns; The most ideal person you want to be is?
-Caring

Qns; For people who care & like you, say something about them.
-they are loved by me too. alwaes there for me when i needed.

Qns; Pass this quiz to 10 people.
-Dearie (though he dun have a blog)
-Baoyu
-Meihua
-JieMin
-Kelvin
-JianHua
-AhBee
-Carol
-Shermin
-Grace

Qns; Who is number six having relationship with ?
-he's single.

Qns; Is 9 a male or female?
-Female.

Qns; If 7&10 are together, will it be a good thing?
-0.o?

Qns; How about 5&8 ?
-LMAO. Impossible.

Qns; What's number 2 studying about?
-IT?

Qns; When was the last time you chatted with number 3?
-Minutes ago in msn.

Qns; Is number 4 single?
-yup ;]

Qns; Talk something casually about number 1.
-He's my love. The one who made me feel so loved & protected.
Thanks,I will pluck tat courage to say 'iloveyou' again.

Yes, everything is settled ;)
things will be back to normal soon.
I just need another week to cool down.
Hope you will understand.

Work was fine today .
Sales quite good.
I wore my racing shirt to work today.
Last min, boss say work upstairs, den i was like -.-'''
Cause wad i wore was super not correct.
Anyway, hack care lah.

Nothing much to say about work tooo.
All i face are just customers.
OH YAH! Idiot kelvin, JianHua & Leonard came bugis to shop.
They spotted me & kept disturbing me.
Walking past my shop all the time.
KIAMPA!!~



& I wan to shoppppppppppppppppp toooooo ;DD
But no moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ):
Wait for pay day ! But so little also not enough for me to eat lor.
Still need to treat chandra they all eat pizza hut.
Den I'll be left with nothing )':

Darling came to fetch me home from work.
Sorry to keep you waiting ;)
Went hawker meet baoyu den ate fried oyster =X
Sick stil eat poison, yes I am trying to commit suicide .

Darling send me home.
Thank you for coming all the way to fetch me.
Next week is my turn to fetch you back from camp okay?
I promise ! ;))

I can't say 'iloveyou' yet..

till the time is ripe..

memories helps to keep things which we dun wan to forget.

"gal, u are a fantasty come true.
you give me hope when im dwn.
my first love,forever u will be.
my first love, u are the life in me.
my first love,this world can never take away from me.
you are the life in me."

these are some parts of the lyrics which I rmbed.
they are not in sequence.
it wil be the last time i hear it.
It's time to give up.
It's time to forget him.
Thanks for everything you did.
Every single moment with you will be rmbed.
They will be kept deep down in my heart.

Those who didn't know wad really happened.
I just wish to say, you are not me, you don't know wad happen.
If you ain't sure whether wad you said is true, den dun anyhow spread it.
I'm trying my best to save this r/s, yet you ppl are trying to create more problems.
I don't know who the culprit is & I dont wish to know either.
I'm reflecting on myself & hope you will do so too.

I just reach home.

Been tinking alot, really alot.

To come to a decision.

However, before I did so.

He seems to already come to a decision as well.

Why do I feel so unsecure to what he's gonna say?

Is this what you call, you'll only cherish when you have lose it, or going to lose it.

Sigh . I'm plain selfish, ain't I?

I feel so stupid & dumb.

Anyway, I don't wish to see him sad either.

So I wil hear what he's gonna say .

All I want is for him to be happy now.

I, too don't wish to see him sad or unhappy.

I shouldn't be repaying his love & care with hurts & agony.

He truly loves me, I know & I can feel it.

He gives me protection like I never had before.

He gives me warmth.

He's genuine to me.

I want to provide him with love too.

But I don't know how to face him anymore.

Everything was fine,just like normal.

However, deep in our heart, we could felt the difference.

It was no longer the same anymore.

But, I truly like you alot, Do you know tat?

I had really set out wanting to be a nice & good gf to you.

Wanting to give you surprises all the time.

Wanted to be the one who understands you most.

Seems like I can never do tat at all.

I'm such a failure.

Well, I'm at mac now.
trying to update my blog.

ytd met up with weiqiang .
persuaded him to go tnet with me.
went there to look for peishan.
kana nag by her for around 2hrs before we went down der.
LOLS! sorry gal ><

went there sing karaoke.
slack slack.
help the guys took 千手观音de pics .
so funny sia ! hahas .

went home with peishan to eat dinner.
pei-ed weiqiang den he sent me home.

anyway,things between me & weiqiang .
I stil have feelings for him.
But but, I got no confidence in myself ):
wad should i do?
tmr, its the time to settle everything lerhs.
sigh !
I really dont have the courage to sae 'I love you' anymore.
No more misses nor loves from me anymore. ):

I brought my lappy out for a walk just now.

Boarded the bus 155 which meihua took from tpy,den go sing post eat ;D

We bluff ming tat we reached there already when we were actually still on the bus.

LOLS.

ate subway,got cookies.

very niceeeeeee!! ;]

aft which went to gl sing k, while singing ming help me do my lappy thing.

THANKS VERY MUCH ! :D

bumped into adeline there.

while waiting for the bus at bustop.

decided to take some pictures with ming & meihua ;D

shall upload the pictures during peishan's bdae as well.

It was when everyone was eating their cakes. =X

Recently den upload pictures der. sorry!

Have been doing quiz & surveys.
It's time for some reflection.

Yes, I shouldn't drag this on n on.
I need to come out with a decision.
In my heart,I couldn't really forget this person.
However, I hope there's someone who can help me to forget him.

I don't know whose in my heart now.
I'm very confused myself.
But it's time to give up everything.
I wan neither hims.

I just wan to forget tat person throughly before going on.
I cant just live in the past.
I have to move on.

Till then, i'm sorry to hurt you.
I have truly enjoyed the whole month with you.

Name 20 people whom you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions till you've named 20 people.
At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

1.WeiQiang
2.Baoyu
3.MeiHua
4.PeiShan
5.Yishi
6.Adeline
7.Chris
8.Dale
9.Carol
10.Jian hua
11.AhBee
12.Shermin
13.Grace
14.XinSheng
15.WeiTong
16.Kelvin
17.Yiting
18.JieMin
19.WeiLong
20.Pearlyn

How did you meet 14?
-Through ITE, he's my 2nd bestest friend in ITE ;]

What would you do if you've never met 1?
-I wouldn't have felt all the love from him .

What if 9 and 20 dated?
-It's impossible lah, they are not les! LOL!

Will 16 and 17 date?
-wahahahah! dunno?

Describe 3.
- One of my bestest sister ;D she's great, alwaes there for me when i'm sad ;)

Describe 7.
-He's a sweet,nice & gentleman guy ;]]

Do you know any of 12's family members?
-Nopes.

What would you do if 18 confess to you that he/she likes you?
-HAHAS! we're not les.

Who is 9 going out with?
-her bf or friends bah?

When was the last time you talk to 13?
-2 days ago in msn?

Who is 2's favourite band/singer?
-LOLS! dunno.

Would you ever date 4?
-SAY le, I not les leh.

Would you ever date 1?
-Yes, I will.

Is 19 single?
-No.

Would you ever be in relationship with 11?
-NO, it will never happen.

School of 3.
-Republic Poly

Where does 6 live?
-Eunos.

What is your favourite thing of 5?
-Straight forward & steady.

Have you ever seen 10 naked?
-OF COS NO!!! OMG!

Do this quiz: Meihua, Baoyu, Carol,Shermin & Nicole.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

Yes, I finally got my lappy installation done.
So many things I haven download yet.
waiting for baoyu to come over help mi install.

chatted with sebas today.
he's right.
somethings shouldn't be rushed.
non shld be going on too slowly.
Both of us finds it so easy to press delete photos of the past, yet.
when it comes to clicking the confirm delete YES or NO?
den will auto click NO der.
Tat's the problem with me.
I simply cant let go off the past.
I might seem normal & okay;
but I cant help feeling helpless at times too.
Who knows wad I'm going through during these months?
I don't even know myself.

I really need to sort out my feelings ):

Friends are not needed only when I break up with bf.
I do want to mit up with you guys.
But everyonee is like so busy.
Wad can I do?
I've got to do my own things too.
Now I'm having holidays, will try to mit up with all of you soon.

I'm feeeeeeeeeeeeling tired
kinder irritated by the stupid cramp which is killing me.
& my stupid lappy is still not arriving .
WTH ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Have we broken up?
idk.

Instructions: Remove one question from below and add in your personal question.
Tag 8 people in your list, and list them out in the end of the post.
Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged.
Whoever does the test has a blessing from all.
Start here~

#1 Who do you think the person who tagged you is like?
- She's GREAT too ;] Funny & Cheerful ;D

#2 What do you want the most now?
-To make clear all my feelings, settle all the problems.

#3 Who is your Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
-HuangWeiQiang ? Or perhaps none?

#4 Do you hate your friends sometimes?
-No, same as Yishi, the most is angry nia. haha

#5 Are you afraid of death?
-Yes, I'm most afraid to leave without saying goodbye to everyone and my love one):

#6 What is your goal for this year?
-Do well in my studies ;]]

#7 Do you believe in love at first sight?
-YES!

#8 Do you believe in eternal love?
-Dont use to, now perhaps?

#9 What are you dreading the most this year?
-Irritating me who is hurting someone who loves me):

#10 What do you enjoy the most?
-Nightlife clubbing , Cause I can really dance away all my woes.

#11 Have you done anything for your admirer?
-Of course.

#12 Do you like your CCA?
-I don't have any.

#13 Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
-Yes I do now.

#14 Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with?
-The one who loves me & I love together with my great friends :)

#15 What do you think is the most important thing in your life ?
-Everything is important to me now .

#16 Do you find life meaningless?
-No. I find it a challenge.

#17 What do you live for?
-Myself & love ones.

#18 What is the thing which you want to do most now?
-Tell someone I like him.

#19 Have you ever truly loved?
-Yes but only ended up being hurt.

#20 Do you think doing this survey is kinda a waste of time ?
-No. It's quite interesting.

8 people who I tagged are : Dale, Carol, MeiHua, Yiting, Baoyu,JianHua,ShiGuan,Ahbee.

All of a sudden, I feel tat I'm so hypocritical myself.
Where is the old me who used to hate hypocrites?
How could I become one myself ? WTF

I've been saying how much I love weiqiang.
How much I long to see him.
But now, I've got no courage to face him anymore.
I am just so unsure of my real feelings .

A friend told me.
You're still trapped in the memories of you & him.
Tat's because i told her I still couldn't bring myself to delete our photos.

Den another friend said I've already live in the thought tat I've longed belong to him.
Cause I truly loved him so much .
That's why after him, all my current r/s dosen't last for more than a month or two.

They were right about it .
I still couldn't forget him.
Or perhaps nobody could make me forget him.
& this is the reason why I fall in love so easily now.
& crushing on someone I shouldn't.

Being with weiqiang was a great happiness to me too.
I truly enjoyed his company as well.
Thanks for being so nice to me all the time.
Treating me with care and concern.
Yet, all i returned you was hurt & a broken heart .
I don't deny tat I like you.
However, I cant assure the love which I said before anymore.
Now, by telling you earlier, I hope it would lessen the pain inflicted on you.
I also hope that you can find a better gal than me.
I deserve no sympathy nor empathy.
You gave me love and care,everything you could.
But all I wanted is someone whom I really love.
I know how selfish I'm.
But I simply cannot make use of the good which you treat me with.
Even after you knew wad happen, you wanted to continue being with me.
But, tink carefully, will tat really make you happy just like the start?
Just because we had only started, I hope to clear the doubts.

Thanks for all ur love.
Thanks for being so nice to me.
I hope you'll be able to get over me.
We truly need this time to tink over everything.

To the kelvin whom I chatted to in msn:
I wonder if you'll ever get to read this.
But I still wanna thank you for all the tips which you taught me to cheer him up.
It might seem useless already.
You might be hating me alot bah.
For hurting ur brother .

By posting all this, I'm not trying to gain sympathy for myself.
Just want to make it clear about wad has happened.
Even if it means losing some friends, I'm sorry .
My apology might seem so useless but I hope it does helps a little.
I hope none of you will pester him about wad happen.
Cause I don't wish him to be constantly be reminded by all these hurts.
So do console him if you can instead.

Thanks for all those wishes for us to last long.
But I'm the spoiler, I've disappoint all of you.

Slacked at home in the morning.
Till noon around 3plus den mit baoyu,yiting,peishan got aljunied mac do homework.
Went there eat Nuggets meal while they eat HAPPY MEAL -.-'''
they thought they still kids. haha .

End up, eat for 1hr plus.
Finish eating, I did some of the accounts questions.
But soon after, sis text me saying ah ma was in hospital.
Den mum nid to go over visit her, so i nid to go home babysit my niece.

All of them came back with me.
Slack at my house.
Use lappy while i use com.

Yeah. THANKS GF FOR ENCOURAGING ME.
& also cheering me up.
ILOVEYOU TOO ;DDDD

Dearie. Faster book out.
Aww. i got work tmr.
Wun be updating or online till Mon bah.
I miss you.

Went orchard far east plaza, heeren walk walk with baoyu.
slack the whole day .
window shopping, den my leg kana blister.
super pain sia.
Went cineleisure to eat our konbanyashi ~
I ate chicken terriyaki..
super nice can.. hees..

Sat dwn at a cafe..
Chit chatted and tok tok..
end up very late..
Went to take bus..
but stupid bus so crowded luhs..
den we waited for another bus..
So long.. when they put 7mins.. Bomb..
-.-'''
reached home onlie at 10:45pm?

Anyway, tmr mitting baoyu to do homework.

Dearie, You sounded so tired.
Rest more alrights.
Sorry for no time pei you today cause outside the whole day.
I also miss you alot.
Muz takecare hor.

I'msrryifi'vehurtyou.
trulysorry.
ifonlythingscouldbesimpler):

CLUBBING AT ZOUK ;]

Yea, ended up clubbing at zouk last night (:

Had fun dancing, dancing & dancing ;D

Learnt from JieMin Shifu how to dance one.

SHAKE SHAKE yea? hahas .

Event ended at 4am.

Cabbed to aljunied mac with Peishan and Jiemin.

Went mac to eat breakfast.

Chit-chatted till 7am den go home. LOLs.

I'm broke ler.

Gotta go back to work soon ):

Dearie, I hope you can book out tonight.

Cause I really miss you tons and lots ):

Thanks for the sweet sweet msg which you sent me. ;]

Muacks, I love you too!

HAPPY ONE MONTH ;]
HAHAS.
It's officially the 17th of june ler.

I wonder if dearie can book out anot .
If he can't den I would probably be going clubbing lerhs.
But, if too late ler den cannot get ticket also .
Sigh !

Gonna be rotting at home again bahs .
There's nothing I can do.
Or nowhere to go.

I guess it's time to start doing some homework ;]

People, Stop physco-ing & persuading me to go zouk lerhs .
Cause I'm still deciding hard wad to do.
It's not as simple as I wan to go den can go.
I can't just tink for myself so selfish right .
I promise i will try to make the best decision out of all .
Please understand my situation.
I need some time to think it bah.

It's gonna be me & dearie's First month tmr.
If he cant book out today den we might be celebrating on the day itself tmr.
& we are still not sure when he can booked out.
Hence, I'm in a dillema. (spell wrongly i guess)
I don't want to throw him alone while I go clubbing & have fun -.-

Seriously, you can say i fickled minded or wad also nvm .
I still got my own choice to decide whether I wan to go or not.
& I didn't promise I WILL surely go. -.-
And I dun suppose my pressence is so impt to anyone right.

Decision will be made before 10pm tonight.
Peishan, I promise I will make the best decision out of my choices der ;]

HAPPY ONE MONTH DEARIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU LOTS ;]]]

It's our 31 days together .

Although we might not be able to celebrate together, but dont feel bad already okays.

I miss you lots ):

thanks for being there all the while when i nided.

&& treating me so nice all the time.

hope we can last long ;DDD

ILOVEYOU.MUACKS!

I want a laptop )':
I'm so tired of you being so indecisive.
If you don't mean it, den don't say it .
You know hoe much I hate to be lied?
This is wad I get for daydreaming that you'll really get one for me?
I'm so tired of all those lies.
Dont buy for me den forget it.

I'm just back home from IT fair an hour ago..
Super tired, walk for like 2hrs?
I wanna get either the LG lappy or Dwell der..
Sigh. Big fat hope..
Well, it wont come true. Stop tinking.

Dearie says he can book out alrdy ;D
Tat's wad is cheering me now.
But he never replied my msgs or calls since.
I guess he's too busy packing his stuffs.
Shall wait for his call.
Dearie is so kind to me.
He said he wanted to get me a laptop to cheer me up.
But listen dearie, I dont wan you to spend ur hard earned money on me.
I mean you should save it or use it for ur own stuffs.
Hees, I appreciate what you wan to do for me..
I love you so much.. Muacks ;DD

Just back home an hour ago..
went AMK to find dearie cause he got nites out..
& I really miss him ):

I was so happy to see him and I kept smiling to myself ;]
Dearie so kan jiong lor.. I haven reach den he buy tickets liao..
So we were a lil late for the movie..
den he dun wan let me noe wad movie til we went in den i noe is The incredible hulk.
It's cool the movie, very nice too!
Hahas, perhaps every movie tat I watched with dearie is nice? =X
But it's true tat the movie is nice..

Finish the movie den we went to eat..
Dearie served me like a princess =p
hees, he's super sweet to me luhs.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
hahas .
Finished eating den went walk walk around the outside..
Walk till all shops also closing liao den go..
Dearie wanted to send me back home..
but I don't want him to travel back alone again when he's so tired alrdy..
Hees, dearie you can send me home during ur off days..
Cause you're only living nxt blk to me ;DD

I was so tired & was asleep during the whole journey home.
Reached chup lao den went 57 slack awhile..
Everyone was there..
Chit chatted with jiemin and yishi they all..
Went home aft tat.. ;D

Dearie, I'm missing you again ):
Dun worry abt me having nightmares..
Cause whenever i tink of you, i'll onlie have sweet dreams ;DDD
I just simply love you only..
I will not find another guy who loves me as much as you do alrdy .
So dont ask me to find someone else who can pei me..
Otherwise, I'll be angry der hor.. =p
Cause I'll only love you,you & just you! Muacks..

Yeah, I'm back from school & it's finally holidays!!
Happy as I'm, but still kinder turned down by all the homeworks and project.
But I know I can complete them before holiday ends ;]
Den I shall enjoy my holiday happily.

PeiShan's going back to malaysia today .
So I'm gonna be bored without the blur queen's jokes =X
Well, Baby's not booking out either )':
What a life. Is this still a holiday for me?
Hence, I've decided to mit up with some old friends to catch up with ;D
&& gonna stay home to complete my project & assignments ! ;)

Life's gonna be hard for the next few days )':
Cause I'm really missing dearie badly.
Though we get to mit up for awhile sometimes,but it's barely enough for us.
Perhaps all these little mit-ups only made us feel worse.
It'll only make us miss each other even more.
But I do cherish every moment,every second of my life with you.
And soon after you're back from the next book out,you'll be going overseas again.
Which is either for another 2weeks or a month?
Sigh, and after which you got survival camp too ):
Dearie, I'm really worried for you especially about the survival camp.
GOD, Please pray that my dear will be fine & return safely to my side aft the camp.
In the name of Jesus, I pray, Amen.
I don't mind waiting for you..
I don't mind all the tortures of missing you..
But I truly hope you'll be fine..
I love you dearie..
No matter wad, I'll be there for you.
Even when you fall, I'll hold you up again..
I wanna be the woman supporting you silently behind ur back..
I wanna grow old together with you..
I wanna have all the best I can for you..
All because I love you..
& I miss you baby.. ):

4 more days to our 1st month ;]
though you cannot celebrate with me.
But I'm happy tat you remembered ;D

imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou imissyou !!!

Bfd's test gonna be flunk bahs ):
Or perhaps a just pass?
Anyway, I did my best.

Went home straight after school..
Busy with com stuffs..
den met dearie for movie at amk ;]]

We watched KungFu Panda ;D
I swear it's funny & nice ! ;]
Muz go watch, so cute luhs.
After finish movie, dearie pei me home.


Dearie's gonna be back in camp tmr AGAIN!
This time, it's 12days for standby )':
I really bu she de let dear go back ..
Sigh.. but there's nothing I can do..
I miss you so much..
Dear.. I wanna hug hug you to slp..

School was alright.
I was working on my project during OFA.
den writing notes during BFD.
&& there was no AFD today .

Super sian the whole day. Sigh ):
Didn't feel well & sorta bad mood.
I miss dearie so much thought i just saw him last nite.
Izzit because I can't bear to leave him even for a second?
I know I shouldn't be sticking to him all the time.
I know I should give both of us some freedom.
But I just can't control myself can .
Sigh . Am I back to old me?
Dearie, I love you so much till I don't know myself anymore.
I'm sorry if I had been too possesive )':
Please give me some scolding to knock some sense into me.

Went to find Peishan den slack.
Took the whole afternoon & evening to finish 1 accounting question -.-''
PeiShan was so high luhs, keep toking about clubbing. Kiam pa.
Dearie came back at around 8pm.
But he was like so busy with his stuff.
Aft tat pei me awhile, see him so tired.
Let him sleep, while i watched tv.

Aft which got to go fetch my niece =.=
Troublesome kid with an annonying attitude.
See dearie so tired sleeping, bu she de wake him up.
So I just whisper to him tat I was leaving & went off.
Den when he woke up, msg me ask why never wake him up.
Lols, he don't even rmbed tat I had tok to him.

Feel so unsecure )':

I ALSO WANNA GO CLUBBING WITH THEM ):
It's so bored at home.
&& I super miss dearie luhs.

Struggling with homework as well.
Test is on thurs.
Everything's killing me )':

I don't wanna tink or do anything now!
Sigh !
Nvm, Dearie is back.
I'm happy enough if I can see him tmr ;]
I just love you so much luhs . hehee.
You know how much i miss you when you were not around?
& it's such a pity I can't attend ur pop event tonight.
And instead, I'm rotting at home to babysit.
What a bad day!

School sucks.
Sigh.
I'm soon out of their boundary too );
Feel so extra.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUANG PEI SHAN!! ;D

lols . went to school for onlie 2 hours. -.-
den rushed home.
bath & mit baoyu.
went geylang east buy peishan's bdae cake.
Den met up with jiemin den surprise peishan.
Aft tat when yishi went over with peishan, we started to sing the bdae song.
LOLS!
We forgot to wait for huiying den when she came,
we pretended to sing a second time.

The cake melt den very funny lor.
Everyone had hard time eating.
Aft which, went home.. ;)

I'm super sad.
While the best part is I don't know why?
Whatever it is.
I'm just sad.

Sigh.
Not in the mood.
But I got to keep everything & put on a smiley FACE ;)
Cause it's Peishan's Birthday.
Gonna mit her after school.
Well, why am i still at home?

Faints.
I skipped LLA & PE.
Wth I'm going to school for only 2 lessons til 5pm?
Dots. I don't understand too.

I guess it's time to change a new blogskin.
However, I'm still kinder lazy to do so =X

Dearie, I'm so gonna miss you for the next few days):
It's so hard to imagine how it'll be without ur pressence & msgs to cheer me up.
I feel like crying all of a sudden..

Can't help missing you now.. )':
You've been the one cheering me up..
Protecting me ever since..
Now,it feels so empty without you..
Dearie, hope you be alright okay?
Muz take care..
I love you too, ah toot dear dear..
Muacks..

It's so hard to guess a person's mind.
I just don't understand what some ppl are thinking at times.
Sometimes they are so good,sometimes they are so scary.
Well, I do believe in reaping wad you sow.
Perhaps it's the way how you treat others so now they are treating you the same.
However,this is now always the truth.

Anyway, I went to warehouse sale today.
With baoyu & yiting, I bought 4tops for myself.
2 for Meihua, 1 for dearie & 1 for Peishan ;)
Hopefully,they'll like it.
I spend quite some time searching for it der..
Cause all the clothes were like all over the place..
Well,at warehouse you can't expect everything to be pack nicely for you ..

Went on our shopping at Sing Post This Fashion . lols.
Tried some tops but didn't really have interest in it.
Den had our dinner at City Plaza, Fried Chicken.
After which, we went to Grandlink sing k .
The auntie said my hair long liao.. hahas ..
Home sweet home ;)

Ps : Don't be sad about tat incident lerhs.. cheer up alright..
no matter wad.. you still have us.. ;] ( me & baoyu)

I'm back again.
went out in the morning to market buy breakfast for dearie.
Love buying breakfast for him cause at least that's something i can do for him.

Dearie pei-ed me the whole morning,whole afternoon,whole night & whole day ;D
I LOVE YOU LOTS LAHSS!! MUACKS !
You never fail me to make me smile,make me happy,make me laugh!
Just like an angel here for me all the time to love me & protect me.
You know how much i love you?
I don't know cause it's uncountable! ;DDDDDDDD
I'll alwaes love you like how u do to me..
I want to make my dear happy all the time, all the while whenever you're with me.
I really miss you alot whenever you're not around.
Love the way you call me dear, the way you smile to me,the way you tell me jokes,the way you laugh with me..
Everything about you..
Please do take care while you're back in camp wor..
muacks..

Slacked the whole day..
Den went hawker eat with dearie,peishan & kelvin..
lols..
Bought home noodles for mummy..
heng never tio kan..
daddy also home liao sia..
It's a miracle tat he didn't spoke a word or nag..
Perhaps he also given up on me alrdy bah..
I'm a hopeless child, unfillial daughter..
I'm sorry, dad & mum ):
I wish i could be any better.

1. What is the question that you haven't found an answer to yet?
- Why am i so stupid and slow ?!!


2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?

- YES, I did because i was damn moody, off my cell as i didnt wish to answer any calls .


3. What happen at 10am today?
- I was in a daze on the way to my next lesson, having a terrible moodswing due to my tiredness.


4. When did you last cry?

- Last week when i attended my friend's wake?!



5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?

-Probably bread or waffle bahs . lols .


6. What do you want in your life now?

-Dearie & all my Friends including GFs, BestFriends & Etc . ;D


7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?

- Depends on my mood & whether i have an umbrella with me or not . lols .


8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
- My tortise pillow !! LOLS!!


9. What bottom are you wearing now?

- Shorts?!


10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
- Gd morn ah bluz dear dear .. Srri ur ah toot dear dear can't wake u up .. Dun be late to sch hor n muz eat something be4 ur lesson start .. I love u 'ah bluz dear dear' .. ( needless to say,it's from dearie, I LOVE YOU TOO! ;D )


11. Do you intend to make a relationship complicated?
- Nope, I love it the way it is now . Sweet & Simple ;)


12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
- LOLS! NOPE.


13. What was the last movie you caught?
- Indiana Jones? It's a nice movie . I recommend ppl to go watch it ! ;D


14. What are you proud of?

- I'm proud of being myself & having my dearie with me, not forgetting my FRIENDS!!


15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?

- Sry. Is my fault tat cant plan well n celebrate well for ur bdae. I am such a failure. ( Silly gal, I didn't blame you at all, in fact i'm glad at least u celebrated for me ;DD )

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
- 虽然我愿意。


17. Do you have any nicknames?
- Bendan, Ah blur, Miss toot -.-'''


18. What does your last recieved text message say?
- I will Slp early 1 la .. U 0so .. Gd NiTe SwT dream love u .. ( from my dearie hehhs.)


19. What time did you go to bed last night?
- 12am ?! I was watching tv & couldn't sleep -.-'''


20. Are you currently happy?
- Not very sure? A lil moody though .


21. Who gives you best advice?
- BestFriend & DEARIE ;]


22. Are you afraid of the dark?

- Yes, I do & especially when I'm alone.


23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
- Dearie .


24. Is anything bugging you now?
- Yes, But I won't share it.


25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
- Dearie of cause . He tickled me =p


26. Do you wear toe socks?
- Nope.


27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
- The person who interviewed me at bugis asking if I wanted to join the scheme . LOLS!



28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
- Yes, it's when I see my dearie being tortured in the camp . ):


29. What annoys you most in a person?

- Hypocritical people . Act as if they care when they actually don't .



30. Do you have a crush on anyone?

- Crush on my dearie =p


31. Have you ever done cocaine?
- Nope.


32. What is the color of your room?
- White, white & white.


33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
- I won't sarcrifice my future for $$ & someone i hate. -.-'''


34. Do you believe in the saying 'talk is cheap'?
- Perhaps? Talking means nothing when action is not shown yea?


35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
- My mum? lols .


37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
- Yea, Dearie's sister sees us all the time =p


38. Do you have a life?
- Yes, However, it'll seem so meaningless without my dearie.


39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
-I hoped so but it didnt happened. ):


40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
-Cause I'm in love with tat song . yes, just tat simple XD


41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
- Myself? dreamt tat i died 2 days before my 18th bdae ):


42. Last time you smiled?
- Just now to dearie when he sent me home ;)




43. Have you changed this year?

- Yes, I've become someone whom I don't know either .


44. What are you listening right now?

- Nothing .




45. Are you talking to someone when you are doing this?

- Texting with my siao sister ;D


46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
- DUHHH! Open of cause.




47. Is there a quote you live by?

- I believe that if you never try, you'll never know.


48. Do you want someone you can't have?
- Nope, I only want my dearie ;D


49. Have you ever played an instrument?
- Angklung .


50. What was the worst idea you've had in week?
- Skipped school for the whole of next week =X


51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
- Watching Tv & missing dearie .




52. Are you happy with your love life now?
- Yes, very very happy cause I got a very nice dearie ;DD


53. What song best describe your love life?
- 梁潵伯与朱丽叶


54. Does the person know you like him/her?
-Of course dearie knows I love him & not only like =p


55. Who always make you laugh?
- DEARIE. He never fails to do that ;DD




56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-Mandrain, Chinese.


57. Favourite website?

- Baka-lovers.blogspot.com . LOLs!


58. What's your middle name?
-恩恩?


59. What are you doing tomorrow?
- Meeting dearie to go out for our date ;DDDD


60. What do you think you are like?
- Crazy & crappy.




61. Who will you choose to die with?
- I'll rather die on my own.


62. Where have you been today?
- School, dearie's house & hawker =p




63. What game do you play often?
- Nah, I don't play any games currently.




64. Who are you missing right now?
-DEARIE OF COS !!


65. If you've to choose between friend and loves, who will you choose?
-I won't choose. I want both. =X




66. What are doing right now?
-Blogging this survey? LOLS.


67. Which primary school are you from?
- Macpherson Primary

68. Name 3 colors that you like?
- Green, Red & Pink.

69. What emotion you like to show?
-PIG (^@^)

70. What is your life to you?
-It's full of excitement cause dearie never fails to make me laugh everyday ;DD

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
- Keep it to myself for some time bah, den tell dearie or my close friends.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-I didn't sign in at all.

73. Who do you admire most?
- Nobody.


74. Which month are you born in?
-February.


75. How are you feeling right now?
-Happy cause I'm at dearie's house.


76. What is the time now?
-5:32 PM


77. Where are you now?
-Dearie's house -.-



78. What color did you use to dye your hair?
-Brown?



79. Why are you doing this test?
- For the sake of doing lor. =p



80. What do you do when you are moody?
-I would shut to myself or cry.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
-Preferbly 21 or 22 bahs. So tat i can give birth earlier =p

82. Who is more important to you?
- DEaRie, my family& Friends.

83. Do you think you have enough confident?
-Nope.


84. Who is the person you trust most?
-Dearie & myself.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
- yep, i saw it with my own eyes.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
-Be with Dearie for the rest of my life till our heads turn white ;))

87. What is your goal for this year?
- To get good grades for my studies ;]

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
- Not really.

89. What feeling do you love most?
-Being disturbed by Dearie.


90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
-YES, I'm super hot now -.-

91. What feeling you hate the most?
-Being left alone.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Only some which i tink is worth it.

93. Do you believe in god?
- LOLS. I'm a free-tinker =p

94. Who cares for you the most?
-My Dear. ;D


95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-Still my Dear =p



96. What are some stuffs you couldn't let go now and forever?
- MY DEAR!!


97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
-Not doing well for my O's


98. What would you feel that on one no longer cares for you?
-Sad.

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
-I would kill the gal.

100. What do you want now?
- I wan to eat!! ;D

Read after you've done the survey.
1) Remove 1qns from the above and add In your own personal qns, bold It.
2) Ryte down 10 people whom you would want them to do the survey at the end of the post and tell them thru tagboards.


1) Pei Shan
2)Baoyu
3)MeiHua
4)Juliana
5)Grace
6)Andy
7)Shi Guan
8)Jie Min
9)Rebecca
10) Shermin Jie

I'm back here for updates.
Today's lesson are alright.
Bfd teacher was absent yet we had to stay to listen to section head crap.
Faints.
What she told us was like what we already know?
I guess she was only wasting our time -.-

Otherwise, I could have gone home at 12pm.
Bused home, fell asleep on the bus again.
But fortunately i woke up before i missed my stop -.-'''

My dear's gonna book out tmr lerh.
Happy Happy!
Cause i can finally spend the weekend with him.
Though it's a short one but i still feel blessed (;
I'm gonna give him a surprise tmr =p
He's still wondering what it is. hahas .
Yeah, my dear is cute der. =X
& I LOVE HIM !

ytd pei peishan go bugis after school to shop agains.
FAINTS !
we both reached there at the same time sia.

denn kana interview at junction.
the person say if one month save $50 at their bank den 25 years ltr can get 20000.
LOLS!
i don't even know if i get to live that long enough -.-
well, i'm someone who don't know how to save money.

went to eat at long john den shop for Peishan's skinny.
I got myself a off-shoulder top and spagetti too XD
She also bought 2 tops.
wanted to get the gray shorts however no size.
shall go back get it nxt time bahs.
Peishan will pei me go back rite? *BLINKS*
hahaha .

Super tired sia.
We waited 30mins & not a single 63 appeared.
So we decided to take 80 den change bus home.
Lazy us =p
80 was crowded luhs, but we managed to get a seat soon.
Reached home bath den chatted with dear dear ;]

Watched tv, but i just couldn't fall aslp .
Was not feeling well luhs.
den msg dear ask him he slp alrdy.
Surprisingly,he replied.

So i called him again & asked why he was still awake.
He said he was worried i couldn't slp again den no one pei.
Omg, my darling is sweet can =pp
He understands me more than i do. *muacks*
Chatted for awhile more den chased him go slp.
Afterwhich, i fell asleep too .

I'm so happy .
Cause i can see him tmr already ;D
I love youuuuuuuuuuu!

I'm sleepy though.
went out with HUANG PEI SHAN today to sp.
this kiam pa idiot took so long to choose her clothes =.=

We met at around 3plus den off to sp.
shop at THIS FASHION for like 3hrs?
Since around 4plus till like 6plus near 7.
Cause we were like taking our own sweet time.
Choosing again & again just to look for something which we like best.

I got myself a dress for $13 cause got 50% off . XD
while Peishan got a 'newspaper' tube for only $9.60 ?
Cause she's a member & this month's her bday month which allow her to enjoy 20% off.
LOLS！
Both of us shop like crazy, keep on walking around till our legs couldn't take it.
Then, we decided to take a little rest at the fountain.

DEAR msg told me they were forced to booked out . =.=
They were not allowed to stay in camp to slp .
So after shopping, went home with Peishan to pei DEAR for awhile .
He's so sick ):
His whole body so hot as he is running a fever but he refuse to see a doctor.
That's wad made me worried most. Sigh !
Pei him wait for 135 .
Actually wanted to pei him bused back camp der..
But he said it was too late & dangerous for me .

DEAR, Please get well soon.
Otherwise I'll be so sad & worried .
I miss you ):

知道吗？
不知从几时开始，你已经比我自己更重要了。
要快点好起来啊！

The reason why im still awake now.

Because i can't sleep, & i'm using the com while it's okay now ><

Hate the feeling of being lonely.

dear dear is suffering in camp )':

hope that he's okay soon pls!

i miss him badly.

Although i just saw him one day ago :/

DO YOU KNOW ?!

Now, i feel so unsecure without you by my side.

i feel so lonely.

i feel so sad.

i miss u so much.

i miss your hugs & kisses.

i miss your jokes.

i miss every single thing about you.

My mind is all about you, you & still YOU!

):

I know you're busy.

I should be understanding and considerate.

Darling, i wanna share your troubles, can I ?

Please be happy okay ? *Don't think too much* ;D

Dear, i will wait for you book out der (:

Hope you did enjoyed the spagetti which i cooked with your sis.

I shall go think about wad to cook up next! =p

Happy happy us forever ~

[ i'm loving you just like there's no tomorrow ]