t0dae...call kor kor chit-chat awhile, tok about euu also...he also very long nv see u le..
haiz, im wonderingg everydae whenn i gett to see u online,when i be able to see u again to be in ur huggies again...

this sundae is shar0n---daddyx---de badae, dunnoes y when i feel sadd whenn kor sae ask u to go als0...perhaps its because of the fact tat im nt able to find euu yet...i really dunno wad to do le. cal,msn and even email i try le. i found a sentence which i often use to console myself, gerald is very busy, he will findd me soon.although i find it quite fake but this sentence appearrs everytime i cant findd eu.
im tirredd, really tirredd, please st0pp the game..stop hiddingg..
lets sit dwn n tok over everything...

//gerald\\

Sh0uld i just let go or to hold on to it? Both ways made me very sad n terrible. If i continue holding on to it, i will continue to feel sad n miss you everyday...same, i cant bear to let go n st0p tinking even if i decided to let go...haiz

feeling so confuse n0w...looking at the clock..time passes very quickly..soon it b our third month n als0 the second month we hav nt met...the image of you in my mind is getting blurer each day..but the feelings is getting stronger too..everytime i tink of all this i would cry..but no matter how hard i try to contact you to find you..i always fail.it seem that you are avoiding me..

if you do not wish to continue this relationship anymore,i rather you tell me straight n n0t just ignore me..y0u are making me feel worser n also more terrible...n also like an idiot looking for you..its just like wiseful thinking on my part..i have never been happy..i have n0t cried anymore..perhaps,i thought it over..crying is n0t the solution to the problem...

i just simply dun understand why you cant treat as if nothing had happen, and just ignore everything..i know you gt a problem n0w which is n0t solve..but cant you even gib me a call after so long or just meet up after so long, you made me feel as though you have already given up..tat why you didnt even turn up when we agree to meet..tats all le..

darling, if you have read,i really wish you could at least send me a msg...i love ya!
hope you habb n0t given up..c0s i know you are n0t a pers0n like this..y0u muz hab ur reasons for doing so...


==--gerald,lurvbbe ya--==

i miss my darling al0t...w0nderr wadd he's d0ing n0w...haiz. siann. without y0u, my life as dull as ever.
luckily i still have my bl0g to talk to.

i have no one to tok to. i feel so lonely although i may hav a l0t of 'frenz' in sch0ol. c0s there is no true frenz even if eu trust a person so much.they will still ignore u eventually when they gt their own stuff to do. They cant bothered with eu even though u are right in front.They think eu are happy as long as eu laugh n smile or joke ard.Much more than to notice u are actually hiding y0ur tears behind the smile.c0s they wun observe eu.They just care abt themselves.Man are selfish. Me too, recently i notice myself nt caring much abt others anymore, i sae wad i wan to without hesitating,perhaps,im influenced.i only tink abt eu but in the end...

Frm the start of our relationship,i alwaes tink very positively.I believe we would last but it dosen't turn out the way i want.I alwaes thought we b happy alwaes but i find myself losing more n more of my consciousness.S0on i will lose unconsciousness n fall into a deep sleep with dreams of wad i alwaes want.Tat is to see you everydae,having a simple n happy relationships with no quarrels. So that i can get to see ur smiles everydae which brightens up my life.By then,i be glad to be unconscious forever just for ur sake.Sometimes,i really w0nder why we could turn out this way? is it my fate or we are nt meant for each other?

only eu can give me the rightful answer.c0s u're my fate.u're the one i been l0oking for...there is still hope for us if eu cum back... i will find you..


[gerald]~lurvbbe ya always``*

i am missing you darling. todae go scho0l dunno why i very envy those c0uples i see..they can meet everydae go sch0ol together...although we cant but at least i wish to meet u 2 or 3 times a week...
i really miss u. cant u see the l0nely me without u??
i really feel so sad. anywae i feel happy to have been protected by you before...bec0z you give me a great sense of security.thanks you al0t...i lurvbbe u alwaes..









[gerald][darling, i love you!]

Darlingg i went swimming at Raffles h0tel t0dae c0s my c0usiin yiing jio.i pass by burgerking andd saw alviin als0.
hahas. he was very cute.dunno why my c0usin keep saying tat he ishh very hands0me.

ii miss y0uu l0tss.i called u at 1.50pm but u were bathingg. didnt kn0w ur acti0ns so fast,after ten mins u went out lerhs.i always w0nder why u dun answer my call instead, u can c0ntinue playing ur games.i als0 dun understandd why u dunn even call me n0w.

duringg the j0urney, did i l0st u completely or just a m0ment? i really dunn0..haiz.But im determine to findd u back.

wad i wanna ask ishh...do y0u mean to break with me?
unless u sae it, i will n0t gib up.last week we plan to meet, why didnt u turnn up? instead u were playing computer games when i call..i was disappointed.
i realli dunno wad had happen.i dun wishh to kn0w the truth but it was before me...the truth which saes u will n0t turn up...

i l0ve gerald~~1314

Darling, this bl0gg is specially f0unded by me for u although its n0t d0ne by me. This bl0g simply spell out wad i wanna sae n h0w i feel...

during a j0urney to n0where, i l0st y0u..
but i am g0ing to find y0u back.


gerald, i love u i miss u n i need u.



<<[gEraLd]>>s0me0ne i l0ve m0st*``