it really a real funn funn dae t0daee . hahas.. thanks peii yiinngx andd peii liinnggx ferr t0daee . reallii relax al0t . hahas . =p
abit dangerous to g0 cycliinggx with them . they langa then bang int0 each other then spoilt pple bike . l0lls . we were tryin to fix but didnt hlp .then no time liao so we all g0 backk but luckilyy tat guy rent bike one nv scld us..or sae muz compensate..=))
btw g0t another guy also at there in charge de..quite handsome lahh but more of cool..l0ls.. but then he verii fierce like veri bo s0ngg . =( so so fierce n da0 . scaryy sia . then he also keep staring at me like i owe him money.. i feel so uneasy .

feel so xinngg fuu man . like an angel blessingg me . if onlii everydae were liddat . feeling the breeze , enjoyin the scenary .relaxingg. realli verii nice . wad a pity . i couldnt go oftenn .
btw als0 saw tian he n his stead ,alvin and dennyy . at first while cycling , i did saw someone wh0 looks like him but never see again . so think i saw wrong, in the end at mac saw again .then i msg to alvin sae ..u n0w with tian he at east coast mac ah>? but he nebber reply..then saw a guy with l0ts of different colour hair then he walk past tap my head..then i turn then n0e is denny .l0lls . then he ask me g0t see tian he an0t? then i confirm is them .=))
after tat tian he wave to me but his stead like not happy . then he walk over tok to pei ling then like so funny , he ask wad schh .then she sae tat same as me . then she sae in the first place i dunno y0u rite. l0lls. hai me keep laughin . he still gib me his new num . hahas .
wad the .. just receive a call dunno ask me go be wad model .. l0lls.. sae is my frenz give the photo one .. win liao.. dunn0 is who sia.. also dun tell me.. so lame..of course im n0t going.. so ugly. g0 le onlii pple will laugh . l0lls. i cant imagine if i go..


s0me pics taken..




its the three ob us.. =))














enj0yin then kana snapsh0t..l0lls..
















guess wad? pei ying's legs are buried just bel0w..
this is evil m0nster..wahaha

arghh.. gettiinnggx sh0 tiredd of workinnggx cum studyiinggx, while i mayy n0tt studyy duriinggx the weekends but i gues i needed so time t0 relax andd i beliieve s0mee obb this daes i will definitelyy studyy..
i may g0t inside t0pp 10 but in this class do y0uu tiinnkk im h0noured n happyy unless i get really highh sc0res.s0metimes i reallii keep teliing myself,if they dunn care abouut y0u..books will nebber leave u..

sh0 basicallyy,there is n0thinngg indispensable to anyythingg or human to human...
i miss y0u l0ts darlingg..w0nderringg wad habb y0uu d0nee tuddae, i feel so curious..yet i cant evnn tok to u n let alone to meet y0u..wadever it ishh..i want to sae after so long im still waiting ferr y0u..c0s i sort of believe tat y-u will here back ..i lovee y0uu..

i tinnk tat there is realli nth ferr me to sae or do anythng rite...tats all ferr todae..i going to slp alrd..good nite..

iin schh was likee b0redd da0~ . l0lls. n0thiingg to do. g0 dere to baii meii agaiinn. =)) but i want to saee . i guess now it finee n backk to normal btw me n her . [ my best fwenn.. ] h0pefully .
darliinggx me also h0pee tat y0u arent h0okk to maplee. andd reallii enj0yy tat meaninnggful worksh0p . i l0vee y0u , if we were in the same schh . i mighht pr0bablyy sae i lovee y0uu to dahh schh..hahas.. but den i kn0w tats impossiblee.. =))

reallii happyy todaee..manyy happy thiinggs happened to me..i guess i might not be able to slp well tonite...l0lls...hmm.. btw im lazy to continuee..als0 hope tat arsehole wouldd stopp taggingg..cos i feel tat every tag of hers spoilts my blog..=))


[ siimplyy her . ] cRysTaL was here .

tudaee ohso dunn0e shudd be happii or sadd. firstlyy, i finallyy g0tta muii new f0nee but thenn ii also triedd to tok to her.. it seems she ishh quitee agitatedd, i just wantedd to askk her wad she wants n0w.

perhaps its the misunderstanddinnggx tat we b0thh hadd tinkkinggx the other d0es n0t wants them anim0ree. but seriouslyy i reallii needd a gudd fwenn like her t0 confidee in manyy pers0nnal thiinggx. i g0t the trust in her n she has the trust ferr mii.b0thh ob us trust eachh other, our relationshiipp weren't puree fwennshiip but just likee true sisters thoughh we mayy habb c0nflicts s0metimes but these are thinggx tat aree unavoidablee.s0onn we be finee agaiinn eachh tiimee.s0metimes,im realli tinnkkinggx wadd i reallii want her t0 do . how ii cann get back this fwenn andd sistershiip.? anyyonee g0t anii iddea? its n0t tat ii dunn trust muii new gangg but it seems tat deyy dunn realli habb the trust in me or rather i tinnkk tat theyy realli needd m0ree tiimee, ii will wait till the daee i truelyy gets acceptedd .andd als0 perhapps, peii yiinnggx understandds me m0ree. but 2 years ob sisterh0odd ishh g0nee just likee the windd past by . it seems t0 be so weakk. but im the cause of every siinngglee littlle thhinnggx whhichh hadd happenn . i wunn blamee anionee but just myself . its my ownn attiituddee whhichh causee mii a truee fwenn , a true sister wh0 hadd g0nee thr0ughh manyy thhiinggx wiidd mii..ii regret but ii realli tiinnkk tat ii habb nebberr sh0wnn herr anyy m0ree attitudde tat ishh w0rsee andd ii reallii didd triiedd myy best . its invisiblee to her . c0s she saee 'ii didnt evnn triiedd' . i cann tell y0u, tats the m0st hurtiinnggx w0rdds y0uu everr saidd.. whnn i triiedd t0 be nicee.. y0u were the onee who spoilt my mo0dd by sh0wiinnggx me the attiitudde.

y0uu wantedd me to channgee ferr y0uu..
i couldnt buddenn wadd i cann saee ishh tat ii nebber sh0w th0see attitudde t0 my best fwenn .i guess y0uu nebber believe me .


s0metimes i realli w0nder.whyy ishh this so unfair? he g0t l0ts ob chances ferr his wr0nggs. while i. habb g0t onlii tat siimplee one precii0uus chnncee, but in the endd it hadd beenn thr0wnn awaee by my ownn sillyy misunderstanddiinggx.
just h0pee tat we cann be the fwenns we usedd t0 be s0 cl0see agaiinn.
im s0rryy.


_________ . enddingg widd tat, h0pee y0uu mayy f0rgivee me .


n0ww, i wanna tokk ab0uutt y0u..
dahh onee i hadd l0vee deeplyy .
sillyy y0uu..heardd tat y0ur schh this few daes als0 habb adam kho0 w0rkksh0pp. andd tuddaee was the first daee yet y0u onlii stayy awhilee andd y0uu left .d0 y0uu kn0w h0w wastedd it was? this ishh suchh a nicee pr0grammee. ever first enrichhment pr0gramme many ob us likee s0 muchh,yet now its y0uur chnncee, y0uu gavee upp. feel s0 sadd abouut it..reallii tinnkk its wastedd..

but siincee its just the first daee..y0u still habb the chance to amend to it if y0uu attendd the rest ob the full 2 daes .its reallii meaninnggxful.may the heavenn bless tat alex ishh ablee t0 persuadee y0uu in g0inggx . h0ppee tat afterr tat pr0gramme. y0uu w0uuldd chnngee y0uurr view ob ur mumm. tat y0uu wouldnt wan her t0 diie. insteadd feel s0rry ferr tiinnkkinggx tat waee n saee s0rryy to y0ur mum . tellinggx her tat y0u l0vee her t0o . i be realli gladd if evnn onlii y0uu hadd attendded the pr0grammee. i believee tat y0uu aren't the c0ldd bloodedd type .at least y0uu wouldd changee the waee y0uu hadd tiinnkkx.



missiinnggx y0uu.. but where aree y0uu?
leaviinggz widd an l0ckked miinndd widd just y0uu..


[ siimplyy her . ] cRysTaL was hEre .

t0daee g0t schh als0 slackk ardd againn except f0r the englishh n physics less0nn..th0ught i g0nna slppx in class againn but didnt..n0t enoughh slppx buden t0dae so energertiic siia..=D
perhapps c0s g0t mannyy thiinggs t0 d0 bahhx..l0lls.. me , shar0nn n aliciia went t0 j0inn taekw0ndo..the schh one fr0m k0rea.. =DD [ actually ishh i g0t put dwnn shar0nn namee de ]
wa.. teacher sae it be every wed n fri . nx time verii busy ahh. 5pm - 7pm . after angklung then habb to g0 taekw0ndo.. l0lls.. madd.. so chunn da0~ samee as everyy anggklunggx prac .

siianns . duringgx pe s0rt of habb s0 pr0blems then 's0meone' criedd.. feel abit like.. aiya .
whyy all classmate insteadd of happilyy t0gether thenn here g0t pr0blem there g0t pr0blem de?? haiz . realli a little disapp0intinggx t0 see thiinggx turnninggx 0ut this waee . =((

after schh went out with shar0nn andd the t0ot aliciia..hahas, dunn blamee me ferr tat c0s euu are reallii t0ot..hahas.. t0ngg-bu.. l0lls.. =X hmm, peii liinggx sae we g0 out suchh n0t funn onee but thenn t0 me it was dam funn n funnyyx.. c0s we were crappyyx . =)) we t0kk al0t..likee tenn years nebber see de friendds, thenn at the l0nggx j0hnn there sitt s-0 l0nggx.. hahas.. pple staringgx at us c0s of we t0kk so l0udd . l0lls.. realli funn . [ i t0ldd aliciia. i cal sh0rt j0hnn . ] i kn0w i was beinggx lamee . hahas . thnn we g0 h0mee insidee the bus the j0urneyy als0 quitee funn . c0s s0meonee t0ldd ask a funny lamee j0kee.. thnn me n shar0nn laughh till likee madd while the blur t0ot verii beii aii c0s in the centree thnn b0th sidee verii madd.. l0lls..

darlinggx . or i shouldd st0pp callingg euu tat c0s euu arent minee animore but euu be my darlingg in my heart alwaes till it st0ps pumpingg . i was remindedd 0f euu . startedd muii st0ries ab0ut euu againn.. o my .. they are g0nna be b0redd s0onn . h0w i wishh i hadd m0ree memoriies 0f euu . but n0thingg cann be d0nee . wadd cann i d0 to get euu backk ? wadd can i d0 to st0pp my fantasies ab0ut euu ? did euu kn0w everytime ii recalled our happy times t0gether , everythiingg seems just like yesterdaee ... i miss euu my babee darlingg..

[ siimplyy her . ] *wilL euU bE bacKk..?

20-5-06

been w0rkking ferr the wh0le dae n s0 tiredd..als0 nth muchh t0 write except about w0rk de thingy..=))
hahas...t0dae like so sleepy n tiredd but still g0t to w0rk just whenn my alarm rangg me up from my beautiful dream..i didnt realli feel like waking up de..
l0lls..t0dae g0t one cust0mer cum in then my manager take, he cum here burgerking then order, can i have a kentucky fried chicken meal? then my manager was a chinaman..he was like huh?? wads tat? after tat mei hua was beside him..then she hear already also laugh lor..then my manager tell the the cust0mer tat we dun sell fried chicken here..then the customer laugh at his own mistake..heard fr0m my manager tat during the whole c0nversation, the cust0mer was laughing awae, then he ask me to save him cos he cant tahan le..

later on g0t a lady she cum in order liao...my manager give her the card..when euu scratch g0t the num then euu sms in can stand a chance t0 win dunno wad thing..
then she ask my manager wad tat was..he t0ld her liao..then she sae, huh? onlii stand a chance ahh?..n0t definitely ahh..hahaha..wad a lamer she was..then after tat she keep toking non stop...[ over at my side ] 1st cust0mer..order finish..pay me $50..me n0t enough ten d0llar n0tes..go over to managerr c0unter change with him..sec customer..same thing happen..untill i serve the 3rd customer..also $50..i so fed up..then i saw tat auntie was still there l0r..asking my manager h0w much he eran..which i suppose was a secret but then ltr on he nv sae..she call him liitle boi..in chinese..sae..i also wan to w0rk here..but obviously she was j0king..so noisy sia..[ cum back to me ] i change till my boss de counter also no more ten dollar..then i ask him then he sae dun pr0voke him..he fed up liao..cos of at auntie..hahhaa..then i laugh at him..then i g0 change with mei hua..funny sia..she also n0t enough..then manager had to change for us..n0wadaes pple so rich..buy a simple meal also use $50...
wa...g0t 1 customer hoh..i f0rgot to collect from her money then she also f0rgot..happily take the meal n go sit dwn eat le..in the end..i wan take another customer then i notice the previous haven pay then cant take next order untill cash out..walau..then i went till the lady there..i sae..er..euu haven paid for ue meal..then a guy infront of her was like..huhh? euu haven paid??-.- i guess is her bf bahh..i so sorry t0 spoil her image but it was for work purposes..s0rry mdm..=))

t0dae..

hmm..w0ke up then prepare hab to go work le..also g0t no time to use com or wadever l0r..so tired..almost no time to prepare also..luckily i woke up..at first i thought i was in my dreamland then the alarm ring..i thought is in the dream..then i hack care then in the dream sclding..go n shut the alarm lehh..l0lls..then after awhile i found out tat actually is real de..then i g0 n shut it..i found out it was already 10 plus..i wwas like..huhh..so fast ..cos 12 hab to work..about 11 habb to go dwn wait ferr bus ler..die..luckily..g0t enough time..

t0dae repeat hist0ry..f0rgot to collect money..did the same thing..thwen the customer also laugh..she was verii cute..mei hua cant tahn me..sae cant euu just collect the money first..l0lls...
cos normally i see if the customer haven give then i wait lor..just tak the order finish first..after tat..she saw me collect money after finish order..then she sae..haven learn ur lesson ah..hahas..i told her nvm..sure can find the customer..then she sae i was just lucky tat both is eat in one..hahas..

feeling so tiredd now..arggg..g0ing to slp le..g0od nite...
darling i miss euu....where are euu?


[ siimplyy her .] cRysTaL

blur me .
haha..actually on the 17 i habb g0t 3 posts rite...the l0west is the one for sports dae while i post the middle one cos i thought the other wasnt posted whnn i didnt scroll dwn..then the upper one is posted at the midnight of 16 tats whyy c0nsider 17 andd wil be on top..l0lls..i saw no new post on t0p then thought tat it wasnt p0sted..

t0dae .
i wasnt realli feeling verii happy t0dae at first..c0s verii siann s0memore they sat in groups in fr0nt i lazy to m0ve..so i r0te letter for eileen..walauu..teck actually let everyone read the letter i written f0r him andd didnt even b0ther to keep the letter himself..s0bbxx..actually no secret but at least keep it..feel so sad..dun wan thenn just tell me , why muz d0 this..it hurts even more..euu make me feel as though i f0rced euu to take the letter...

aniwae..the happy times cums after schh..went out with mei hua , shar0nn n sandy after angklung prac..at first we at the bust0p discussing where to go..wastin l0ts of time..but thenn later saw 135 then decide t0 go to parkway walk walk..l0lls..we were so last minute..
reachh there we went to buy ice cream eat..so nicee tat feel like havin a sec0nd r0undd..=))
we anihow walk ardd then we were so sian then go to water rise eat..just found out tat it sells most of my fav0urite f0ods..nx time can go there eat le..haha..after tat we walk ardd then wen to play at the playgroud outside mac there..tat was a kinda round thingy where euu stand on it then hav to balance after tat try m0ving it..l0lls..in simple terms to test ur balance..
sincee it was enough space f0r 2 pers0ns..me n shar0n started it first..so dam funny..i caouldnt balance then when we started t0 move a little i fall dwn le..=D of course sharon fal too..then it was sandy n mei hua turn..they also awhile then fall le..can imagine hoe chidish n b0redd we were til we went there to play..this continue..till things get even fun when i di siao mei hua..go n roll the thingy then she fall n came runnin after me..we all ran all over the place..at tat m0ment..i felt as though there were onlii the 4 of us..it dosent matter how others thinkk of us animore..so long nv relax ler..todae realli feel better al0t...thankiew my dear friends...=))

[ siimplyy her . ] cRysTaL
*learn t0 cherishh friendship..cause its the onlii ship tat lasts f0reva..

t0dae __ . unhappy dae ]

suddenlyy, i feel an urge t0 meet hades of hell..=(( feel super extra andd tiredd cann..haiz..will i still be able to carry on? i dunn0...
she saidd i hadd changee..ATTITUDEE..theyy saee ii bec0mingg m0re andd m0re likee her*..i hate it..am i g0ing to l0see them to0..im tiredd , exhausted. whyy muz theyy andd she treatt mii liddat? im c0nfusedd. in wad wae am i like her*?? just because im indecisive..cos i wantedd f0tos..ishh tat wadd make me like her*? in tat case ,if this carries on.. i guess i s0onn g0nna be like her* thenn..by then , i rather i die.. i have n0 one to turn to..i habb no one to tok to..andd babe i miss euu, andd euu are ign0ring me too like them..
l0okkingg at our neoprints, my tears fl0w d0wn rapidlyy..andd n0t onlii tat, they hurt me too..i thought they knew me the best but it wasnt the truth..=((i guess i realli cant take it..i miss euu..i want euu badlyy..i need euu..=((

life seems to be getting w0rse f0r me..but euu seem to be s0 happy..i guess i sh0uldnt disturb euu..this are my retributions..i shld bear them myself..im supp0se t0 be left al0nee..andd tats truee..

[ siimplyy her . ] cRysTaL

g0shh! everything wasn't publishh andd now i hab to retype everythings again..
my thoughts .
i am feeling so unhappy..things arent going on smoothly for me..=((
ever since tat dae, i thought..i felt tat im the odd one out in this w0rld..this beautiful w0rld shouldnt habb someone named crystal poh en en.. she should not have been b0rn..causing others misery and unhappiness..i feel so sad..i dun like to be left al0nee..everything seems to be fine yet things are actually changing rapidly..now she has left without any prior n0tice..i realise onlii whenn i f0und out..we no longer tok..

darling..i realli miss euu...can we tok it out?? im tired of chasingg while euu keep on running..this game should end.. i alwaes tokk to euu online but it seem tat there is alwaes seldom response from euu..whenever i tok, i didnt dare sen dit to euu ...cos i wa afraid..euu would be irritated and block me..tat is not wad i wan..my aim is to be with euu again..can we??
i realli miss euu...

[ siimplyy her . ] cRysTaL

i realli dun understandd whyy.. things turn out this wae..=(( i hate the wae it is n0w..whyy are euu all leavingg me one after another..izzit because im realli tat nasty..tat bad?
everything seems to be fine yet changing at all times..whyy am i l0sing euu guys, pple i love m0st..=/ i hate this kinda feelings inside me..perhaps im predestinied to be al0nee..

darling..i realli miss euu..i wan to have a chat with euu..can we?? everytime euu onliine im so happy..everytime also will sae hello to euu..but there ishh seld0m response fr0m euu..why is this so?? wad are euu hesitating?
can i knw can?? i realli feel l0st too..
i habb l0st too muchh..i dun wan to habb any more regrets so i wanted to tok to euu..but it seems euu will never resp0nd to me...
whenn i triedd to type everything,i didnt dare send to euu..cos i was afraid euu find me detestable andd wil s0onn bl0ck me..i dun wan tat to happen again can...=((
whyy cant i just be cheer up?

[ siimplyy her . ] cRysTaL

did euu kn0w tat..n0t l0singg euu al0nee but i l0st euu too.. h0w c0uld i livee on? where sh0uldd i start againn..? i realli dun kn0w..its so confusingg sometimes..im getting l0st..=(( without euu, life ishh never as w0nderful..

t0daee went out with mummyx they all andd ji sheng..we went to watchh a moviee..whichh was supp0see to be scaryy but it ended up b0ringg , s0memore, mummy they all pangg senn me andd ji shengg ,they changee seats to infr0nt there..*when a stranger calls* as euu cann see, the first part of the show was about the gal keep on receivingg prankk calls..but in the endd it turned out badd..the m0st interesting part was whenn shee f0undd out tat the calls were made fr0m inside the h0usee..tat scared her al0t..actually..i c0uldd c0ntrol myself onee..but then tok to ji sheng then turn back tat time happn to see tat man out with the super duber l0udd s0und effect can..then it scare me thus in the end..i sh0utedd..l0lls..=))
thenn we wen to bugis..play arcade but the pers0nn-in-charge said we were underage andd n0t alll0wedd..stupid l0r..wtf! ji sheng was eligible but he never play als0..but the illegal ones insisted on playing a game first bef0re leavingg..l0llss...=))
after tat we went to suntec play arcade c0s there de they all0wed..so kind of them..^-^ play the fighting game keep on l0singg then i kn0w i was challenging a pr0..stupidd..i was dam stupid..thenn we all g0 eat then go back arcade again..(bef0ree g0ing eat , ji sheng went back tnet first )after tat walk walk awhile then go hm le..

0verall...i realli enjoyedd myself..but my attitude acted up again todaee, i was madd..im s0rry to euu guys..i realli didnt meann it..i couldnt c0ntrol myself..pls f0rgive me..hated myself..=((


[ siimpplyy her . ] *cRysTaL

~never give upp till the very last minute..never givee up whenn everyone believes euu cann d0 it..

t0dae so super siann...hahas...went t0 ps with shar0nn eat..
denn g0 to her hse. sit sit tok awhile..g0 hm..n0 life sia..]
results!!!!!!
todae also g0t backk the results...haiz..
i already anticipate tat i will do badly andd indeed i really did badlyy..i actually failed my combined physics andd englishh...
englishh so impt!!!
h0pefully the overall will pass...i only failed by 1 markk lor..wtf ! tat precious 1 h0ly markk.. cant teacher just cl0se an eye andd let me off...=(((
luckily my combined s0cial studies pass...i was so afraidd i would failedd..cuz the s0urce based so hardd but luckily the structuredd question was easyy tat hlp me pass..andd it was just nicee on the d0t..i g0nna get killed by my sis this time..she definitely screamed till i deaf...but history havenn g0t backk...but heardd fr0m teacher so far she markk still no failure..guess will pass bahhx..g0d bless cann...
the m0st contented marks i g0t was my higher chinese...so dam hardd..i though i was gonna fail f0r sure..wa..luckily i pass..andd pass beautifully with an A2...hahas..=))
onlii this cann be pr0udd of...
the other subjects i guess al0 wun pass de..haiz...

[ sad sad ] `s0bbx

[ siimply her . ] **cRysTaL

t0dae

i was feeling so b0redd so i to0k a f0to of myself...hahax. =P

but i look so awful...dunno to smile or n0t...

im missing u..darling...whnn will u cum back? or will u never be back by my side lerhhs..really miss the times we had together...))= but can onlii think... [ <3>

i was at h0me the whole dae till i went out to dinner with mei hua...our mothers went for maj0ng leaving the pitiful kids l0oking for food on their own...but i guess it was nothing c0s we were old enough to settle such trival things on our own..anywae...

Happy m0thers' day to all mothers in the w0rld..

t0 the someone who brought up and give birth to those little babies who have now grown up...so mothers are great..they sacrifice al0t ferr their childs...taking the risk to give birth to them...they are selfless..so i would like to thank my mum here...

thanky0u for bring me to this w0rld..carrying me in ur arms, c0axing me... y0u may not be able to come to my blog here andd see..but i knw y0u can feel my gratefuleness towards y0u...i l0ve y0u mum...

arhgg...finally c0mpleted changing the skin of this blog...
for those who are computers experts can finish in a few clicks time but for me..it takes hours..guess wad..i been on it from 8 plus till nw 3 plus am...see the difference?? its killing me..
but for the sake of him, i dun mind..

t0dae
i cant believe i have actually watched 3 movies in a month which i never do...
btw first was poseidon ytd..todae is mission impossible III and it was super nice..
muz watch w0r...t0m in a bide to save his wife,he could do anything...[ tats the power of l0ve ] he was brave..luckily in the end they were together and safe..[ if not i sure boo the movie ] cos i hated sad ending..having to separate couples..hahas...

anywae...darling...wish to tell u tat..
i can do anything for u too..cos i love u...
hope u cum back to me soon...

t0dae went to watch a movie name Poseidon..quite sad andd thrilling..
it show how those people treasure their lifes and how much they want to live..andd they really fight very hard against death..they were brave..=))

Recently have been g0ingg to 2 gays couple de blog..they were very brave too havin dare to admit to the world tat they were gays..they were so loving andd sweet..but quite a pity cos both looks quite handsome de..anywae wad im tryin to sae is..they could brave all critisms together andd overcome it with their love for each other..i really envy them al0t..i believe they be able to last long..in fact i despise those pple who give nasty comments thinking they were cool..in fact they were cowards..pple's love life has g0t nth to do with them..since they dun give their support might as well just get lost n shut up..why do they have to dampen their morale? is it cos they are jealous?

having seen all these...i began to treasure my life even more..n also my loves ones..
my dear noble parents who bought me up...their patience to wait while i grow up slowly...
i really appreciate tat...
andd of course...gerald..
i love u!
i will never give up till the last moment...cos i never wan to regret again...
even 2 gays are able to overcome others comments n view of them...
im sure i be able to touch u again...
with my love andd patience...
i will wait...
i may be silly but if you could returned to me..
im willing to be tat silly f0rever...
i love you/......gerald

hmm. t0dae went out awhile but still feeling so siann..
haiz..miss euu again..
wonder whenn ii cann st0p thinking of euu. really hope to be with euu again..
but i know i never get a chance liao..=((
i know i muz not bother u again but i just cant seem to get a grip of myself..

everyones seem to dislike me..perhaps she right ur frenz will leave euu one by one if u continue like this..i evenn lost some1 i love most,someone i cherishh most..
now i really hope i can go back to the past and stop the tragedy but if there's is a if..there be no misery on earth and pple wun learn to cherish..
but sometimes i think wads the point of cherishing while u would still lose tat some1..
now i know..when u know u had truely cherish tat person..even when u lost him u wun feel so regretful of not cherishing him in the first place..

will i have a second chance?

i be happy if eu have been here to see..
we may not be able to be couple ler..but i really hope u can give me a chance n we be friends again...
i know u have been blocking me everywhere..i dunno why but i just think perhaps i am too irritating..ii am sorry truely sorry for tat..
aniwae..just to sae..i miss euu!!

i be happy if eu have been here to see..
we may not be able to be couple ler..but i really hope u can give me a chance n we be friends again...
i know u have been blocking me everywhere..i dunno why but i just think perhaps i am too irritating..ii am sorry truely sorry for tat..
aniwae..just to sae..i miss euu!!

i miss euu cann..i realii needd u can...i cant bear to accept the cruel truth...
ii really miss euu...darlingg...whenn can i see u again..or will i never get to see u again...
haiz...i cant imagine...how am i going to continue from here...

i cant be with eu anymore..am i rite?
c0s i habb no more chance..
but i never habb the chance to knw wad i habb done wrong or rather wad u habb been confuse of..
ii realli realli wishh to know the reasons..
ii love u.

u make me happy
u make my dae
u make me miss u
u make me love u
but why are u also the 1 who make me cry?

darling..im sorry..
i cant forget euu.
i miss euu..
i love euu.
pls give me another chance..
i reallii love u..
believe me..
ii wouldnt wanna be right if loving euu is wrong.
the hardest thing to do is to turn around and walk awae pretending tat i dun love euu..

gerald.