BAck!

Super duper lazy to update my blog, but im here randomly.


Woah, I skipped lesson today and went out early at 11am to shop on my own, bought my heels, dress and the garnier roller for anti dark eye rings at only $12.90! :DD Cheaper than watsons by $2. Usual price was like $19.90.


Im so happy with my little loots for my party tmr! :D I was so engrossed in my thoughts I sat overstop because when it reached my stop, I was too stun to alight :S How silly can I be?


Happy birthday to me on 1 feb. I'll try to take more pictures and update asap aft tmr! :D omg, saw the pink panther which i wanted so badly, so addicted to hai pai! got to wait for next episode!

I don't want any more tiring life .. It's enough.

School school school

Back to school today, only in the afternoon. Accounting lessons doing questions, sigh, exam next wed yet still dont know how to do at all..


Realised something, so funny, almost laugh til I faint.


My birthday coming up soon, the girls are celebrating for me in advance probably on the 30th of Jan, Sat because 1 Feb is a Monday )= Still planning in progress what we'll be doing, most probably clubbing at night.


Won't be back for update since I got nothing much to update, everyday's just school till wonderful weekends. :)

Good luck for exams everyone ! :D

Tired.

Didn't attend school today, reason because I overslept and wasn't feeling well, headache all the way. )= Sigh.

Sometimes I dont understand why people can be so fake and hypocritical, only when they need you, they look for you, otherwise they can be so sarcastic. One moment they are so good with you, the other they just turn their back on you. True friends are those who will not leave you no matter wad happens, and stand by you, accept you for who you are.. Not being together to gain benefits from one and another, issen't it? These are my thoughts for the day because I've been see-ing such things happening around me and mayb to me too? But ppl being my friends stand to have no benefits so I dun tink I'm really one of them. Haha


Meeting up with PMH later..


I really miss you alot, will you be back with me to face everything? Nobody can be trusted..

Happy new year

A new haircut to welcome a new year :) Hopefully everything would turn out well and good for me.

These are my new year resolution:

1) Get my driving license asap.
2) New phone, dont know which model yet, mayb iphone?
3)New clothes!
4) New shoes!
5)To be happy everyday
6)Enjoy a memorable birthday celebration
7) Camera to shoot all I like!
8)Decorate my room!
9) Things tat I fell in love with.
10) Everyone to live healthily :) and stay happy!
11) After graduation, enjoy and get a good job! ( or mayb continue studying)

That's about all. Accounting exam again next week, I dread it. Having to mug hard for a new topic again, luckily I still know how to do a lil. But still got to study hard. I really wish to graduate out of tat school ASAP.

I miss you alot, do you know? I'm kinder exploding soon. I need care and concern too.

New year

New year's round the corner, hope I can revive my blog soon. I just need more time.


Too many things happening.. I just wish to be alone.


Anyway enjoyed my christmas eve bbq-ing with my friends :) Thanks ah siang for catching the little doll for me. :)

Reminscenes.

Too much to upload.

From Seconday till then. lots and lots of memories and pictures. Randomly uploaded. :) Miss all the girls!

Kill me please.

I can't believe this. What the fuck!


Sigh. Anyone wants to find me can contact me in msn or facebook. Phone unavailable.

Took a quiz from this website... http://colorgenicstest.com/color-personality-tests.html

Quite true, haha, i clicked it from my friend's blog.

You appear to others around you as a person who is simply 'laid back'. From time to time you shelve your ambitions and forgo the desire for prestige and recognition and you are often considered as mentally lazy. You have the ability and you are the first to know this, but you prefer to take things easy and indulge your longing for comfort and security.

You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavour to get what you are looking for.

You are a demanding egocentric and therefore quick to take offence. This attitude makes people feel somewhat inadequate when in your company and so it is no wonder that at times you feel alone and unwanted.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no-one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a 'trier' and indications are that you will, as indeed you have in the past, 'bounce back'.

Berrylite..

Frolick..

Yammi..

Beautiful christmas tree at raffles..

Will be leavin berrylite after this week, sunday is my last day.. will be jobless then.. Lazy to update. shall just end here...

Dead

Came to realise many things..

After living for 18years, now I know how bad a terrible human being I had been. I believe everyone makes mistakes, nobody is perfect. We should always reflect on ourselves before commenting on others, like me, I got no right to comment on anyone as I had been the worst.

Being a human ain't easy, making friends is not longer just shaking hands and saying hello. Being together is no longer just tender kisses and warm hugs. Everything is so complicated that I hate to grow up!!


The problem is me. It all lies with me. I'm a bad girl.

Exam ended.

Yeah, exam finally ended. Was late for Audit exam. It's all over now and I'm glad.

Went straight to meet you and we went for dinner at Serangoon garden then eat frolick! :) After which pool session with TYG. haha! Super funny when he keep hearing what I said wrongly thinking it's another lame joke..

Enjoyable evening , thanks alot.. Good luck for your exam tmr!

Exam then holiday!

Card which you gave me on our 1st month :)

LOL! Random photo I found when I was young. :S

I rmb I was very tall since young . Then, this boy who tried to kiss me if I'm not wrong is my mum's friend's son whom was my childhood friend. Lost touch with him since then. Kinder miss him :) We used to be called little couple. Cool right. haha

Dont jealous when u see this? hahaha!

Got to go study for my audit tmr! Jiayou everyone and my classmate. Hope everyone can pass with flying colours.. :)

will be back soon!

2009 class pic

Forgot to post the class pic.. ( credits to Shujun)

She took it using her handphone.. This is one of the candid shot.. Time flies, it's been almost going to 2yrs since I entered Ite. And we are graduating soon in about 3months time after our one month holiday in dec.. Looking forward to holiday.. Anyone has got job lobang to intro?

When i thought I could.

Random post. Some updates of random pictures too just to update this random blog with a random owner.. :S

Ain't the strawberries pretty? The little gingerman was what I saw at cold storage the other time and bought it to cheer you up.. Hope you did smile :)

Recently, things have not been going on too well for me. Everything has changed, be it things or people. I don't know and don't have the courage to face anyone now. Let me face this consequences now since I was the one who started it. Glad to have really true friends around me who never leaves me.

Life still goes on, no matter how hard it is. I have to face it.

empty

Firstly, Happy belated birthday to Miss Lin Shu Jun! Hope she had enjoyed the surprises and celebrations :) We tricked her with a cheesecake but actually used it to smash her, but damage not worst than cream cake.. haha

AA2 is over but auditing coming soon in 2weeks time, cant slack too much too.. Really tired.. I'm so lazy nowadays..


It's time to make a choice, yes the one that I'll live happily with.. No more regrets, no more turning back.. I just want to be happy :)

This blog is dead.. Till one day I'm back to human state. And when I owned my own phone when I can take lots of pictures !

Exam.

Accounting CA tmr! I guess I can pass. Yes, I'm just aiming for a pass and I'll be happy. Cause I really sux at it and just manage to understand a little more ytd with my teacher's coaching..

She almost went crazy because I failed the mock test she gave us last friday and immediately sms me telling me to go school punctually on monday at 10am so that she can teach me.. I must say she's a really good teacher.. So how can i slack? Went home immediately after school and mug all the way till midnight, managed complete about 2 sets of paper in 3hours.


Hopefully I can pass tmr :) Good luck to all my peers and cliques in school, god bless all of ur will pass and the rest with flying colours. :D

Paranomal Activity

I'm back for a little update..

Went to watch Paranomal Activity ytd but it was not really tat scary.. Think they edited the film at the last part whereby the male actor got killed by his gf who had been possessed by the demon.. Damn scary she look when she was possessed.. Pity the guy


I've been thinking and thinking, my mind exploding soon! Can someone save me? ): Anyway, thanks for everyone's concern, i didn't smoke :)


Wanna upload some pictures.. but upload pictures to the lappy..

PHONE):

Sigh, people, I'm just here to say, I've lost my phone and nobody will be able to contact me till mayb few days or a week later? Cause I've suspended the number. Once I get my new sim card, I will be using back the same number and I will inform here. So dun delete my number :)

How could I lose it? It was always with me, always on my hand. I can't believe it.

Break down.

After so much had happened recently, I finally realise alot.


I'm really tired and exhausted having to struggle in between. When our r/s went wrong, you chose to give up. You regretted everything and wanted to change for me, I'm really very touched about it and appreciate ur thoughts. At tat moment, I really felt happy though. But soon, you start giving me pressure wanting me to do this and that because you felt it was unfair. I had to be fair to both of you, then who is being fair to me? Yes, you can blame me for my indecisiveness, it's my weakness. I couldn't make a choice.

Now I'm not trying to say I had been a very good gf, but at least I did everything I could to salvage this relationship. Sometimes I really dislike it alot the fact that you chose to run away and hide from our problem instead of facing it with me. You made me felt so helpless, all I could do was to cry. And you could just pretend nothing had happen, dont you? Why must we end up like this? What happened?

My heart aches alot, whenever i think of it. When I think of how you are suffering because of me, I really feel I don't deserve ur love. Everyone else is right, by saying I'm not worth it. I'm the only one in the wrong, mayb this wil make them feel happy? How superficial can they be? By judging a book by just it's cover. Did they even bother to flip and read the story inside?

I hate being forced. And what I hate most is see-ing you torturing yourself and being weak, I will really despise u if you continue tat manner. Am I supposed to follow ur footsteps so tat you can understand how I feel too? Sigh. Or should I try smoking? Tell me what to do. I really am at a loss.


In my heart, there's a decision to be made. But why can't I just do it? I'm going crazy soon.

work!

woot! I haven been updating here for quite some time! But well, I'm still alive and kicking!

Stomach cramps is what I had most at the end of the month. ): It hurts and it's killing me. Sigh. Why do girls have to go through such torture? Why not guys :S


HAHAHA! gonna be late for work if I dun start moving now! Will be back soon! stay tune!

Updates of pictures for St James!

Once again, HAPPY BDAE to MEIHUA!!

Me and my 10 years plus best best friend! LOVE HER!

Look! they eating my tofu, all hugging me :SS


This picture very nice right? Cause I take one mah . HAHAHA

I really look like a devil that night :S Anyway, really had an enjoyable night at Powerhouse. But Baoyu couldn't join us, so it was quite a pity. But she had her reasons, we can't blame her. Hopes her bf gets well soon. Take care girl, we don't blame you!! :DD I wanna see you soon!!



I wanna learn to cherish every single one of you in my life. I do not want any regrets, will I? I'm really very scare sometimes, kept wondering if I made the right decisions and choices in life.. Many things hanging in my head, left a mystery..




Although I might seem happy, but who knows deep down in my heart, I'm crying because I'm sad.. But I'm glad there are so much people caring for me..

Work more = money more

Went to work from 2-6pm.

Went to eat laksa with some friends, thanks for the treat. Haha . At least got people can accompany me to eat. I'm very scare of loneliness.

Went back on my own in the train, smsed Javier, he kept making me laugh like an idiot to my phone . So qianda. :P I know he's creating a blog for me, so touched! Thanks baby! Now i can read ur thoughts! Haha

I cant say I have forgotten everything, but most of it. Cause I learnt to let go, just like u do. I want to cherish my baby and be the best that I can. :) 3 months challenge!! Here I come! HAHAHA


I must OWN you!!! Double kill, triple kills, monster kill, wicked sick.. hahahha

St James.

Happy belated birthday to Poh Mei Hua!!!


It was her birthday ytd and we all gathered to go St James to celebrate for her. I met up with Jowena and her friend and we cabbed down together. It wasn't really that fun cause the music was so so and quite crowded. But I still danced cause it's gonna be my last time clubbing alone. lol. Meihua invited so many guy friends to protect us frm villains . LOL.

Really thanks the guys for protecting us which allows us to have an enjoyable night without disturbance. I had really relaxed alot alot while dancing with all my might last night.. My life will start anew as on today.. I really thanks those who had been always encouraging me and supporting me.. Now i got to move on.


Surprisely, got to know meihua's school mates who also stays at bedok and just a blk away from mine.. So we cabbed home together and I got 2 bodyguards walking home with me. Cool. Haha

I really feel, What's yours will still be yours eventually, what's not meant to be will never be. You hate because you loved, you miss because you regret..
Baby, I love you.

Love is all around.

Took this from a girl's blog..


☆~ When she stares at your mouth = "Kiss her"
☆~ When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you = "LET HER BEAT AND ACT PAINFUL"
☆~ When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tuff = "Kiss her and tell her you love her"
☆~ When she's quiet = "Ask her what's wrong"
☆~ When she ignores you = "Give her your attention"
☆~ When you see her at her worst = "Tell her she's beautiful"
☆~ When you see her start crying = "Just hold her and don't say a word"
☆~ When she steals your favorite pillow = "Let her keep it and slp with it for a night"
☆~ When she doesn't answer for a long time = "Reassure her that everything is okay"
☆~ When she looks at you with doubt = "Back yourself up"
☆~ When she says that she likes you = "SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN U COULD UNDERSTAND!"
☆~ When she looks at you in your eyes = "Don't look away until she does"
☆~ When she says it's over = "She still wants you to be hers"
☆~ When she reposts this = "She wants you to read it"
☆~ Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
☆~ Call her at 12:00am on her birthday/anniversary dates to tell her you love her


☆~ Treat her like she's all that matters to you
☆~ Stay up all night with her when she's sick
☆~ Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

STRESS!!

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAVIER TAN THE GREAT :DDD


I've been thinking alot and stayed at home the whole afternoon with my family watching 'Handsome Suit' which my sis rented for us.. Super funny and interesting..

I did enjoyed for a moment and forgot all about mum's nagging.. I know they all nag for my own good, because they love me. I really do appreciate it but sometimes too much of it just makes me feel very turn off, makes me want to be even more rebellious. Sometimes I really dislike the feeling of being treated like a kid when I'm already 18. I know what i'am doing.


I have been really upset and stressed. That's why I behaved so differently from how I used to be.. Sometimes, I really don't know who I can really trust. Who I can say everything to.. I need a break. Mummy, can you stop nagging me? stop scolding me for everything?


It's really not what I want that I behaved so rebelliously and rudely. But I just feel very very tired of talking nicely..


I must really thanks Mr greedy for always being there during these times when I'm really upset and don't know what to do.. Although he's kinder greedy but I appreciate all the counsellings sessions that he made an effort to give me, to call and talk to me properly. Sometimes, it feels like a brother though :S But I know you really love me and care for me, I love you too. I hope I can be a helping hand too when you are upset. :) What I am good at is only to cheer u up or make you laugh. Don't be surprise I blogged about you. You have been great! Thank you.

Goodbye.

Went to Berrylite look for Vanessa. Chatted alot with her recently. Finally, I made up my mind. I no longer feel the pressure..


I really enjoyed myself today, freed myself from the thoughts.. I really thought through very clearly. How I really want things to be, what I really want.. I will miss you alot I swear, I still love u deeply in my heart. Everything will be kept and remembered. :) Hope you can have a smooth journey and take good care of yourself. .

有一种爱叫做放手，是否我们会更快乐？

As on today, I promised myself to move on. :)

Yakult Factory!

Supposed to update this ytd but I was too sleepy while updating in the middle of the night and fell asleep straight.. Learn alot of cool facts about yakult. And Singapore's the only country which has 4 flavors. Pictures show the packaging of yakults in different countries.. lol

We got a free bar of yakult too. So cool, im gonna drink Yakult daily cause it's so cool for our body. :D

Went to pool with Mr greedy and friend. I'm so lousy. LOL.

Glad that I finally think through properly..

I want a rest.

I'm dead beat now!!

Slept at 3am, woke up at 9plus for school. Jasmine late as usual, haha. Shujun's dad fetch us to school, thanks alot :D Otherwise I tink we wouldn't have attended even half the lesson. LOL!

Finished school and went down to Bishan Ite to return our F1 polo tees, long journey. Worked at 6pm till closing. It's been a really long time since I last did closing and also with Penny. Closing was fun. :) Working really made me cheered up a lil and more relaxed.

I've been thinking what I really want. I really really really feel very upset with myself, i've been very indecisive. This is the first time I felt this way, felt I couldn't do anything right. It's been countless days since I last slept well or ate well. I totally got no mood to do anything properly. My laughter drown, my tears flowed. But I still don't know what to do.

It's been quite some time, i shouldn't run away from the problem. I got to make a decision no matter what, worst come to worst. I shall just sacrifice myself. I rather be hate than to be loved cause I dun deserve to be. Sigh.

Enen is very sad, but who truly understands how she feels? Everybody just want an answer.

Drained.Out

Every part of me tells me I'm tired, be it physically or emotionally, I'm really tired. So much so much had happened in my life, leaving me happiness, unhappiness, tears, joy and be it good or bad memories, I will remember them all as they are parts and parcels of my life.

I just learnt that no matter wad happens, ur families, ur kin will be there for you always regardless of what. And no matter wad happens, you just have to learn to accept or let go. Accepting is one thing, letting go is another thing. Both can be a happy or painful process, depending on the situation.

I wish I was just a star, shining down on anyone whose lonely and needs help, giving them warmth and courage to face the cruel truth. To be able to watch over each and everyone whose living on earth.


Sometimes, I wonder. Have I really regretted about anything or decisions which I made in the past? Looking back, I must not deny that I did. At the point of time when we decided to make that decision, it might seems right and tells us we will not regret it. But as time passes, everything and factors changes, resulting in a change which will makes us feel that we have regretted making that decision. However, if you had never made that decision, would you have been able to come by to what it is today? Life's ironic and contradicting.


I realise I had all along been a weakling who never faced up to the truth. No matter how much tears, it's not gonna change anything. I just want some peace now.

It's time to stop for a rest, time to think about the future and what I really want.

WORK = MONEY

Been working at iluma for closing for the last 2 days. Quite enjoyable though it's very quiet there. Hopefully I'll not be working there for long cause i still prefer Parkway. :)


Many things on my mind, who can I talk to? Cause I really don't know what to do and don't evn know what I want. I just don't want any regrets. Once wrong, there's no more turning back already. Sigh, really very stress. But I'm glad I still have good friends around me cheering me all the time and the support from baby at times.


Baby is going overseas soon next week on the 18th october and will be back only one month plus later on 23rd November. Which means, I'll be separated with him for 6weeks. wow. Is that another kind of holiday for me? I will miss him for sure. But it's also a good time for me to learn to be independent and also tink over about wad i want.


Wish baby all the best, a good and safe journey for him I pray. And yea, I love you.

F1 pictures.

Finally I got the chance to come and upload the pictures taken during F1. Hahas. Yup, really had an enjoyable time with everyone. Thanks for all the fun :)

The rest of the group photos and stuff are in my FB, can take a look there if you are interested.

Gotten over with my hair already, it dosen't really looks so bad after all. And my hair is getting better each day as I have wash with conditioner n treatment everyday. :D Well, look on the brighter side I shall!

Thanks for the confidence you gave me :)

itchy hand.

Seriously, I thought about it for a whole night.

IF i didnt went to cut my hair and stuff, I would have beautiful normal hair.
IF i had been cleverer, my hair wouldn't land up in such a state.
IF i didn't yearn for a new hair style, i wouldn't have such a ''NICE'' one now. -.-'''

I have never been so sad over my hair before even when there was once I cutted my hair damn short like a mushroom head during my primary school days. I didn't tear at all. But now, I can feel everyone laughing at me. ):

I'm doing all sorts of treatment to get my hair back.



I''m rotting at home now. Baby just called me earlier telling me that his grandfather is in changi hospital, wondered wad happened. But he didn't ask me to go down so I stay at home to wait for his news. Hope for the best.

F1

Forgot to blog about F1 just now.

Yup, it's over but it was overall enjoyable and tough. But we made it, and nobody fainted though we all kept saying we are going to get heat stroke and stuff, going to faint. HAHAHA, so funny. I really had fun with everyone. Cause Im not using my own lappy now, i wun be uploading pictures for the time being. Sorry about the boring and wordy post.

But I really wish to thank Francis our in charge for taking good care of us. And is even thinking of a gathering with us before our school starts. Wish him a happy belated birthday here too. :D


I'll be back soon with pictures i hope. :X I look ugly now.

I want my hair back!

Argh, my hair sucks totally.

Went to a salon at bras brasah level 3 to do soft straightening and also cutted my fringe to slant but it dosent looks like slant at all. Oh my god! Everything sucks, now my fringe so short and ugly, behind hair become so rough and hard. How am I going to go out and face people? WTH.

Should I say i'm lucky cause I'm still on holidays until 2weeks later and maybe it will grow back abit? So from now on, I can be a tortise and hide at home except for work. I seriously don't want to go out and become a laughing stock lo. So fugly.

I don't know how to describe it.


Btw I was late for opening ytd for 10mins, was working with a new guy called Javier Tan Martin, sounds like mixed right? but he's a local, omg, don't let him know that I wrote out his full name here. HAHA. He's quite a nice guy anyway. Then came Elena and 3 of us kept talking and I went home with Elena. HAHA.


I'm so free nowadays. I shall make myself busy. Only today and tmr I'm so free. LOL. gotta go help baby buy his zip lock bag for his overseas preparation. Any idea where to get except for ikea?