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Firstly, Happy belated birthday to Miss Lin Shu Jun! Hope she had enjoyed the surprises and celebrations :) We tricked her with a cheesecake but actually used it to smash her, but damage not worst than cream cake.. haha

AA2 is over but auditing coming soon in 2weeks time, cant slack too much too.. Really tired.. I'm so lazy nowadays..


It's time to make a choice, yes the one that I'll live happily with.. No more regrets, no more turning back.. I just want to be happy :)

This blog is dead.. Till one day I'm back to human state. And when I owned my own phone when I can take lots of pictures !

Exam.

Accounting CA tmr! I guess I can pass. Yes, I'm just aiming for a pass and I'll be happy. Cause I really sux at it and just manage to understand a little more ytd with my teacher's coaching..

She almost went crazy because I failed the mock test she gave us last friday and immediately sms me telling me to go school punctually on monday at 10am so that she can teach me.. I must say she's a really good teacher.. So how can i slack? Went home immediately after school and mug all the way till midnight, managed complete about 2 sets of paper in 3hours.


Hopefully I can pass tmr :) Good luck to all my peers and cliques in school, god bless all of ur will pass and the rest with flying colours. :D

Paranomal Activity

I'm back for a little update..

Went to watch Paranomal Activity ytd but it was not really tat scary.. Think they edited the film at the last part whereby the male actor got killed by his gf who had been possessed by the demon.. Damn scary she look when she was possessed.. Pity the guy


I've been thinking and thinking, my mind exploding soon! Can someone save me? ): Anyway, thanks for everyone's concern, i didn't smoke :)


Wanna upload some pictures.. but upload pictures to the lappy..

PHONE):

Sigh, people, I'm just here to say, I've lost my phone and nobody will be able to contact me till mayb few days or a week later? Cause I've suspended the number. Once I get my new sim card, I will be using back the same number and I will inform here. So dun delete my number :)

How could I lose it? It was always with me, always on my hand. I can't believe it.

Break down.

After so much had happened recently, I finally realise alot.


I'm really tired and exhausted having to struggle in between. When our r/s went wrong, you chose to give up. You regretted everything and wanted to change for me, I'm really very touched about it and appreciate ur thoughts. At tat moment, I really felt happy though. But soon, you start giving me pressure wanting me to do this and that because you felt it was unfair. I had to be fair to both of you, then who is being fair to me? Yes, you can blame me for my indecisiveness, it's my weakness. I couldn't make a choice.

Now I'm not trying to say I had been a very good gf, but at least I did everything I could to salvage this relationship. Sometimes I really dislike it alot the fact that you chose to run away and hide from our problem instead of facing it with me. You made me felt so helpless, all I could do was to cry. And you could just pretend nothing had happen, dont you? Why must we end up like this? What happened?

My heart aches alot, whenever i think of it. When I think of how you are suffering because of me, I really feel I don't deserve ur love. Everyone else is right, by saying I'm not worth it. I'm the only one in the wrong, mayb this wil make them feel happy? How superficial can they be? By judging a book by just it's cover. Did they even bother to flip and read the story inside?

I hate being forced. And what I hate most is see-ing you torturing yourself and being weak, I will really despise u if you continue tat manner. Am I supposed to follow ur footsteps so tat you can understand how I feel too? Sigh. Or should I try smoking? Tell me what to do. I really am at a loss.


In my heart, there's a decision to be made. But why can't I just do it? I'm going crazy soon.

work!

woot! I haven been updating here for quite some time! But well, I'm still alive and kicking!

Stomach cramps is what I had most at the end of the month. ): It hurts and it's killing me. Sigh. Why do girls have to go through such torture? Why not guys :S


HAHAHA! gonna be late for work if I dun start moving now! Will be back soon! stay tune!

Updates of pictures for St James!

Once again, HAPPY BDAE to MEIHUA!!

Me and my 10 years plus best best friend! LOVE HER!

Look! they eating my tofu, all hugging me :SS


This picture very nice right? Cause I take one mah . HAHAHA

I really look like a devil that night :S Anyway, really had an enjoyable night at Powerhouse. But Baoyu couldn't join us, so it was quite a pity. But she had her reasons, we can't blame her. Hopes her bf gets well soon. Take care girl, we don't blame you!! :DD I wanna see you soon!!



I wanna learn to cherish every single one of you in my life. I do not want any regrets, will I? I'm really very scare sometimes, kept wondering if I made the right decisions and choices in life.. Many things hanging in my head, left a mystery..




Although I might seem happy, but who knows deep down in my heart, I'm crying because I'm sad.. But I'm glad there are so much people caring for me..

Work more = money more

Went to work from 2-6pm.

Went to eat laksa with some friends, thanks for the treat. Haha . At least got people can accompany me to eat. I'm very scare of loneliness.

Went back on my own in the train, smsed Javier, he kept making me laugh like an idiot to my phone . So qianda. :P I know he's creating a blog for me, so touched! Thanks baby! Now i can read ur thoughts! Haha

I cant say I have forgotten everything, but most of it. Cause I learnt to let go, just like u do. I want to cherish my baby and be the best that I can. :) 3 months challenge!! Here I come! HAHAHA


I must OWN you!!! Double kill, triple kills, monster kill, wicked sick.. hahahha

St James.

Happy belated birthday to Poh Mei Hua!!!


It was her birthday ytd and we all gathered to go St James to celebrate for her. I met up with Jowena and her friend and we cabbed down together. It wasn't really that fun cause the music was so so and quite crowded. But I still danced cause it's gonna be my last time clubbing alone. lol. Meihua invited so many guy friends to protect us frm villains . LOL.

Really thanks the guys for protecting us which allows us to have an enjoyable night without disturbance. I had really relaxed alot alot while dancing with all my might last night.. My life will start anew as on today.. I really thanks those who had been always encouraging me and supporting me.. Now i got to move on.


Surprisely, got to know meihua's school mates who also stays at bedok and just a blk away from mine.. So we cabbed home together and I got 2 bodyguards walking home with me. Cool. Haha

I really feel, What's yours will still be yours eventually, what's not meant to be will never be. You hate because you loved, you miss because you regret..
Baby, I love you.

Love is all around.

Took this from a girl's blog..


☆~ When she stares at your mouth = "Kiss her"
☆~ When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you = "LET HER BEAT AND ACT PAINFUL"
☆~ When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tuff = "Kiss her and tell her you love her"
☆~ When she's quiet = "Ask her what's wrong"
☆~ When she ignores you = "Give her your attention"
☆~ When you see her at her worst = "Tell her she's beautiful"
☆~ When you see her start crying = "Just hold her and don't say a word"
☆~ When she steals your favorite pillow = "Let her keep it and slp with it for a night"
☆~ When she doesn't answer for a long time = "Reassure her that everything is okay"
☆~ When she looks at you with doubt = "Back yourself up"
☆~ When she says that she likes you = "SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN U COULD UNDERSTAND!"
☆~ When she looks at you in your eyes = "Don't look away until she does"
☆~ When she says it's over = "She still wants you to be hers"
☆~ When she reposts this = "She wants you to read it"
☆~ Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
☆~ Call her at 12:00am on her birthday/anniversary dates to tell her you love her


☆~ Treat her like she's all that matters to you
☆~ Stay up all night with her when she's sick
☆~ Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

STRESS!!

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAVIER TAN THE GREAT :DDD


I've been thinking alot and stayed at home the whole afternoon with my family watching 'Handsome Suit' which my sis rented for us.. Super funny and interesting..

I did enjoyed for a moment and forgot all about mum's nagging.. I know they all nag for my own good, because they love me. I really do appreciate it but sometimes too much of it just makes me feel very turn off, makes me want to be even more rebellious. Sometimes I really dislike the feeling of being treated like a kid when I'm already 18. I know what i'am doing.


I have been really upset and stressed. That's why I behaved so differently from how I used to be.. Sometimes, I really don't know who I can really trust. Who I can say everything to.. I need a break. Mummy, can you stop nagging me? stop scolding me for everything?


It's really not what I want that I behaved so rebelliously and rudely. But I just feel very very tired of talking nicely..


I must really thanks Mr greedy for always being there during these times when I'm really upset and don't know what to do.. Although he's kinder greedy but I appreciate all the counsellings sessions that he made an effort to give me, to call and talk to me properly. Sometimes, it feels like a brother though :S But I know you really love me and care for me, I love you too. I hope I can be a helping hand too when you are upset. :) What I am good at is only to cheer u up or make you laugh. Don't be surprise I blogged about you. You have been great! Thank you.

Goodbye.

Went to Berrylite look for Vanessa. Chatted alot with her recently. Finally, I made up my mind. I no longer feel the pressure..


I really enjoyed myself today, freed myself from the thoughts.. I really thought through very clearly. How I really want things to be, what I really want.. I will miss you alot I swear, I still love u deeply in my heart. Everything will be kept and remembered. :) Hope you can have a smooth journey and take good care of yourself. .

有一种爱叫做放手，是否我们会更快乐？

As on today, I promised myself to move on. :)

Yakult Factory!

Supposed to update this ytd but I was too sleepy while updating in the middle of the night and fell asleep straight.. Learn alot of cool facts about yakult. And Singapore's the only country which has 4 flavors. Pictures show the packaging of yakults in different countries.. lol

We got a free bar of yakult too. So cool, im gonna drink Yakult daily cause it's so cool for our body. :D

Went to pool with Mr greedy and friend. I'm so lousy. LOL.

Glad that I finally think through properly..

I want a rest.

I'm dead beat now!!

Slept at 3am, woke up at 9plus for school. Jasmine late as usual, haha. Shujun's dad fetch us to school, thanks alot :D Otherwise I tink we wouldn't have attended even half the lesson. LOL!

Finished school and went down to Bishan Ite to return our F1 polo tees, long journey. Worked at 6pm till closing. It's been a really long time since I last did closing and also with Penny. Closing was fun. :) Working really made me cheered up a lil and more relaxed.

I've been thinking what I really want. I really really really feel very upset with myself, i've been very indecisive. This is the first time I felt this way, felt I couldn't do anything right. It's been countless days since I last slept well or ate well. I totally got no mood to do anything properly. My laughter drown, my tears flowed. But I still don't know what to do.

It's been quite some time, i shouldn't run away from the problem. I got to make a decision no matter what, worst come to worst. I shall just sacrifice myself. I rather be hate than to be loved cause I dun deserve to be. Sigh.

Enen is very sad, but who truly understands how she feels? Everybody just want an answer.

Drained.Out

Every part of me tells me I'm tired, be it physically or emotionally, I'm really tired. So much so much had happened in my life, leaving me happiness, unhappiness, tears, joy and be it good or bad memories, I will remember them all as they are parts and parcels of my life.

I just learnt that no matter wad happens, ur families, ur kin will be there for you always regardless of what. And no matter wad happens, you just have to learn to accept or let go. Accepting is one thing, letting go is another thing. Both can be a happy or painful process, depending on the situation.

I wish I was just a star, shining down on anyone whose lonely and needs help, giving them warmth and courage to face the cruel truth. To be able to watch over each and everyone whose living on earth.


Sometimes, I wonder. Have I really regretted about anything or decisions which I made in the past? Looking back, I must not deny that I did. At the point of time when we decided to make that decision, it might seems right and tells us we will not regret it. But as time passes, everything and factors changes, resulting in a change which will makes us feel that we have regretted making that decision. However, if you had never made that decision, would you have been able to come by to what it is today? Life's ironic and contradicting.


I realise I had all along been a weakling who never faced up to the truth. No matter how much tears, it's not gonna change anything. I just want some peace now.

It's time to stop for a rest, time to think about the future and what I really want.

WORK = MONEY

Been working at iluma for closing for the last 2 days. Quite enjoyable though it's very quiet there. Hopefully I'll not be working there for long cause i still prefer Parkway. :)


Many things on my mind, who can I talk to? Cause I really don't know what to do and don't evn know what I want. I just don't want any regrets. Once wrong, there's no more turning back already. Sigh, really very stress. But I'm glad I still have good friends around me cheering me all the time and the support from baby at times.


Baby is going overseas soon next week on the 18th october and will be back only one month plus later on 23rd November. Which means, I'll be separated with him for 6weeks. wow. Is that another kind of holiday for me? I will miss him for sure. But it's also a good time for me to learn to be independent and also tink over about wad i want.


Wish baby all the best, a good and safe journey for him I pray. And yea, I love you.

F1 pictures.

Finally I got the chance to come and upload the pictures taken during F1. Hahas. Yup, really had an enjoyable time with everyone. Thanks for all the fun :)

The rest of the group photos and stuff are in my FB, can take a look there if you are interested.

Gotten over with my hair already, it dosen't really looks so bad after all. And my hair is getting better each day as I have wash with conditioner n treatment everyday. :D Well, look on the brighter side I shall!

Thanks for the confidence you gave me :)

itchy hand.

Seriously, I thought about it for a whole night.

IF i didnt went to cut my hair and stuff, I would have beautiful normal hair.
IF i had been cleverer, my hair wouldn't land up in such a state.
IF i didn't yearn for a new hair style, i wouldn't have such a ''NICE'' one now. -.-'''

I have never been so sad over my hair before even when there was once I cutted my hair damn short like a mushroom head during my primary school days. I didn't tear at all. But now, I can feel everyone laughing at me. ):

I'm doing all sorts of treatment to get my hair back.



I''m rotting at home now. Baby just called me earlier telling me that his grandfather is in changi hospital, wondered wad happened. But he didn't ask me to go down so I stay at home to wait for his news. Hope for the best.

F1

Forgot to blog about F1 just now.

Yup, it's over but it was overall enjoyable and tough. But we made it, and nobody fainted though we all kept saying we are going to get heat stroke and stuff, going to faint. HAHAHA, so funny. I really had fun with everyone. Cause Im not using my own lappy now, i wun be uploading pictures for the time being. Sorry about the boring and wordy post.

But I really wish to thank Francis our in charge for taking good care of us. And is even thinking of a gathering with us before our school starts. Wish him a happy belated birthday here too. :D


I'll be back soon with pictures i hope. :X I look ugly now.

I want my hair back!

Argh, my hair sucks totally.

Went to a salon at bras brasah level 3 to do soft straightening and also cutted my fringe to slant but it dosent looks like slant at all. Oh my god! Everything sucks, now my fringe so short and ugly, behind hair become so rough and hard. How am I going to go out and face people? WTH.

Should I say i'm lucky cause I'm still on holidays until 2weeks later and maybe it will grow back abit? So from now on, I can be a tortise and hide at home except for work. I seriously don't want to go out and become a laughing stock lo. So fugly.

I don't know how to describe it.


Btw I was late for opening ytd for 10mins, was working with a new guy called Javier Tan Martin, sounds like mixed right? but he's a local, omg, don't let him know that I wrote out his full name here. HAHA. He's quite a nice guy anyway. Then came Elena and 3 of us kept talking and I went home with Elena. HAHA.


I'm so free nowadays. I shall make myself busy. Only today and tmr I'm so free. LOL. gotta go help baby buy his zip lock bag for his overseas preparation. Any idea where to get except for ikea?

Away.

During the first night over, my niece slept with me and offered me her doggy soft toy to hug :S HAHA, so cute right the doggy.

Went for berrylite chalet and tonned overnight, though i managed to sleep for a few hours on the sofa. Everyone was like disturbing me while I was sleeping. LOL

Felt so tired, booked my final theory already on the 9 october morning. Hopefully I can pass and then I would be able to drive already!! OMG!! Feel so excited whenever i think about it. HAHA

Sigh, i came all the way to watch you sleep.

Ikea.

Baby went Ikea with us today! :D

Bought some stuff for our house and fresheners,and i bought the lil candle with apple fragrance to be put in my room :) HAHA.

I also bought the new bubble dye in glossy brown colour! shall try it out and see if it's good. :D


Supposed to go for movie with baby after which but sis needed his help to help us fix our tv cable and connect the scv things. So baby came home with us and bla bla.


Till about 10plus then he cab home. Can't see him till thurs or mayb nxt week? due to F1 this coming weekends. omg. I gonna miss him like siao.

Off I go.

Yeah, I've moved and left to a new place.


This feeling is kinder weird. Baby helped me the whole afternoon while we were shifting all the boxes from my house to car park and on the truck. Sat on the truck behind with all my stuff, recalled angela's song which i use to like alot, yi shi de mei hao. The mv was also about her moving house and sitting all alone at the back of the truck. HAHA


When it was time to go, I didn't dare said much. Just hid my feelings and bid baby goodbye. I know we'll still meet and stuff, but things are different you see. If I didn't move house, it's just 5mins walk away from his house. Now i really feel the distance. If I didn't move house, I won't feel far away from my friends. I can also be sitting beside baby now. ):

I suddenly miss everything.


Finally finish unpacking everything, went down to buy food. Now really got nothing to do.


Argh! nvm, baby's coming over to my house tmr and we're going ikea. First time baby joining us for our family outing, omg! gonna be fun. Looking forward. :DDDDDDD

Baby's treat to Jack's Place.

Baby came to fetch me after work ytd and we went to eat Jack's place :) HAha, feel so blessed. Because baby spent such a bomb just to make me happy. :XX I feel really bad cause the bill was really exp!! Thank you baby! Love you!

These was our meal:

Baby couldn't finish his steak and chicken combo! So wasteful!

I wanted my steak to be cooked medium well which means there should be no blood stains or blood at all. Yet, they served me the steak with blood flowing out from the steak, totally spoilt my appetite. So I complained to the waitress and I don't know if they re-cooked it or cooked a new piece for me but it was really nicee n delicious! :D

Darling's mango mouse cake.

My chocolate ice-cream with almonds.

The bill :XXXXX

I really want to thanks baby for this sumptous meal :D Most of the food he also cant finish and end up giving all to me. Then still say I so piggy eat so much, not scare fat. LOL! Qian bian !

Dear says long time once go eat good de so nevermind. HAHA! We haven't been out together for long time already. And I supposed I'll be moving house this weekend ):

No more :

Tonning with baby till morning

Staying out late till midnight

Going out often/everyday

Reaching baby's house in just 5mins walk

Spending lotsa time slacking away in baby's house

Lots of things I'll miss. BAby, I miss you the most. I know we can still meet but not as often as we do now I guess. Sigh. And also baby's going overseas soon after school reopen ):

I don't know wad to do.

Day out with Sister Poh!

HELLO HUMANS!!

Crystal is back with her super nerdy ugly fringe :D

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BEWARE!!!

Together with Sister Poh, look at her black lipstick!!

We were supposed to be heading Vivocity, to collect back her LG Phone which had been sent for repair earlier on. Due to laziness, and because of her brother's reluctance, we went Bugis instead for Dinner and some shopping. HAHA


Went Breako Cafe for our dinner, ordered steak and salmon and also a pizza for her brother. Ate till so full and the food was not bad but didnt take pictures cause we were too hungry and started eating when the food came. LOL

Started to cam-whore~


With her witch hat, damn cute the hat. HAHA

2 nerdies :DD [[ love this pic alot!]]

Bestest friend of mine in the world.

Ah toot crystal.

Still not used to see-ing me in this way right?

Lastly, her brother who refuses to take picture with us.


Yeah, tat's all for the day. Well, got to start working tmr already. Will be moving house soon next week I guess. So sian. I gonna miss everything back here. Miss everything I used to have.

I miss Baby most. Dear, I love you.

Upset,

Yeah, that's me now. Pardon my retarded and messy picture. The cap was from baby when he went to Taiwan during his training. Didn't wore it once. My bangs is slanted due to the cap pushin some of my hair to the back. Haha

Actually wanted to post more pictures and stuff, suddenly mood dampen because of something I saw, well. Forget it. Mayb he has changed. But I just cant accept it.

Am I just being silly? What's so great about you, crystal?


It's time to wake up, I should stop dreaming.

Double happiness.

Seriously, I can't believe blogger is back to normal again ~ Yeahness ~

Plus exams is over now and it's holiday time for a whole month ! Issen't it double happiness? How I wish I can post up some pictures now. Well, some people had seen me in my new hair already.

My kuku fringe become bangs aka mushroom head -.-''' It's totally like nerd can! dosen't suits me at all, in the first place, why I still go cut? YAh, why huh? Stupid me. Wanted to have a new look for a start, ended up like an idiot.


Things between me and darling is stil the same. Sigh. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. Wad to do? This is just our fate. Argh. I'm lazy to update. will be back later.

Final destination.

Went to watch Final destination on Monday with Vanessa, jue hao and Shengming. We all met up at PP as I wanted to eat yogurt and also to travel to Grand Cathay together.

Initially, we wanted to watch the 3D version but it was packed so changed to normal one instead. And the ticket seller wanted to see our IC. Vanessa was still underage in terms of month so we told her to hide aside previously and lied to the person that our friends have not arrived yet and we are buying the ticket for her.

We bought the big combo popcorn with pizza to share. The person told us to proceed and they would deliver our pizza during the show. Told vanessa that i would grab her hand and shout if im scared. LOL.

Well, the show was damn damn gross can!! And the pizaa had to be delivered in the middle of the show when we have all lost our appetite. Told them I couldn't take any popcorn or pizza otherwise it would fly. HAHA!

Shouted, squirked, everything I could throughout the show. Funny part was, I covered my eyes and kept shouting to SM,: WHAT HAPPEN? WHAT HAPPEN? LOL! Can imagine how ke lian he is.

No picture post is so ugly. ):

I shall stop here. HAHA! be back soon!

Peace.

Hii all! I'm back!

Sigh, my shitty lappy/ie/mozilla still dun allow me to upload picture. But school de can leh but I can't possibly put all my pictures in the school com.

Anyway, sister brought me to make a new pair of spectacles and I really love it :D Went to collect it ytd at Century square. Even the box and wiping cloth is in pink! :) only a lil part of my spectacles is in pink which is not easily visible.

I miss baby baby! Have not seen him for 2 days! It's not long but still will miss him right! :X

Dunno if he meeting me later on anot, cause he's already out from camp but last 2 days we had quarrelled on phone. And atmosphere like not so good! I'm so sad can. Why does quarrel exist in this world? I really hate it. I just want Peace.

Working almost every thurs and fri, weekend never work because I wanted to spend more time with my baby. But nxt week not working due to exams nearing and need time for revision. I'm dead shit le cause there's so much things I haven done and studied. Especially my tourism, still haven study yet and so much things to memorise!! AHH!

I really mean to study but this week, I have start to slacken again because of the rainy weather in the morning as I wanted to enjoy sleeping in while it's raining so I skipped morning lessons. Now, teacher see me also say: CRYSTAL, long time never see you huh! :XXX Sigh.


Wad should I do now? Sometimes, I have an urge to give up.):

More than anything.

Sian, my blogger is getting worse. Now the web page look like hell -.-

I got so much pictures, but no way to upload them ):

Baby becoming lazy, never update his blog again. LOL. Went back to work on fri, dunno why, although I've recovered, but still got the tired and sian sian feeling so everyone was like, hualiao, are u ok? why so not you today? HAHA! Thanks for everyone concern, I was just feeling tired n sian.

But today I'm super energertic and fine again, did opening and finish work went off to find baby. His mummy cooked for us again. But he was too full to eat, his brother also cut the drumstick meat for me cause I lazy and dun wish to eat the whole drumstick.:X

I miss baby alot last night, felt so lonely without him around because he had a marathon this morning. Didn't dare to to sleep with alone with the lights off and even turned on the tv till morning.

Anyway, off to majong! Update again soon!

1st year anniversary

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND BABYY !!!

Intended to go out der, but had school till 5pm, see-ing baby so tired. So i decided not to go out, just spending time together is enough :D

Baby lied saying he didn't buy any present for me, in the end he surprised me with a couple of necklaces make up of 2 rings tangled together, his is a big size while mine the small one. :D One of the ring is rounded by little sparkling diamonds, love it alot!!Thanks baby. But mine too small already so cannot see clearly, only baby's can be seen.

Stupid blogger still haven recovered so I can't post the pictures up :(

Anyway, for the past few days I was down with high fever and flu,baby had been taking care of me, feeding me with medicines and keeping track of my temperature, putting ice bags on my forehead. I really appreciate alot and wanna thanks him :) Baby, I love you lots. Muack

I knew how worried you were when you realised that my temperature shot up to 39 plus degrees, wanting to send me to the hospital in the middle of the night, felt so loved n cared for then. I also know that each time I wake up from coughing, you would stop from ur computer games and turned to take a look. I also know that you played computer to prevent from falling asleep so that you can take care of me. Baby, you did so much for me, sarcrifice your sleep and energy, all this I know, because you love me.

So I really don't blame you for being so tired today,now i've recovered and it's my turn to look after you. :)

And for the past year, if it wouldn't for you, I wouldn't know wad love is, nor realise my own mistakes. I promise I'll make up to you and be the best I can be. Thanks for your patience in me, for always making sure that I reach home safely, for always giving in to me. I have learnt alot, grown up, all because of you. You are my pillar to hold me up, my strength to carry on, my will to strive, my everything I need. Baby, thank you for being there.

I love you, I miss you, I need you .

Sick

Argh! my blogger is still down. Even worse than normal problems, now I cant even relink people. Cause when i click save, it hangs and changes nothing at all ):

When can I ever post a proper post with pictures again? I'm waiting.

Anyway, work ytd and went for supper/dinner with Miss Poh :D We went Geylang to eat 'smelly' toufu ( only she eat ok) =X while I enjoyed my fried pig intestine :) Damn nice, somemre is people treat de, so is nicer :P

Can you imagine I was already having a mild cough, and after eating all those, we still went for an hour of budget k, and there goes my voice! I had sore throat after which, this morning woke up feeling painful, with a blocked nose too. Didn't dared to tell baby tat I was sick cause I dun want him to worry and also afraid he will forbid me to come out and meet him tonight :X But afterall, I can't hide my cough from him. HEE

Kinder surprise that there is actually people out there reading my blog and encouraging me, Thanks alot. Even though I might not know who they are, I appreciate it alot :D

Argh!

My blogger is still down.

can't upload pictures!! So fed up.

If this continues, mayb I'll be changing site already. Sigh. Anyway, TPS is finally over :D So happy, done with project, over with printing!! :) can u imagine how excited I am? Soon, I'm going to graduate in half year's time i guess :D

Well, gonna be working more often to earn more money because both baby and me are learning driving, should say after i pass den i'll be learning too. So we will need lots of money and we are saving up to get a car too. Hopefully before he leaves for training overseas, he can pass his tp. So that when he's back, we'll be able to get a car of our own! :) Then I will pester him to send me to school every morning when he's free. HAHA! I'm still dreaming. But baby's working hard to pass his license quickly, he's been booking almost every date available for his lessons! JIAYOU baby, i will support you der.

Who understands?

Stupid blogger still dont allow me to upload photos, fed up -.-

Recently, many things had happened, things just dun go the way you want. All the bad and unexpected things had happened to me, what can I do? Really can't take it and even thought of suicide. I know it's stupid but nobody will noe what I'm going through, I'm just like a walking zombie.

Skipped costing lecture with the rest and went for early lunch, ate ban mian again. then off we went to the library to do our Tourism powerpoint as we are presenting tmr, omg, damn nervous about it.

Didn't sleep well last night even though I was very sleepy and almost reaching my lalaland, got woke up by strange kind of feeling which I even thought is that 'thing' . But I guess is I'm too tired and had a nightmare.

Meet up with my baby to eat dinner, see-ing him makes me the happiest, but he got to go back to camp again tonight which turns me down. So sian, tmr can't see him again cause he got his 2nd driving lesson. Actually, kept persuading baby to take cab back tmr morning because I missed him alot but he dun understand and think that it's a waste of money. Sigh. Though we see each other almost everytime he book out but I just felt that we haven't been communicating much recently or spending adequate time together..as we are always spending time with friends for majong.. Sometimes I keep annoying him, and when both of us are tired, we get stubborn and start to quarrel. Tried many times not to tear, but wad can you expect from a crybaby? Sometimes I didn't wish to work because I wanted to spend those precious time with him yet he tinks I'm lazy or childish. Am I? It's only about less than 2months time that I'm moving house already and would be far apart from him, wun be able to spend time till late night, got to take long bus journeys and lonely times. And it's about 2months that he's leaving for overseas training for 1month plus.. By then, I wun get to see him ,only can hear him through phone, and mayb he can't even call back. During that time, I really don't know what to do without him. I don't dare to tink much about it, cause everytime i do, I just start crying. I know he'll be coming back but during that period of time, if I turn to friends, it's unfair to them cause they'll feel I find them only when he's not around. Sigh. So whenever I can, I really wish to see my baby every minute till then cause I want to cherish all these moments. Tinking of taking a week's break from work before he's leaving to accompany him. Baby, I love you.

I'm back!

Got back accounting results today, and I scored a C. I'm happy because I thought I would fail as I didn't really studied :X Plus the paper was a killer! So hard to do! )=

Anyway, just glad that I passed! HAHA Going to watch our belated Harry Potter later on! YEAH!

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