chinese o`lvl today ; okok bah(:
i almost fell asleep during paper 1 when i haven`t finish :X
luckily i control myself, den bomb i slp when i finish :DD
so nice to slp lah, cos it so freaking quiet -.- obviously when there is exam
but i just like tat nice ambience for sleeping :DDD
had a lil break den paper 2.
wah seh , i was so sober during paper2.
dunno why, didnt slp at all even though i finish in an hr.
paper 1 shui bao le [ paper 1 slp enough already]
haha. went see doctor aft exam.
walauu, remove the bandage liao [ 1month anniversary ytd [: ]
but there is still a lil cotton wool to cover the hole.
omg, i am suppose to wash it myself everyday!!!!!
i see the hole so disgusting still want me wash it .
walauu, take my life bah !!
anywae, might be going out to mit weng wai later.
stupid baoyu still sleeping.
wake up lahs!! pig!
i wun be bothered by how they look at me,
cos i already know;
one of a kind(((:

ytd`s post was not publish cos stupid blogger had errors >.<
well. i am here to post the pics we took ytd.
im not feeling well todae ):
yet i still went out cos i wanted to look for my new fone.
jiejie got the discount voucher mah, tmr expire.
she ask me go see todae tell her, so bobian.
stupid me, ytd go n ton watch vcd with my jiejie.
didnt reallie mean to ton but i watch a lil den addicted to tat show.
dam nice lahs, so might as well finish it,
rather then making myself go sleep with curiousity.
-.- slept at 8am, woke up at 1pm, slept again till 4pm.
lols, wake up den whole body so hard to move.
also feel dizzy n feel like vomiting)':
went to bustop, almost cried when i called baoyu.
i tink i scared her, sorry gal.
we went find rol jie jie n got my dress too(:
walk ard everywhere;
lols, leonard`s friend sms me :DD
got a scare but dunno why i feel happy also.
haha, felt like a new gush of blood flow through.
at tat time dun feel so sick ler-.- lols
now pictures time :

they diao~ me :DD


















we wana bash him more :X

















we really want to bash kelvin der :X
















pitiful jianhua :DD

















twist :8















some ppics i took when i went viVOcity:DD

we look so thin in tat mirror :X



















us again :DD




















tats all (: ugly one cannot show :X

went out at ard 3plus going 4pm to tnet meet ah qiang , kelvin, jian hua, jisheng n wei jun.
reach tnet there, roy at opp di siao siao keep shouting chio bu;
but i ignore him den he still use kelvin fone msg me :
chio bu, dun so dao leh -.-
so lame. i tell him i not chio bu so never reply. haha
actually going to parkway first then go orchard find baoyu finish work.
ended up she got to work till 9pm;
instead of 5pm >.<
so plan change, all feel tat orchard very bored.
so end up still go parkway first -.-'''
went pool, eat den ard 6plus 7pm go orchard.
on the wae to wisma, all of us took pics :DDD
all so funny, when jian hua send me den i upload bah(:
hlp jie take medicine from GNC.
went find baoyu, den still got abt 20mins.
we sit at dwnstairs mac there eat fries n rest.
we ate 3 large fries !!
baoyu came den went parklane eat.
den they play arcade; went hawker.
sat awhile; they are both wooing her.
wad a beaut, if im guy i also will.
aniwae, i seem to feel nothing.
why izzit? i also dunno.
perhaps i have got it clear le bah(:
all the best for him :D
tat shuai ge wan jio baoyu wor.
jiayou jiayou(((:
kelvin mum ask them send me home.
thankiew auntie :DD
home i am(:

hais, i am sianning at home again.
the four of us who went job- hunting together;
rebecca, me, baoyu n liangpieng.
now even liangpieng has got a call to work at action city todae.
im the onlie one left so free n no work.
issit really fate tat i should go back to bk?
hais; feeling more n more tired.
everydae also like doing the same thing slacking everywhere..
reach home early also nothing to do;
reach home late still kana scold.
i really need someone to hear me out.
i got lots to say, iam confuse;
ytd wanted tell hexer kor,
but when i was back, he offline ler ):
everyone is like so busy with work or their own stuff.
who will be bothered wit mie?
going to orchard find baoyu later.
den go bugis and get my dress.
my life is like so super boring lahs)))))))))))):

u iamatotalfailure.
ihatemyself.

went to bugis alone ytd;
actually going marina square find baoyu,
but she with class den u also lazy go.
so i went bugis first and wait for her.
during tat 2-3hrs when i was alone,
i kept thinking about you,
why you were so moody?
aniwae, i went bk find meihua first den went
to find rol JIE((((:
reallie hated tat feeling of being alone ))))):
i walk n walk n walk because i didnt want to stand alone at a corner.
in the end, i still stood alone at a corner of the alley.
afterwhich, baoyu came with her classmate jerome.
den he left aft awhile
me and baoyu went shop shop :DDD
she bought a top n i bought a dress;
actually i haven bought it lahs.
just put deposit den sat go back and take.
went arcade with rol n baoyu;
we play the grab sweets one den manage to grab alot of sweets.
so baoyu go and get a bag from the arcade-in-charge.
den he ask her u still wan anymore sweets?
she told him : if you want give me, i dun mind.
wah seh, den he give us a big big big bag of sweets lahs :DDDDDDD
den we so happy, $6 got so many sweets((((((((:
went mac eat fries and distributed the sweets among ourselves.
went hawker da pau [takeawae] for mummy;
went home((((:
and below is the quiz im tagged to do by sandy[:

INSTRUCTION!
-this is a quiz about you.
-do ler and make 5 victims to do the quiz.
-if someone tag you back, you may not need to do it.
-but if you wan to do, you may do.
HAPPY DOING!(=

you are...?
: Crystal Poh
when is your birthday?
: 1st February 1991
your horoscope?
: Aquarius :D
what do you like most?
: basketball and po0l :DDD
what do you hate most?
: cockroaches !!!
what is your primary school?
:Macpherson Primary School
do u like your primary school?
: yeah of course !!! :DDDDDD
what is your secondary school?
: its still MACphers0n SEc ((((:
do u like your secondary school?
: yupPS :D
your currently class is...?
: 3E
do u liek ur currently class?
: yes i do :X
have you ever like someone from your class?
: NO >.<
which teacher you like most?
: Ms Huang (((:
which teacher you dislike most?
: errr, i tink for time being dun have :X
which subject you like most?
: HISTORY :DDD
which subject you dislike most?
: MATHS !!
who is/are your good friend(s)?
: baoyu , meihua, and suki (((: [ sharon , peiling, adeline, jess ] (used to be)
you love...?
: dont tell you leh! bleahX :X
now, say anything about yourself that you might want tuhh add.you can write as much as you want!
: im simple but bad-tempered(: but im also friendly and nice :DDD

VICTIMS!*01- shermin JIE *02- ROL jie *03- baOyu *04- PEnny *05- Onn Yii

i wanted to upload some pics ;
but baoyu still haven send me.
cos she haven upload into her com.
lazy bum(:
sianned.
i got no event later on,
i should have join melissa they all.
now i so bored ))))):
maybe i find a better skin and change it :DDD
but i guess i wun.
went to the doctor again ;
slept in sch all the wae, so tired.
den got all the prize-giving stuff.
gerald called me last nite and we chatted till 3am.
tats the reason why im so tired todae(((((((((((:
its alright since i woke him up as well.
hahaha :DDD
dunno wad tat pig doing now.
i so bored lah.
who noes where got ip zone ;
except tampines, plaza singapura, suntec n bugis?
pls tag me at my board tell mie(:
thanks!

todae got back results ler;
duper happy lahs!!
i might have failed but i am promoted to sec4 express lahs!
yea; there might also be a chance tat 3d n 3e will be combined nx yr.
double happiness for mie(((:
went to plaza singapura again todae with kelvin and baoyu,
for the job interview. kelvin recommend one.
but unfortunately; i am underage ):
sian, nvm. still can find other jobs.
hahas. we had lots of fun :DDDD
and we also met many pple.
firstly, at ps i saw hexer kor.
den we went bugis walk walk.
went bugis street find rol JIE;
den saw boon keong n penny too(:
sweet couple :D
saw pui pui n his friends.
got a handsome guy; so cool.
den they take number from him.
lols, pui pui de friend lai der.
den saw baoyu friend; beibei [chio bu]
i saw shermin JIE too :DDDD
den gerald saes he also going down to bugis.
so waited for him den met.
went fusion pool; cabbed back to chup lao.
big lewis pay der, wakaka.
saw my ddaddy at hawker; take $$ go eat.
kelvin mum saes so late i go home alone dangerous;
all of them send mie home((((:
thanks everyone.
i love you guys :DDD

us. the playful kids(:














zilianing in the toilet :X


this are some pics we took ytd.
tats all(:
good bye.

ytd chat with xing halfwae den stupid msn spoilt,
cant reply him. lols, i am sorry.
btw i still haven got a j0b.
ocean [bk manager] saes tat he will apply long leave for me first,
when i really get a job liao den quit bah.
tats so kind of him.
maybe i really have to go back to bk if i cant find a new job.
todae baoyu n becca go n work at the jap restaurant.
becca saes it was not bad, baoyu still working now -.-
ask her later if we got meet. hahas.
todae go S&K want to buy the jacket one buden dun have the colour we want.
have to wait for the new batch bah, hopefully have.
my shoe aft mending so many times has given wae liao,
i cant mend it anymore.
going buy new shoes liao(:
yippee!
den pei baoyu go orchard den also find becca.
and we went home together,
but actually is she n bf walk me to the bustop.
hahas. so long never take bus alone liao.
a weird feeling i had on the bus,
den later on, fetch ah ger home.
if i noe u earlier; how would it be?

new link; new life; new memories(((((:
ytd went out with gerald;
we watch deathnote(:
at plaza singapure -.-''
so cold der, almost freeze to death lahs.
gerald is so warm-blooded -.-'''
his hands like so warm der,
walauu ehh.
den he laugh at mie.
and dun get it wrong.
we didnt patch or hold hands;
just tat i was very cold, so i grab his hands since i was trembling awae.
dots. den we went RC BK find alvin;
shiting also working there sia,
haha. and finally i see my shermin JIE.
the worse thing, all of them thought ....!!!
we never lahs, just good friends now(:
very good friends!
jie ask me if i think we got a chance;
but i dunno leh, like abit impossible lahs.
cos of so long never see lerhs, den also abit paiseh.
dun tink he will want a patch, and studies kinder important to mie now.
unless, he is serious and i tink we reallie can last,
but i tink i be dead-meat if my real da jie finds out.
suan ler bah. all she sae : its just puppy love now.
and she will go bla bla bla all the wae liao,
but all the bla bla bla makes sense.
but they just dun seem to get into my head :D
diao~
this few daes; thanks to gerald.
he been smsing with mie and cheering me up with his lameness n jokes.
shermin jie tat side also not bad bah; judging frm wad i noe.
glad with all these.
the little miracles of my life.
cos i never thought i would see gerald again(:


and for todae, went excursion so sian lahs!!
i was so tired i slept everytime i was on the bus!
its so boring, cos it dun interest me bah.
went job-hunting aft tat with pieng, baoyu, becca and samuel.
went bugis for the ice-cream stall but we underage-.-
den we ask restaurants and went till shaw house there also.
the jap restaurant saes too many of us den ask us go shaw house there der.
end up we chatted with the supervisor for ard 1hrs plus.
so friendly sia and so free; den end up onlie becca and baoyu going.
cos they going to hire 2 pple onlie, den they 2 can mahs.
sort of try try first, i shall wait for other jobs to call bah.
tmr they going to start lerhs. wahaha.
all the best!! ((:
came back went hawker eat dinner with baoyu.
saw richard, pui pui n baochai.
den they join us eat; went home.
mit jevonne to lend her vcd. [dolphin bay]
a show which makes me cry so badly everytime i watch,
so touching but its definitely a nice show.
enjoy it bah, jevonne! :D

went viV0 city ytd with baoyu, her mum and sis.
its big n the seaview scenery is nice,
i love it .
romantic !! haha -.-'''
speaking of which, stupid gerald thought i say shopping centre romantic -.-
lols, lamer lahh.
we chatted on the phone too aft i went home.
ytd; just reach viVO den ring ring;
sis called, obviously i got scolded)':
suan ler, i admit i am a naughty ger /;
den at the entrance, there is this green man;
dancing all the wae, on a little stage.
wow!! admire him sia.
not tired one, keep on moving and dancing all the wae.
will post his pics nx time.
when we leaving at nite, he still dancing -.-
reallie not tired one. wad a job!
den went parklane play pool,
pple treat of course play lah.
haha. thanks.
hawker eat den fetch ger home.
dots, i wave to peixing byebye den his beside dunno who wave back-.-
den daddy sae me siao siao; wave byebye to friend also siao siao.
wad is call normal?
just now went see doctor go mac eat cum back,
saw jianhua den sae hello den daddy also sae me siao siao!!
wt; tats so lame lah.
i cant even wave or sae hello to my friends freely infront of him.
its so unreasonable.
obviously study here one sure all live nearby;
den walk ard sure will meet one mah.
sae me siao siao.
and i seriously started hating BABYSITTING!!!
alwaes call n call, scold n scold.
irritating lah! i did my best liao right;
wad more do you all want?

i am back from the trip,
dunno why, feel so tired n boring.
it feels as though something pierce through my heart now.
since its broken, my love is dead.
loser aka mie.
my leg still in bandage, look so kuku.
just now fetch ger home halfwae,
the bandage loosen den drop out.
its super loose lor.
the doctor bluff my money.
i hate the loose loose feeling lahhh!!
tmr going back to see doctor instead of sun;
waste $$ onlie.
make the bandage so loose.
tinking whether i should give up?

like i sae, went out till late late den reach home;
and thanks. tat msg u send reallie cheer mie up alot.
its alwaes because of u tat i am so happie(((((((:
might be going to bugis later on.
with the same pple, just knew a gal.
jolene, chengsan sister.
she is a nice ger, very cute also.
lols.
got to go so0n..
takkaire everyone.
thanks for the tags(:

recently i seem to be skipping posts, like 2 daes blog once.
actually is because g0 out till very late den reach home very tired,tat why never blog(((:
doing the same old thing this few daes,
seem like sch alwaes off on wed n fri..
tmr no sch again.
this signs dat the naughty ger will go out till late again tonite.
LOL.
have been training on pool recently,
hopefully i can improve more? =D
fell in love with it,
also because of him(:
todae got macphers0n idol, so i am the idol!!
LOL. idol of hatred!
aizzat could really sing n perf0rm well,
so interesting, haha.
den i went home alone.
dun alwaes give me a hope,
and crush it the next moment.
do u noe how much it takes to accept tat cruel fact?

firstly, heXer kor : why u rite like lonely again?
mie: kor, dun worry about mie(((:
i am fine, yup might be alone but not totally.
u noe,just fall out with some usual hang-out friends.
but dun worry,i have accepted the truth tat they cant tolerate me anymore.
and i realise i got another group of better friends who has never leave me.
they were alwaes by my side,n i also got so many kors n jie to dote mie n care for me.
so i dun worry abt anything like being alone ler(((((((((((((:
do takkaire? and how u dar dar lerh?

ytd had a quarrel with jie so never use com to update.
l0ls. for some little matters, i cried.
iamsuchauselessger):
becos i alwaes have the feeling tat they dun care abt mie but just keep blaming mie for
things like my niece crying n stuff.
i alwaes tink tat i am being hated by my parents.
cos its like,they alwaes like to scold mie for those little things.
n i noe i am at fault too but i dun tink i will be liddat if it wasnt the wae
i am being expose to my troubles.
i also dunno how to explain also but i just dun like the wae im being treated nowadaes.
izzit because of the haze tat i am so short-tempered nowadaes?
perhaps i shouldnt blame the haze, toking abt it.
reminds me of the ger he wan her number.
i noe i got no rights to care, so i am tryin so hard to avoid.
but why did they have to do it infront of mie?
dun he noe i feel so hurtful?
wth was i tinking? i am suppose to forget him.
i shouldnt like him anymore.
finally, gerald gave mie the advise i wanted to hear (((:
thanks, he is also once my darling.
to start with, its also because of him i came back to blogging.
if u realise, during the early few months,all my posts are about him.
until then,blogging has becum a part of my life.
i tink i would rather tell my blog everything den telling my sis or whoever.
at least my blog would quietly listen to mie n my complains(((:
thanks bloggie, i love u !

btw, we went to the singapore discovery centre today.
kinder bored perhaps because i have no interest at all.
sorrie kayya, i tink u mus be very bored sitting on the bus with mie.
i reallie was tired n fell asleep.
i am sorry.
aniwae,thanks for accompanying me all the way((((((((:
i love u !

alrite, i am back here f0r a quiz from sandy.
l0ls, obviously i have been sleeping the whole day since i ton last nite.
woke up at 6plus, not bad lah. haha xD
here the quiz :
1) single,taken or crushing?
- single with someone i love
2) are you happy with your life now?
- still acceptable(:
3) when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?
- not really, unless u reallie got the feeling .
4) have you ever had your heart broken?
- yea, when he left me, its as though the end of the world)':
5) do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
-depend on wad situation bah, but mostly not acceptable.
6) would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
-no, i wont bear to.
7) have you ever talk about marriaged with another before?
-yup xD
8) do you want children?
-yes yes .
9) how many?
- how much i can tahan. l0ls!
10) would you consider adoption?
if i really dun dare to give birth or cant give birth.
11) if someones likes you right now what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
-tell me directly through fone or mit-up
12) do you enjoy getting into relationship?
-yes, i would love to be with the one i love.
13) be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?
-kissing lah!!
14) do you believe love at first sight?
-it depends lahx. lol
15) are you romantic?
- ask my ex-bf
16) do you believe you can change someone?
-perhaps,u will be willing to change onlie if u reallie love tat someone.
17) if you could be married somewhere,where would it be?
- at a lighted place with stars, porbably at the beach at nite? lol
18) do you easily give in where you are fighting?
-no, its been this way since i was young.
19) do you have feelings for someone now?
YES!!!
20) have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
yes, i should have been more patient)):
21) have you broken a heart?
-YES!! wth i did.
22) if one day your best friend fall in love with the girl/boy you deeply in love with,what would you do?
-i believe in fair competition, fight for the one u love.
23) are you missing someone now?
-yes, WHW i miss u!!
now you have to ask 5 of your friendsto do this survey in their blogs,write down their name in the list below,tagged them in their blog to let them noe.
i tag baoyu, lirong,kayya,jasmine n pearson(:

wow, i am just back home frm ECP(((((((((((:
ton there with the guys n baoyu xD
its kinder fun going night cycling with them though i didnt cycle much
cos of my injured leg.
hw zai me den he sae i not stable one keep trembling.
haha,cos i was standing behind him leh !!
feel guilty cos like go liao cos them so much trouble.
den we go bedok jetty there sit sit ,
its so cold there.
den baoyu wan go toilet, wanted pei her go but kelvin sae wad got """
den we all dun dare go liao -.-'''
aft tat went to mac there slack n eat .
some of them went upstairs n play billard.
so me n baoyu with xiaobf sit at mac.
haha.i slept abt 1 or 2hr .
den we all cum back liao.
wow,its the first time crystal cycle on such a big road leh!!haha *clap hands for me*
i so brave rite -.- lol
just kidding, now must wait till ard 8plus den go see doctor.
i tink i will faint, sure got alot of blood..
eeee. anywae,fun time(((((:
looking forward to the november one, den i can cycle fast fast liao =p
now i gonna bath liao.
takkaire everyone cos the weather is not very good,
the haze has been increasing .

i tink nowadaes, everyone is not feeling happy or in a rather good mood.
everyone like eat some bomb or wad liddat,
wadever it is.
FRIENDS ARE ALWAYS FRIENDS.
they might not be able to accept me or maybe my attitude.
i have been through almost everything with them.
i noe i will still help if i can if 1dae i see any of them in trouble.
[not tryin to curse but stating eg, not trying to act noble as well]
for those pple who will tink so much abt wad i blog n make silly assumptions.
i noe wad pple have been saying abt me.
as long as i believe in myself tat i didnt,
and also real true friends who really give me their trust.
i still have their support.
its`their support which hlp mi tide through everything which might be impossible to.
they are the ones who always tolerated my nonsense n stuff,
the only ones who wil always be there for me.
for those who left , its because i am not worth it,
n they cant tolerate it anymore.
i accept it n respect their decisions.
they are still my friends, i will still be there when they need me.
i might behave as thought nothin has happen,
but deep down in my heart, who noes it better den me how i feel?
i just dun like the way pple try to control me,
how they like to tell me wad to do for certain things,
it makes me feel even more rebellion.
i tink nobody really understand me.
i am someone who is dumb n slow,things might be happening,
yet i noe only aft it affects me.
i always show my thoughts hoping someone would enlighten me.
yet,all i got is hatred n misunderstanding, i am so tired of it.
pple who claim tat they believe me,
please ask urself again ,
do u reallie believe me?
with no nonsensical answers .

yeah i am back here to blog again.
but i am back with sad news.
everyone got back their results ytd.
indeed a BAD friday.

for me, i pass my english, chinese, combined humanities.
the rest? dnt sure fail n maths also.
combined sciences also fail, but hopefully if add the rest can pass?
we will onlie noe on wed bah.
hais, i am either going to retain or drop to NA.

but still, went out with baoyu n jie ytd.
we went bedok for pizza hut [ student meal ] =P
my one was super duper long den cum lor,
den i waited like hell ))))))):
den also not nice to eat one.
they didnt cook it properly.
so was jie n baoyu`s one.
den when we gonna pay,
i sae byebye to the auntie den end up
all sae bye bye to us also.
den i sae bye bye again.
when we walk till the door going out,
hear a guy sae : pls cum back again!!!
LOL LOL LOL
we laugh our wae out man.
baoyu sae she saw all the guy pointing at one
when she turn back to see.
lols. jie n baoyu sae not nice nx time dun wan go liao.
haha, den we went pooling ((((((((((((((((((((:
at the eight valley.
play for like 2 hrs, notice a fat fat guy biioing (lookin) jie. [ we thought ]
den got 1 skinny guy cum up n sae :
anyone call crystal here?
den we shocked tio, i sae yah me.
he sae okay den go liao.
dots lah, how he noe my name one.
aft tat i found out is tat jimmy ask his friend go see one.
den we go liao, aft tat go bk there sit awhile.
in the end sae wan go back play 1 more hr so we went back.
so lame lahx.
den we all go back,the uncle sae:
part II ah, lols.
aft tat when we leaving again,
the uncle sae the fatty wan number [we thought wan jie num]
den we give riddles. we left out 1 number ask them guess.
me n jie also.hahas.
den we walk walk eat mac, wan go tat time.
baoyu fone ring,answer is the fat fat guy call.
LOL. we laugh n laugh den i take the fone sae:
u wan to find one is the green jacket[jie] or black jacket one[baoyu] one?
den he ask who i am issit the white t-shirt one.
dots. i wearing pink lahx.
aft tat found out we made a mistake, all along he wan find de is baoyu!!
LOL lahx
we also thought he really one by one number call find tio by one.
end up is they check the member record one.
got the particulars, walauu ehh.
den we sae go back play again den confirm everything.
so good we all go back den the guy treat us play.haha
den saw a pair of twins brother, they so familar lahx.
but cant recall anithing.
so sad, tat place closing lerh))))):

den we all go home lerh((((((((((:
my leg is still painful.
going back to the doctor tmr.
hopefully nth happens.
i miss him too.

i also wun be affected by it.
it just show how mean u are.
i am true to myself.
i believe in myself.
i wun give up.
hypocrite u are.
lalala~iamgladtoday(:
ilovexiaobf xD

hii everyone(:
yesterday aft exam went to see doctor abt my leg.
wah, the wound kinder deep n its digusting.
so pain lah, felt like shouting when the doctor press dwn
onto my wound to cleanse it.
luckily i didnt go at nite,otherwise the doctor gonna
stitch on my leg.
but however, if dun stitch,will take a longer time to heal,
it also depend on how i take care n cannot touch water.
if not got infection)':
wth~cant even enjoy my aft exam holidaes.
with an injured leg,walking seems so difficult.
i still got an injection to prevent dunno wad thing.
i also have a hard time bathing!!!
with only one leg!
crazy .
went to suntec to watch the 'stay alive'
liangpieng n step was super funny lah.
just the intro nia then they started shouting like wad !!
hahahaha =D
den go back tnet play a game of pool.
stupid haowei n yide still ask me go play bball.
cos i cant.
saw ah chuan, lol he like slim dwn alot but
didnt really took a close view.
just sit at hawker there den he n gf pass by.
went home myself .
so scary,somemore with tat useless leg.
reach home.
so nth to blog le..
bye ...

yeah!
exams are over, finally(((((:
its a kind of relief for me bah.
have been waiting for this day,
but my death is coming soon when
i get back the results slip):
i was so excited tat i couldnt slp last nite.
also my leg was pain.
i just thought of sth too.

here it goes in the middle of the nite,
left leg: ouch! its seems to be getting worse,
its painful )':
right leg: dun worry, you will be fine.
cos i alwaes be here for u.
left leg: really?
right leg: yea, rmb all the times we went through together?
we cannot be without each other.
our heart will always beat as one.
left leg: [ in tears] u are right. thankfully u are here for me.
owner of legs: shhhhhhhhhhhhh~i need my slp!

i noe its bo liao [boring]
but i am simply so sian.
while walking home in limps,
i thought of it.
how good would it be if i had a partner like this?
lalala~

had a fall.
the cut is kinder deep, wad a scare i had.
i kept on crying non-stop.
den jianhua,kelvin they all run to take tissue.
aniwae.
just want to sae
THANK YOU JIANHUA!
THANK YOU BAOYU!
THANK YOU AH QIANG!
THANK YOU KELVIN!
THANK YOU MDM!
THANK YOU JINBAO!
THANK YOU YI DE!
N THANK YOU WEI QIANG((((((((((:

i love my new life(:

i can see very clearly how u turn the love into hatred,
just wanted to view tat blog for the last time.
but it has been deleted.
everything has ended.
the ship goes on without the captain aimlessly.
wad is forever?
even in friendship,there is no forever.

todae bio was alrite..
but dnt i am sure i did badly;
smore folio also did badly.
add together is worse.
i am giving up on dNt, no matter hw u study,
the questions cum out den cant rmb already.

wadisATTITUDE?
it can be good n can be bad;
depends on how u develop it.
itinkmineSUCKS):
tats why it cause me friends;time;manyTHINGS
yet,it also made me realise how good or bad my friends are.
wad should i sae?
someAREgood; someAREokay.
sometimes i just dunno how pple tink.
why can they be so nice to u now n turn back the nx time?
i really wonder how they change so fast.
but i am sure it got to do wit attitude.
ever since aft py, i am so disappointed in myself.
everything i do failed,even when it comes to friendship.
not tat nobody is willing to be my friend,
its just my attitude which drives them off.
ahchuan was right, if i continue,
i will just lose all my friends.
for me,i have a vengeance in my heart.
i feel tat he started off with this attitude of mine.
later spread to py n now i dunno whether it was continued by her.
she give me the thought tat she was influenced by him.
but the truth is it takes 2 hands to clap.
if i never started it, they wouldnt said it.
so they are right.
she said i am becuming more like her.
but i feel tat she is becuming like him too.
so why are u with her now since u dun like tat attitude?
is mine worse?
changed to a point i cant recognise anymore.
no longer the one i first knew.
i cause it, i initiated it.
i am getting tired of myself too.

hello((:
i am back again to tell everyone i love them!!
LOL!
especially my beloved jiejie,
not forgetting carol jiejie!!
hahaha.
she told me to blog abt her.
so far, u are a nice confident to me too.
haha
i love to confide in u okays;
n the secrets we share.
just between u n me (x

just had a chat with my da jie [ real blood sister ]
she found out everything abt me liking him.
she gave me alot of advises, to stop tinkin of him;
i promise her to study hard n really will.
cos i going to move over to her hse stay everyweekend frm
nx year on(:
alright,afterall its not a bad thing.
we can get closer den xD
gtg study again.
bye bye..

i am here to tok abt the conflict ytd.
firstly,thanks for updating my tagboard.
to those who dun like me, i noe i am not perfect n failed
to be a nice friend tats why all left.
i can accept tat.
those who have hlped me thanks too.
thanks for all those who gave in to me to all my nonsense.
perhaps i should sae its not worth it,
frm young i have been such a detestable person just like
my mum saes "nobody will like u"

to sharon n baoyu :
both of you lead into the fight or quarrel because of me,
from wad i see,its a misunderstanding.
like baoyu is saying everything started becos of yz.
while sharon is saying how they been tolerating my attitude
and cant stand it anymore.
let me explain; both of u have ur points.
i admit tat i am imperfect; i dun have any good qualities.
i am unreasonable,overbearing n stuff.
so wad i am trying to say is,
sharon they all been tolerating with me for abt a yr,
so its just a matter of time when they cant stand it.
since they have mention it to me before n sae i didnt change.
they have the right to leave.
so perhaps yz`matter is just the spark of the fire.
all i wish now is, both of u dun quarrel anymore.
i appreciate all the hlps u offered.baoyu((:
lets put an end to this.

to peiling:
i just wan to sae,i dunno u enough.
u said i leave u guys with my friend which u all dunno at all
n walk away; [ sharon sae u are referring to the jisheng thing.]
then sae u all pangsen me.
tat was a long time ago thing,so i dun really rmb saying tat.
but i guess u guys should be right.
i apologise abt tat,which might have no use at all.
just wan to sae tat, i left becos i was such a spoilt brat.
but i also wun forget those times when u used to cheer me up,
when i quarrel with py, the long msn chat we first had.
n the blog u created.sorry tat i failed to turn ur life back upright.

to adeline:
i dunno in wad wae i did anything which have offended you since we
had the least contact aft school hours.
perhaps it still abt the yz thing.
it sure did cos alot of unrest; but IF i noe,i realli wun have tell him.
i got the thinking tat u feel tat i dun wan tell u guys wad i am unhappy abt
and instead telling others n cause the quarrel.izzit?
okay,i hope with our past friendship,u belive me tat i didnt.
i will sae out all my unhappiness abt u all here.

to sharon :
not much things to say,just tat sometimes i feel tat u are too negative.
eg:u wan to keep the thinking tat alvin has found a new ger at his workplace aft hearing wad jecus saes instead of believing tat he is really busy at work.because u alwaes tink so negatively,u will only make urself feel miserable. you should noe this more den i do.
you were always there when i needed,tat when i feel so touched.
thanks.

to adeline :
wad i feel abt u is, sometimes during sports, u are too proud of urself.
maybe sometimes you should let go of the thinking "i must win"
tats how i feel,but i might be wrong.
it depends on how u reflect.
i noe i am inferior to all of u, in terms of studies or games.
but i tink wad i have in myself is courage to speak up
but only for certain things.
n u noe i alwaes wait for things to happen rather den taking the
initiative.
for me:i tink tat u are a great confident,a great friend so far.a pity tat
i dunno how to treasure pple.
i could see the disppointment n unhappiness in me..
but u dun have to anymore..

to jess: u are just like a small radio with a blast speaker to me, (x
but i noe the blast speaker will only lower down its volume
when the audience gives their attention.
nanny alwaes care best for their babies.
thanks. yet,sorry for the letdown.

to peiling:
nothing much,just feel tat u always keep things to yourself
by showing the smiley face n telling jokes.
u rarely seem to tok abt ur problems.
its not wrong,just afaid tat u cant take it one dae like wad
adeline saes.
actually,u have wad it takes.
it all depends on u whether to use it or waste it.

0oo00o0o0o0ooo000o00o000o00o0oo0ooo0o00o00o0o0o0o0o

i am sure i will fail my maths2 todae,so many questions i dunno.
the formulaes tat i rmb wasnt of any hlp at all.
wad a waste of studying them !!
jie saes i shall move over to her house to stay if i dun do well .
wth~i die man.
no com,no going-out.
izzit all my retribution for being so naughty?
i dun wan!!
hais, everything so dun go well one)':
btw,mdm ask if i wan to go sing again for the elderly at tnet..
if i wan,i go one mth to practice.
should i?
my singing sucks!!
i dun wan to disgrace myself, but i got interest in it.
why does life just seem so hard for me to carry on?
i dun wan to worry jie yet i angered her,
why do i always do things tat makes pple angry?
boon saes i mus not give up no matter wad !!
he`s right. i wun give up.
jiay0u!!

went to bugis den suntec to shop shop..
went back bugis again..
bought a skirt n a belt..
actually wan to buy the jacket also but dun have the colour.
btw,i was with baoyu.
lols.
met jevonne den we ate pasta;
jevonne so thirsty,haha, she bought a big cup of drink.
den kelvin they all came.
all separated. left me n by.
den we shop the whole of bugis.saw gina n sharon too.
basically,got no mood to blog.
cos of sth which i dunno, spoils my mood.
izzit my fault when i ask u not to do anithing?
just because u failed.
u scold me? is tat being fair?
i walk away to avoid a conflict.
yet, u wan to be a hero.
making things worse.
tats ur own problem.
pls FARK off.
dun drag me into anithing.
no such thing as BECAUSE OF U!
dun act noble when u are not.
i dun even noe anithing.
and u put the blame on me.
i am not crystal anymore.
i am just a useless ger who loves him.
yup,i am always useless)':
no one cares n no one bothers.
all they do is `lol, 0.o, ooh`
wad else can they sae?
nth cos i would do the same.

SUPERsianninla )':
NOBODYISGONNAdoanithingtoentertainme ]:
WHYISITifeelsob0ringtodae?
IWANNAGOFINDyousoon(:
STUPIDBAOyu :/
STILLslping.
PIG~

found adam khoo workshop trainer de pic.





danny





ah minah LOL









kinder miss the adam khoo workshop aft so long.
danny n ahmin were such jokers.
they look so smart in the above pic rite?
haha.
can see how bored i am to go their website,
take the pic. n post it here(:
too bad dun have the music man chuen lay one.
IMISSTHEtrainers!!

wad a bore day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am dying of boredom.
can anione hlp me?
hais. i miss u;
stupid snail.

idle at home till now since i reach home at 10plus..
sians. todae english was okay(:
i tink wun do badly bah,hopefully.
i miss him !
he`s not mine.
wanted to take a nap.
but memories of us together tat time keep
running through my mind.
really irritates me since i didnt suceed getting him back lah!
makes me feel so motivated to carry on, yet the moment i
wan to sms him.i lose my courage.
i didnt noe wad to send,how to start my w0rds.
pple sae i am brave to fight for my love;
i tink not anymore now, i cant even tink of a wae to propose.
i hate myself. i dun wan to make him feel fan.
yet, he sae i tink too much.okays.
i will try to tink of a wae.
where is the old me?

i guess i really gonna do badly for my EOYS.
as expected, i did badly for my physics n maths.
i cant blame anyone c0s its my fault for not studying well.
i am such a letd0wn.
i pr0mise to do well. get gd grades.
yet,i failed to.
i noe i shouldnt give up c0s there is still paper 2 n bio,
but who can give me the supp0rt to carry on?
seems like i am as dead as my bl0g,
nobody ever tag me again.
like owner like blog??
alright,maybe i should support myself.
i must still carry on life even if i dun do well in my studies.
but how can i go on without friends?
did i leave them?
perhaps.i just too used to being alone nowadaes.
sianed.i am such a oddie.
i miss him!!!

manage to do some revision for physics.
but wad have i learn?
went hawker for tat lil`dinner.
scare by wad happen..
i was really worried.
i knew i shld do sth abt it.
but i am confused.
i didnt wan to just sit n do nth.
but i took no actions.
darling did u noe,
i was so worried when i heard frm him.
i didnt wan anithing to happen to u.
i dun wan to lose u again.
can u return to my side?
let me be the one to take care of u..
i swear tat its for real.
this is the first time i ever felt so lost,
yet sure,YES i wan u.
i will do anything just to be wid u again.

i seriously got no mood to study,
i am so restless.
its time to let go?
i always believe in this saying:
if its y0urs, it will be back,
if its n0t meant to be,
no matter how hard u chase,
u cant get it back.
yet, i still believe in fighting for ur love.
though i am half-wae through this lil`battle.
i still wun give up.
i noe darling will be back?
i tink i am toking nonsensically.
h0pe i never spell it wrongly.
well, all the best f0r my EOYS!
dun wan to disapp0int jie jie.
i g0t to study no matter how,
i cant give up.
yet, the future seems so far away.

the letter,
looking out of the wind0w,
i could see him walking from afar.
i felt like an ice-cream melting under the sun.
i knew he was the one.
the one n only i love.
i would be by his side unless he dun wan me to;
i would be his guardian angel,
guiding him through the darkness,
thowing away all his fears.
all i need is you.
will u be back?

finally change clothes for my blog ler.
hmm, to see the profile, will have to pull over to
the right side by highlighting the page :D

u never noe how u melted me,
u never noe how hurt i feel,
whenever u sae dunno.
all i wan is ,
to be with u.
will u be back to me ?
i will be waiting.
i love wong haowei.

as for my social studies n english ytd,
i tink i did badly as well as my history n chinese todae.
i let ms huang down, cos i feel tat i didnt do mybest.
inFact, i let my sister down since i promise her i will do well.
i am just n0t in the mo0d, to do anithing properly.
i tink i am going to flunk for my other subjects as well.
being without u is so so so uneasy,
back to seeing u again later :D

i am back to blogging again.
anyway,this post is for sat.
cos i just reached home .
went tnet to practice maths but didnt do much cos
not enough time. den at nite we all went to chinese garden to see lanterns.
all the lightings there were very nice.
took some piics.
one was with him.
we look so funny lah.
but will upload the pics i took with baoyu tmr.
haha. cos all in her hp.
stupid,he keep suaning me.
had a fun time..
we went hawker to eat our super
den me ps, n jinbao walk home together.
we shared our experience abt the tikopeks at our area.
lols. i am back safe!