28-11-06
went to work again todae .
im like so in need of money lahs.
so work n work n work .


as usual my spoilt shoe gave me shit problems .
&& this time is a NURSE who helped mie again .
wad a coincidence lah !
=.= im being too high .
i shld sae she is an ex-nurse .
nw also working in burgerking .
she gave me her shoe aft she finish work .
so kind of her lah.
she said her sis also nurse , den bla bla
always got alot of new shoes .
she was still worried if i mind wearing her shoes.
of course not ! it hlped me .
before she gave me her shoes ,
guess wad ?
my manager gave me rubber bands to type
on my shoes . like wearing a band on ur leg .
=.= . and they call it NEW STYLE .
we all laugh like siao lah .

seriously , i tink bugis' sales compared to expo's
is really nth . tats why i didnt sweat a drop at all today .
cos im trained already at expo -.-'''

dunno whether to be happy or sad ,
everything is considered over
but to me , its still a problem okay ?
if it goes on , more n more problems
will add on and explode one dae ?
=.= i dun noe wad im trying to sae either .
& i got a surprise ,
dear actually bought the doggy i alwaes
wanted for me .
thanks . but dun spend so much $$ on mie again nx time le.
i tink it issent worth spending on mie .

been awoken up by baoyu at 10plus ,
cos i need to pei her go see doctor .
just like how she accompany me
when i injure my leg and went for
consultation . wad luck we have ?
i onlie slept for 5hrs ?
watch too much videos .
but i have stop already .


i thought tat it was onlie a minor fall .
end up , i found a bruise on my elbow there.
& when i tried to move my hand ,
my muscle hurts .
but i guess i be fine soon.

went home and i fell asleep on the sofa
while babysitting .
i was semi-conscious so i knew they
went also lying on the sofa watching tv .
woke up & ate maggi mee .
played maple and stuff .

there are lots of things which i feel like
telling you but i just dunno how to .
it feels so terrible to noe tat you
dunno wad im thinking abt .
i mean . u dun have to noe exactly .
but at least understand a lil wad im trying to do.
i dun expect much but just abit more of understanding .
or maybe im the one whose being too unreasonable ?

26 - 11 - 06
went for work again ,
super tired .
the quene is like the big ocean,
neverENDING long .
lols. and i was WOLS .


well, i wan to tok abt an incident tat
happen when i was on my way to work .
as i was walking,
a lady walked up to mie and tapp me .
she : hey, will you allow mie to hlp euu ?
me : huh ?
she :let me fixed ur shoe for you .
i noe its terrible to walk in this manner.
i experience it before .
me : [ stunned ] okay (smiling to her)
she : as a nurse, i would always bring scotch-tape
with mie all the time .
(searching her scotch-tape)
me :oooo
she : can you take off ur shoe pls ?
me : okay (take off the shoe )
she : you should get a new pair of shoes soon .
(fixing my shoe in progress)
me : yah, im going to soon .
[ work done ]
she : okay, you can try it now .
me : (try to walk )
she: alright, i think this should be able to
last u till u get ur shoes.
wad's ur name?
me: crystal .
she: oo, wad a nice name,
my name is irene .
(went separate way)


i suppose she is a christian,
cos she also did tell mie
she was rushing to the church.
well, i met a hlpful kind soul todae,
i noe god will bless her .
(((:
i will never forget the help she offered.


so aft work went to pasar malam,
with dear , baoyu and mei hua.
didnt tok much with dear at all.
hais, we were almost like strangers.
saw jevonne, liting..
me and baoyu disturb liting.
den she tickle mie and i fell .
my hand hurts )))))))):
:P nvm lah.
im not a kid, will be fine soon .

reach home ,
chatted a lil with er jie .
even told her abt wad im experiencing .
surprise sia, never thought i will tell her all these.
den she sae im still too young.
nx yr den teach mie >.<
she tell mie ;
be with the one you feel happy with .
those enlightening words .

change the picture of my blogskin,
comments anyone?
lols.
been wanting to change it to something
lyk tat long ago .
but just dunno how to edit the pics
den thanks to sandy
she told me which programme to use
thanks ger .
and she did one on her blog too .
its nice too.
got my pic also,
didnt expected it ?
lols.

to carol :
i fancy euu okay?
hahas.
there is just too much pple to mention.
and it was reallie a slip of my mind.
nx time we all take a nice pic together
den i put on my blog okay ?

well , im still thinking .

im sure a idiot .
i cant even make decisions or rather
make up my mind what i wan ?
im so scare of guy taking gers for granted .
when they like the ger , anything is alright with them .
but when they got the ger in hand,
they can just hack care liao .
will you cherish me?
or rather will i be relieved?
hais .
there's just so lil i can do .

pearson ask me to do this ;

7 things that scares me
>loneliness .
>being left out .
>LOSING HIM .
>LOSING my precious friends and family .
>cockroaches .
>going home ALONE .
> staying at home ALONE .

7 favourite music at the moment
> zui jing -lee sheng jie
>wei yi -wang lee hom
>babay, dui bu qi -coco lee
>everytime we touch-cascada
>wo bu nan guo- stephanie sun
>yong qii -liang jing ru

7 people i fancy
> dear . <33
>baoyu
>shiguan
>sim
>sharon toh & huizin
>mei hua & rebecca
>peishan

7 things i said most
>i miss you .
>walauu .
>so sian .
>oie, keep quiet !! [ to the kids at home]
>mummy !!!!
>i love you .
>omg .

7 things i like most
>my wallet .
>my room .
>my com .
>my stuff .
>my kappo .
>my new hp .
>my neoprints .

7 people needed to do this survey
> wengwai
>shiguan
> baoyu [ when ur hand recover]
>peishan
> rebecca
> sandy
> sharon toh

POST .
woke up at ard 1plus.
as usual, we werent able to go shiguan hse.
looked aft the kids.
shouted like mad; why are they so naughty ?
just ate my breakfast .
lols. im going to tnet later on bah.
no life sia todae.
will update again .
& i miss you.

why am i always the one who meet such a thing ?
i think i cant make it anymore.
not even for the last time.
i have had enough of all this now.
i need a rest, reallie need one.
baby, i cant believe it .


i wan to enjoy my holidaes !
my finally-cum holidaes (:
without any disturbance .
& sort my thinking .

perhaps u dunno, or will never noe.
im tired, im not feeling good.
i wasnt in a good mood.
the things i said never seem to reach u,
the msg i tried to put across.
tired of dunno wad to sae,
tired of holding a fone which feels
so cold n stranger.
tired of trying to find out wad
really happen to you .
i wan to noe cos i care.
its not because i wan to blame here n there,
i just wanted to get the facts right .
i dun wan to wrong anyone.
and i dun like pple to blackmouth u.
while i cant do anything at all,
cos i dunno anything at all !
i noe i aint a nice gf ever since.

yeah. went to orchard with carol n baoyu ytd.
carol wanted us to accompany her to buy some
stuff for her chalet ;
was awaken up by them.
i so tired sia,
didnt wish to wake up.
as usual, carol was late. haas.
btw, baoyu hurt her hand during training,
den we keep di siao her .
but i still feel sorry for her lah,
cos my leg was an experience.
went shopping all over den go cineleisure
saw a very cute wallet.
me n baoyu going back to get it next week?
yeah yeah(:
blah blah.
went to bugis;
dear happen to be there too.
but i didnt wan to meet him
first cos he was with his friend.
played rock fever with baoyu,
i think i improved ?

met dear aft tat at the arcade;
he sent me home then.
im a lil moody ever since tat dae.

for today,
i went for my angklung practice
at st theresa convent.
the pple there dam dao?
i mean some onlie lah.
tired sia, till 4.30pm
and i forgot my fone.
miss him,
i also dunno why.
rush home all the way,
but i didnt get to meet him today.
perhaps we can meet tmr?
we seem to tok lesser n lesser.
i dun understand why.
im dam frustrated now.
i saw tat boy my mum is babysitting
molesting my niece lor !
FUCK !
all i could do was to shout n scold him.
he's p1 nx year, and so pervertic.
i cried n recalled sth worse.
now, he's trying to play with the
naked babie doll. WTH !


im such a useless person.
im slow n dumb.
pple dun even wan to be my friend
everyone's getting sick of teaching me.
all because im slow):
totally a failure.

im here to blog about the meeting with shermin JIE.
lols; it was definitely a happy fun time,
though it was onlie a short afternoon.
there's so much to share n talk about.
so all the way, we were hee-haa-ing.
we never fail to lame each other;
whenever we meet.
i shared my problems with her,
she gave me the advice
i should heed.
cause it is sensible.
& i love dear.
here's my stupid idea of taking pics,
go ahead n laugh !


shermin toot toot !























follow by me =.=
so paiseh lor; but still; snap.
























the other pics; our heart beat as one :D




















yum yum ! lol
i look so =.=




















the candie canes (:

















my love for you is still the same.
but i dunno why,
words just seem to get lesser):


19/11/06

btw, i went to work today.
the menu has changed.
i got so much trouble
getting them into my memory.
the new manager sucks !!
& super lots of customer,
i almost went crazy.
luckily, i was still able to adapt
to the new menu.
dear fetch me aft work,
went arcade play.
walk to suntec, play arcade.
den didnt get to buy the candie canes ):
the shop closed .
but i will go get it tmr.
well, tats all for today.
& sorry dear for making u so sian
when i was toking to my friends.

yeah, been awoken up by mummy just now ard 10plus.
cant get to sleep so i on com.
it was right, SHERMIN JIE is online.
and i can confide with her the wadever shit problems im having now(:
thanks so much and im gonna meet up with her later on :DD
hurray! though just a short while.
we gonna get the candie canes !!
dunno how are they now ?
but i cant do much since i also dunno wads going on.
& i shant ask much cos it seems to provoke her more.
im a baddie. cos i decided to be selfish n keep my dear((:
P.S : [ baoyu ] if u happen to be reading.
i dunno wads going on now. but just rmb i be there.
if u need someone, just call me.
or u wanna go prataing also can(:

alright, this shall be my last post for the day.
i noe there's too much posts f0r today.
&& im also here to clear all the misunderstanding.


firstly, i shoulnt have not trusted dear as much.
but im still worried.
just becus of her re-appearance.
it really makes me uneasy.
& i think dear still likes her?
well, liek wad shermin jie saes.
forget abt tat ger,
just dun think of her.
and grab tight tight of dear.
unless he wans a break.

second thing is,
i kept calling home just now.
didnt noe whether mum got cook anot?
den she never ans my call.
is like, im F*worried abt her & the 2 kids.
i also dunno why,
just cant set my mind at ease.
and everyone noes,
my stupid illness; i sweat in my palms n legs
like hell whenever im nervous or
for nth it will sweat.
so i was sweating like hell at the sole of my legs,
while rushing home, my legs kept slipping out.
making it so difficult to walk;
so i decided to take off my shoes &
i ran home.
just to find out my stupidity,
mummy off the tone of the fone=.=
& i g0t scolded)':


hais, my worries seem to mean nothing at all.
HELLO ~~
who is there when im feeling so d0wn?
***********
thanks so much(:
& not forgetting dear,
staying up all night to learn
how to fold hearts for me.
i appreciate all these :D
LASTLY; i had a fun afternoon with shermin JIE>
thanks you too.
will upload the pics when she blog it(:

before i go,i actually found out wad really happen le.
perhaps, i shouldnt have been so...
arggh,wad a bad thing i have done.
shit me!!


&& i really didnt mean it.
now ****** is my retribution!
so much for being nice to my dear)':
wad the hell ??!?

imthinkingtoomuchbah.butthemsgileftfordearisreal.
anyway,imluckyhedidntaccepttheoffercosikinderregretted
leavinghimtatmsgaftmuchthinkingnow,itslike.
forwadiwantdeartothinkagain,sheaintnicetohim!
unlesssheisandimightconsidercosithinkimbadtohim,
imsuchastupidger.
imissdearnow.ishouldstartlearninghowtobeagoodgf.

yeah im back home blogging again.
had a long chat with dear at nearby before cuming home(:
went to tnet in the afternoon,
played pool, den baoyu came aft work.
sorry for pang-sening her by going to play bball aft tat.
aniwae, still got her dear pei her chat.
so i think not tat bad bah.
halfway, dear came to cc find me.
i was so shocked. didnt noe he so fast reach.
den play awhile le go hawker eat.
chatted lots of stuff, i just knew so much.
im a bad ger, will dear leave me?
*sigh

14 october`06
didnt went for angklung camp today since i was going to perform at tnet
for the elderly from the nearby old folks home(:
im sure i didnt regret though i think i didnt did a good job,
cause i noe my singing sucks but i just wanted to give myself a chance.
i didnt regret cause i got to noe a group of nice friends,
they cheered me up hours before the perf0rmance :DD
they gave me encouragement when i was singing,
all those encouragements n cheering makes me feel so touched.
special thanks to :
SHAWN [ and also for carrying my bag ]
CHRISTOPHER SIM `MOOOOO~
ANTHONY`all ur jokes n stuff.
VICTO WEE` lamer
DEAR` there to pei me(:
BAOYU`to pei me also.
MDM` her encouragements too and
not f0rgetting
KELVIN'S MUM !!!
she was there to support me specially, she said i could sing well(:
im glad to hear tat though u might not have sang well.
hahas, we went mooooing~ after the programme.
so much fun we had.
now im missing those funny chaps ! :DD
dear, dun jealous cos i miss you as much too !

15 october`06
went for the anklung camp; early in the morning
dear sae my jacket was not good enough for the air-con
so he met me in the morning and lent me his jacket.
its like so nice of him! thanks!
went for the camp den practice was like so tired,
i kept dozing off den kana hit by sharon.
so dun dare fall asleep den keep going to toilet wash face.
den also got play captain ball, quite fun.
at nite used dear's jacket as blanket den slp.
super tired !
i saw christopher, but he dun recognise me sia ):
so sad, should be u treat me moo~ den.
hahaha. joking joking.
imu,dear.

16 october`06
last day of camp, woke up late.
had our exercise; so tired.
to me, like everything also tired.
practice again, btw sharon is finally the PRESIDENT !!
haha, someone cannot get it. so sad.
sharon should noe who i saying.
haha. LOL. im the treasurer.
so lame, ask a careless ger be treasurer =.='''
went out with baoyu n dear to bukit timah
just to eat prata=.=
den headed to jurong point to play arcade.
so tired tat i fell asleep on the bus,
went home :D

Can you name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people.(not in order)
1>WENGWAI
2>BAOYU
3>SHI GUAN
4>KELVIN
5>HAOWEI
6>SHARON TOH
7>MEI HUA
8>PEI YING
9>SUKI
10>GERALD
11>CAROL
1. How did you meet 10?
-through work.
2. What would you do if you had never met 6?
-i also dunno leh -.-
3. What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
-omg, they are not les !!
4. Have you ever seen 4 cry?
- nope.
5. Do you think 1 is pretty?
- i think he's handsome.
6. Tell me something about 11.
-she is a very pretty gal, nice, caring.
7.How do you know 8?
-when we were in the same class in sec 1.
8. Would you ever go on a date with Number 5?
- we already did -.-
9. What's 7's favourite colour?
- purple.
10. What would you do if 2 confessed he like you?
- LOL! she also not les.
11. Fact about 9.
-she is a pretty ger.
12. Who is 6 going out with?
- cann0t say :x
13. Who is Number 5 to you?
- a good friend now(:
14. Would you ever live with 11?
-yes, if we could. it be fun !!
15. Is 2 single?
-NO.
16. How much does 3 mean to you?
-a friend only.
17. What do you think about 1?
-he is my MR NICE. i love him.
18. Whats the best thing about Number 8?
- she is a very nice friend.
19. What do you dislike about Number 10?
- he loves to MIA.
20.11 people that you want them to do.
>BAOYU
>SHI GUAN
>WENGWAI
>SHARON TOH
>SANDY TOH
>ANGIE
>REBECCA
>MEI HUA
>PENNY
>CAROL
>JESSICA

went to bugis with my dear den we walk to suntec there,
played arcade den went back to bugis meet mei hua n sharon.
actualyl wan go find rol rol der, but she already left.
hahas. so we went off to eat .
den sharon went off ler, cos she gotta go home for dinner.
so the three of us went walk walk around first den go home.
saw so many pple on the bus sia.
LOL. lame.
helped baoyu go hawker to buy desert.
stil deliver to her hse downstairs for her sia,
see we so good.
haha. dear pei me home aft that.
my post are getting so lame n boring.
aniway, iLu. dear.
i wan y0u to noe tat i trust u completely.
and i never will make dear sad again(:

09-11-06 `thursday
was awaken by dear's mum twice in the early morning.
but hack care den went back to sleep..
LOL, i still rmb the 2nd call she ask whether i was with dear anot.
den i was thinking, i also looking for my dear so how i noe..
so i told her no and i went back to sleep.
me and baoyu been waiting for them to contact us again.
we went bugis meet sharon and giina, and huizin.
ate KFC den went walk walk and towards the arcade,
we were like hoping to see them there but it was like so impossible lah.
so had a game of percussion and went off to street there find carol.
been walking the whole day lahs, so tired n bored.
we also took neoprint after tat, dear finally sms me!
i was like so happy den hug sharon and i shouted.
sharon had to go off at ard 7plus so we sent her to the mrt.
feeling a lil moody since baoyu wasnt able to contact her bf yet.
she was like so quiet today, dunno how to cheer her up.
it wasnt her usual her today, hopefully shi guan contacts her soon.
all the way till when we going home, manage to make her laugh a lil.
we decided to take cab home so while waiting,
they kept walking further up so i was like;
walk some more mus add 10Cent liao leh, LOL !
den finally, aft waiting for so long,
a cab came n we hopp on.
wah, it wasnt the amount of road we walk..
but the number of traffic light it stop at..
den i decided next time we all shall spoil either the meter or traffic lights =.=
okay i noe its lame. cause i wanted to cheer baoyu up mahs.
had a nice day !

10-11-06 `Friday
went f0r hapkido in the morning.
dam tired aft training, went hawker for a drink.
dear came and find me, we all chatted.
he bought me the KAPO i had always wanted !
now it has becum our s0n. hees.
dear is back and we all noe wads going on n0w.
i was right to trust dear upon careful thinking(:
y0u haven failed me! iLOVEy0u :DD
i noe my dear is MR nice to me(((:
aniwae, he decided to pei me today.
and i had to pei baoyu go work and fetch her after work
upon her dear's request. since he wasnt able to make it.
but it was still very sweet of him .
still sms me rmb go fetch her and stuff [:
LOL. dear pei me the whole day.
aft we send baoyu to work, carried son around orchard
walk walk, l0ls. its just a lil monkey. so cute.
ate pastamania, but couldnt finish it =p
walk till so tired. went around to sit.
i miss my dear so much.
though he is just beside me just n0w.
i also dunno why, i feel so happy to be with him.
went fetch baoyu aft she finish work.
went hawker eat chicken chop,
dear send me home(:
im so blessed to be with my dear.
i will always cherish y0u just like now(((((:

t0day (:
went to meet sharon and mei hua go sharon's church activity at east coast.
we went parkway first to mit my dear,
it was raining cats and dogs !
n0 choice we hid at the kbox outside there,
dear came to find us den we all went to the coffeesh0p makan.
i ate chicken rice, the floor was flooded.
walked in the rain, all the way to east coast.
so dam wet lah, den joined the group.
aft awhile den go lerhs cos shar0n need to leave.
went back chup lao, went tnet.
played po0l with leonard,
went hawker t0 eat, went home(:

dear, dunno where y0u have gone ?
im trying my best to think on the bright side..
hoping to see dear's msg or call soon.
i dun wan dear to leave me.
cos i really love you dear.

no ones noes how worried n scare im feeling now:/
thanks to those who tried to cheer me up.
are this worries for nothing ?
except folding and folding;
i dunno wad to do anymore.
i wun give up on my dear and
i hope he wun give up on me too.
i choose to trust my dear rather
than wad stupid leonard says.

click on the picture to see it.while i was playing maple just now, this funny person ask me to cc.which means to change channel when i reach tat place first.what more was he said if i wanted him to cc, i would have to give him 100k ! oh pls , would i be so stupid to give it to you ? i reach there first and i didnt even mumble a word to ask him to leave, and he still dare to ask me leave and expect me to pay him money to leave. issent tat daylight robbery? crazy pple.

another happening was i quarrel with a gal in maple also for the same reason, but i admit its also partly my fault. my stupid com DC me so when i went back to the same area, this person was there and ask me to cc. so i was like, ignoring them.in then end, she said i was a kser. which i dont agree with, so i started quarreling with her.and she scold me childish. HELLO ~~ whose the one being childish there calling pple sluts and stuff ? LOTS of stuff which made me angry.dun wish to mention it.

all the perfect reasons why i hated maple. -cause i never seem to get along with pple in there. i always quarrel with pple in maple. it never fails to happen.-im also lazy to train. -its a boring game aft playing for long.

i woke up early in the morning at 7am from fright of a nightmare..
the dream goes like this;
i was walking home alone when this tikopek grabbed me from behind :/
all i rmb was i shouted as loudly as i could and the next moment i was already awake.
i noe its a stupid dream but im still traumatised (dunno if i got the spelling right)
by it even till now):
no one noes how i feel, not trying to exagerate about it but i still really cant get over it.
alright, i went back to sleep though in fear hugging on to my bolster tightly since it was
still early and i was also sleepy.
so i went back to school for angklung practice but i skipped hapkido since no one else is going.
went to the library with mei hua, yi ting, sharon toh , hui zin and cheryl.
i wanted to borrow some books for the english book review.
end up, i was more interested in hui zin's book but she had it first so no choice.
got to wait for her to finish it first, but the main reason why i didnt borrow any books
in the end was because i didnt realise i had owned the library money so i returned the $$ unwillingly. went home aft tat.
shi guan is being so KPO about how many hearts i have folded for my dear.
but the more curious he is, the more i dun wan to tell him :P
anyway, dear bought me a necklace ytd.
actually i would love anything tat is from my dear(:
thanks darling .
i think im gonna rot at home or train my maple today.
i think im gonna fold lots of hearts today!

went to watch the grudge II with my dear, baoyu,shi guan, peishan and lee yong.
lols. the movie was kinder scary and i grabbed dear`s hand so tightly.
but dear kept patting me on my head and makes me feel so secure :DD
i love you((:
aft the movie at marina square we went to eat duck rice at bugis,
and to the arcade play maximum tune again :DD
use dear car and challenge with baoyu, i won !
yeah so happy. but dosent mean my driving is good -.-''
just tat its a lil more stable den baoyu bah.
afterall im used to playing cars and guns stuff.
if you ask me to play rock fever i also dunno liao.
i miss dear`s hugs [:
cause they always make me feel so secure and safe.
den we went home, i walk home alone today.
actually i wanted dear dear to walk home with me,
but i noe he is tired and i also dun wan him to pangsen shi guan.
i miss dear ):
there is school tmr, cause got angklung and hapkido.
so sian, aft tat also dunno do wad.
alright, i go and sleep le.
nites everyone.

i wan to do something for my dearest.
starting on from tmr, im gonna fold a star whenever i miss my dear (((:
before folding, i will write the time,date and year on it,
plus some notes on it.
but i got no idea when to let him noe.
readers, decide for me?
LOL
maybe im also going to fold 1000 cranes for dear.
if tat wish will cum true,
i wish dear would always be so healthy n strong and safe like now :D
may my wish cum true aft folding the cranes(:

POST FOR THE DAY ______ 6th NOV`06 (((((((((:
went out to find dear and shi guan at bugis with baoyu.
had KFC for my dinner :X getting fat soon.
saw my LAOBEII [ fake one lah] *yaohui
haha,im so surprise tat daphne was with him and weihao :/
anyway, i enjoy my evening time with dear.
we went arcade, i played maximum tune for the first time!
its so fun but the car was so slow ):
nx time i will buy a car of my own and play like crazy. [wiseful thinking]
cos i dun even noe how to drive well, banging here and there.
INITIAL D is still easier for me bah [:
den me and baoyu saw a hp accessory very cute.
so we wanted to get it, mus grab one.
very hard to get the right position and catch it.
end up we saw others playing, it was like 2 more step den get it liao.
but they gave up so we decided to continue,
and we got it!!! we shouted.
kelian de bfS beside us was like shocked.
den pple ard also laugh at us, but who cares when we were so excited.
hahaha, and we went walking around .
back to chup lao, sit around under HDB flats.
on the way home, dear piggy-back me :DDD
so fun, but i so heavy dunno got hurt him anot.
haha (: so.. to make up to him.
home im blogging and grinning away to myself(:

im tagged by sandy to do this quiz.

#1. Are you a chinese or english freako?
-chinese
#2. If time is going to stop; what will you possibly do for that time?
-be with my dear xD
#3. Prefer a playpool or playground?
-playground
#4. Do you usually gossip others; or being gossiped?
- both also have la.
#5. Do you like simple or complicated stuffs?
-as simple as possible :D
#6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets?
alphabets ! duh ! my maths sucks ! :x
#7. What makes you pissed off?
-when im being accused , i mean reallie being accused! for thing i never did.
im also pissed when pple i trust lie to me.
#8. How's your childhood?
- i got a wonderful childhood :P
#9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
-wth u toking ?
#10. Do you think 24 hours is too long, short or just okay?
-just okay (:
#11. Would you judge people by their appearance?
-not reallie.
#12. What is attractive in your eyes?
- my dear of course :X
#13. Do you like the day or night, explain why.
-day . my dear will be there with me xD
#14. Do you treasure stuffs that you own, or you have insatiable desires?
- yes i treasure my dear most .
#15. If your computer just hanged up; with a long long document not being saved; how will you react?
- feel frustrated n throw tantrums at anyone who happens to annoy me.
#16. Do you believe in miracles? Or was it longed predestined?
- i believe on miracles :X
#17. Do you often tend to forget about the past; or trying hard to do so? What are you trying to forget?
- the past is something i always remember. there are some things i try hard to forget but i just cant. no one noes except myself.
#18. In your mind, why colours are out here?
-to help us differentiate things.
#19. Have you ever pity those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them; etc?
-yes i do. the old auntie who i saw at old folks home got cancer.
her condition worsen as she starts to lose her ability to talk, i cried when i saw her.
#20. Describe yourself as in attitude.
- im not sure, but i noe i got a bad attitude.
#21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
- yeah, but its over since i got my dear.
#22. Give 3 advantages when you get to live.
-noe my dear . be with dear, and treasure my dear ! not forgetting my beloved friends.
#23. What is your ambition in life?
-to be an outstanding someone in the future in things i do. like a teacher.
#24. Do you believe in horoscope etc?
-okay okay.
#25. Describe music in your life.
- helps me to relax or enjoy.
#26. Which country you would like to go; when you can afford it?
-Paris.
#27. What do you think blogging is about?
-to keep track of my memories in the past.
#28. What kind of style you are trying to get hold off?
-any tat suits me :D
#29. When you fail a test, how will you react?
- feel sad n grumble sometimes.

END OF QUIZ !
im suppose to find 8persons to do it.
but im lazy.
anyone who happens to be reading can do it(:

met baoyu go parkway first to hunt for phone promotions,
we went geylang east see doctor cos she need MC for absent of work.
but so suay, all the doctors close liao.
den on the way to bustop to parkway, her dear sae he going to reach a FEW MORE stops.
in order to catch tat same bus, we ran like hell lahh.
end up, we reach the bustop liao but he still got FEW MORE stops.
we were like wth, hai us run like hell.
den we laugh at him, cant even differentiate a FEW MORE stops.
LOL den we board the bus to parkway.
met dear den walk walk, sat at east coast beach there
with dear , baoyu , shiguan , peishan n yawen.
den the night cycling with mdm they all, *miss dear*
dear n shiguan didnt join us
went back mac to look for them, aft we reach bedok jetty.
sat ard at the rocks n chit chated.
all the way till morning, me n shi guan dun let dear slp.
he so kelian (pitiful) . LOL
we watch baoyu slept till so nice to sleep.
i slept awhile aft eating at mac in the morning.
returned bike den bus home, slept at 10am till 8plus den wake up.
so super tired lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
im crazy,anyway i realise wad i wanted.
thanks to hexer kor (:
the moment u dear left, i miss him so much.
i wanted him to be with me so much.
i want to treasure my dear<33
anywae,she actually relinked me.
does tat mean she's still reading my blog?
if u are, tag me(:

im starting to feel moody again.
sometimes, i reallie doubt myself.
i dunno who am i ?
wad kind of a person am i ?
does everyone leave me after they noe me well ?
i dunno .
does everyone hates me ?
everybody leaving me alone.
whenever i need someone,
there issent any.
even ytd when i walk off , darling choose his friends.
the reason why i felt even more sad.
i noe its my wrong, but i already said im terribly not in a good mood.
the fault of those stupid gals stuff n moodswing.
i just wanted ur care n concern.
i wun blame u since u dunno me well.
forget it, at least there was a joker kunlin who could make me laugh out loud
i dunno why, i kept laughing when i saw him.
perhaps i tink he reallie looks like collin.
seriously, i reallie envy baoyu n shiguan.
they are so loving n sweet.
it might be the beginning but its already good enough .
i noe dear is nice, he loves me.
i will do my best to be a good gf.
i need to cross the hurdle of thinking tat she's still in his mind.

3 october aft 12am midnite **
went for interview with baoyu at far east plaza.
den i think liangpieng got a higher chance bah.
its okay, i got more time for my dear if i dun work :DD
went to meet dear , shiguan n kunlin at bugis
cos baoyu went to work.
look for carol to see how she was
sad thing was tat she cut her hand.
omg. i felt like crying when i saw it.
its like so hurting lahhhhs.
watch pple play cars.
feel like playing too.
walk walk den wait for baoyu.
went hawker eat den walk home together.
leading a simple foursome life liddat.
how i wish its the same everyday :DDD

i went out with meihua to make ic .
den rol jie jie ask me to pei her go bugis find job
i sae i cant and i also still sleeping at tat time.
im sorry :x
den sharon also sms me go out with her to bugis,
also same reason pei rol rol go find job.
den i sae if finish make ic maybe i go find them awhile lor.
something also happen to rol n tianhe, walauu.
he actually found out about the candle guy thingy.
dunno who the heck tell him ?!!??
aniwae rol rol also never go work cos things got worse.
so i ask sharon to come over to lavender meet me n meihua.
end up mei hua never take her real birth cert den cannot.
so went plaza singapura meet baoyu dear n shi guan.
sharon wanted to see how wengwai look like.
so went arcade n played awhile too.
den aft sharon n meihua left, we all walk ard ps.
walk to suntec den walk to bugis eat.
walk ard at bugis again , walauu.
how many days have i been there le ?
LOL.
i tink im going crazy.
iwantonoedeardearmore.
sorry, i got no mood to carry on.

31 october 2006*

out to meet wengwai,shiguan n baoyu.
we all go suntec den bugis.
walk walk.
i onlie rmb we kept on walking here and there.
also got met peishan, kunlin, collin n leeyong.
LOL.
lastly, a gift from heaven.
i loveyou :DD

1st NOv 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONARD AND PEARSON !!
went to meet wengwai , shiguan with baoyu at marina square.
walk to suntec den they help their friend buy something den
we walk back to marina square again pass the thing.
den from there we walk to bugis again.
and finally i got to sit :D
hehe. eat at the market there.
which i think tat stall is yanying mum`s one
den went to walk ard the whole bugis
LOL.
sae their friend den sae we all walk many times ler.
hahaha. went hawker eat desert.
saw leonard, haowei, kelvin, lewis n many.
den aft tat wish leonard happy birthday(:
went home take shoes for baoyu den went down and sit with them awhile.
LOL. chat on fone with him.
den i fell asleep while smsing him.
im sorry darling :x
i going out lerhs.
byes.